sorry i rly missed him so you will perceive

still rly like this ref i did of my #fursona last year after i decided i wanted him to be pink 🌸 #art #oc

i still love this commission i got from @larke.bsky.social like forever ago too 🥺 please look at himb #furryart | #fursona

🌸 never posted this art of my fursona from a million years ago... #furryart | #fursona

🌸✨ its her world tbh #ffxiv | #wol | #ffxivart | #art

there's logic to my madness... even though i think this list needs updating... the bones of it is still pretty correct :^)

✨ remember when i went insane and made this non-exhaustive list of all the fictional characters that somehow inspired ein

on the heels of an oc i recently made being the product of my gender dysphoria b4 i realized that was the case and then reading that essay... i just feel so seen and validated i guess it is simply my curse as a creative to imbue my blorbos with things from my mind palace that ive yet to comprehend

oh I guess I should qrt this. hi I wrote this! please be normal to me. this thesis is less about ffxiv and more in that ffxiv and ERP are a mode through which (my) gender and sexuality are negotiated, and how fan studies/games studies/trans studies doesn't "see" or think about ppl like me (yet)

first actual therapy session tomorrow since 2021 and im sitting here like "there's so much lore..."

YES YES YES

it's been one of those years pass the yaoi 🏳️‍🌈

✨ boy who gets off on being treated like a girl #ffxivoc | #gpose

learning someone from my alma mater wrote their master thesis on being a transmasc ERPer in FFXIV and this might be the best thing ive ever read in my life (im literally only 6 pages into it) #ffxiv

✨ they could describe everything with one single word... you know? like ✨

✨ he's just so cutieful... #ffxivoc | #gpose

✨ If the world was ending, I'd wanna be next to you ✨ #ffxivoc | #wolgraha | #gpose

✨ "it doesn't change anything. i still feel the same way. i still love you." ✨ #ffxivoc | #wolgraha | #gpose

it's really cool that my body's reaction to my taking actions to heal and recover and live my best life is to *checks notes* make me feel deeply uncomfortable and wrong in my skin

can’t sleep

🌸 drawing the future i want for myself lmfao sdklfjsdfl

idk i think it would be like really cool to ask my mom if she could start calling me avery but im also like… do i open this can worms brother

ok one more #averymaxxing

tummy #averymaxxing

what if i make a tag for tummy pics would anyone think less of me orz

greatly underestimated the power of taking thirst traps of yourself for gender euphoria reasons like whewwwww im cute lmfao

looking up trans/masc resources is always so irritating for me bcus its always so binary and/or white... not thats it not valuable but i also want to know about ppl whose experiences are closer to mine

💅🏼 feeling real dysphoric lately and dealing with it by being cute

hard launching the fact that i want top surgery

ough

ive been soft launching talking about being gay more with my normie friend and it has been going surprisingly well

SLY FOX OK

it's shirtless raha time bc i love himmmm raughh 💥💥 #swiftclawART #grasuri

✨ he's just so cutieful... #ffxivoc | #gpose

I mean it from the bottom of my heart, just create for yourself first and then for the five people you keep captive in your basement.

✨ they could describe everything with one single word... you know? like ✨

✨ insane #ffxiv | #gpose | #wol

made my dol oc in xiv........ gender euphoria

✨ If the world was ending, I'd wanna be next to you ✨ #ffxivoc | #wolgraha | #gpose

✨ #einsfw *clears throat*

i lowkey wanna know who ppl would wanna ship ein with ngl lmfao..... g'raha is her main guy but, she has had relationships with a few others. most of her relationships with other women didn't work out though

🌸✨ its her world tbh #ffxiv | #wol | #ffxivart | #art

ough the way he looks at her OUGH

✨ "it doesn't change anything. i still feel the same way. i still love you." ✨ #ffxivoc | #wolgraha | #gpose

posed graha and ein for the first time in like forEVER and its making me CRY brother

✨ GETCHA GETCHA GETCHA BOY ✨

✨ GETCHA GETCHA GETCHA BOY ✨

✨ crash course on rai she's literally just a doomed timeline ein that turned into a lightwarden so they're kind of twins #ffxiv | #xivoc | #gpose

✨ profile thingy i made for my lightwarden oc who is from doomed timeline where wol left for the tempest alone and eventually succombed to the light ;')

✨ gpose comic of a scene from my lightwarden au fic i am normal abt them #ffxiv | #gposecomic | #wolexarch (kinda)