Doggy

Today is one of the (many) days that I'm very grateful to work with dogs. They help me regulate so much, and are really good listeners, too. I'm absolutely terrified with everything going on in the world right now, so I've been tending to lose myself in work as much as I can.

Oops I napped for three hours x.x

Thanks to someone's incredible generosity, the surprise charge was taken care of <3 Leaving the ko-fi post up as a general reminder, but thankfully the situation is no longer nearly as dire.

My therapist is out of network with my new insurance, and this resulted in a surprise charge of nearly $300 I was not expecting (normal fee is $35) I'm going through bankruptcy, trying to build a financial safety net. This is devastating. If anyone has the ability to help: ko-fi.com/shilohcorgsky

I got a message on Facebook this week that my birth mother had passed away at the age of 57, surprising everyone. It hit me harder than I expected it to. I never got to meet her; the woman who loved me so much, she gave me up for adoption because she knew it was my chance to have a better life.

Seriously, even my parents said "Fuck this" and bailed. Maybe they're the smart ones.

Anyone who has the misfortune of dealing with me deserves so much better. I'm sorry for how much of a burden my presence is.

I may have a hundred degree fever, but at least my tits look good today.

Mild cheddar is insulting. I want a cheddar so sharp it shreds my mouth up when I eat it.

Today was one of those days that really tested me. Worst thing was that my car broke down on the way home from work so that's going to be a fun problem to figure out. So thankful to @rowelandfox.bsky.social for helping get to the shop tomorrow, and his sister for her help today in getting me home.

I really just want to give up.

Shoutouts to Chosen Family this holiday season! Many queer people have either limited or zero biological family members they can turn to. But through queer togetherness comes chosen family; the ones who take care of you as if you were blood. They make the world go 'round day in, day out! Cheers~

This smile is pretty much plastered on my face whenever I'm at work. I love what I do so much :)

I never realized that the holiday season could be this painful. I miss my family, this hurts. I just wish they'd love me for who I am.

Update to the "family" situation: I wrote a long email, baring my soul to them and talking about my C-PTSD and asking them to take some accountability for making me the way I am. They decided that disowning me was a better choice. Fuck them.

Don't let Eon find out you have a pussy. Finished ghost hands commission for a certain Corgsky featuring a special someone's ghosty limbs... <3

"If it looks like my shriveled-up ball sack, it's going in the pie." @rowelandfox.bsky.social #NoContext

U.S. pals: Do. Not. Donate. To. Salvation. Army. There are better charities out there. Much better.

Reminder: I'm a 38 year-old woman. This is fucking insane.

My parents called my workplace today to try and make contact with me. Then, they asked the cops for a wellness check on me because "they hadn't heard from me for 3 months". Bitch, you didn't even TRY to contact me over those three months, fuck off. I feel so violated and incredibly pissed.

When he tells you to "Speak" before he fills you with his puppies *moans extremely loudly*

*Tries to chase away the con FOMO by watching Supermarket Sweep and drinking Bailey's*

We're open! Swing over to table J-19 in the Furfest dealer's den for our biggest haul ever, including two new titles: "Rare Breed 2" and "Father Figures!"

Hot take: Wasn't a big fan of Zootopia 2. The pacing seemed incredibly inconsistent, the characterization was... rocky at best, and I just wasn't super entertained. I very well may have went in with expectations that were too high; but seeing it once is enough for me.

I hope that everyone going to MFF coming up has an amazing time. Part of me wishes I could be there, but I know I need to work as much as I can, and also I know that there's going to be WAY too many people in one place for me to even start to enjoy myself. I love you all and will miss seeing you!

just girlies having fun together! carla and shiloh togetheeer! @shilohcorgsky.bsky.social

C'mon Kirby Air Riders. Imma need you to download faster, please.

C-PTSD fucking sucks and for those of you out there going through it like I am, I see you, I love you, and your struggles are real, valid, and you're doing a great job.

Rushed Mozart to the emergency vet this afternoon. Got home from my shift and he was lying in a puddle of his own drool with really labored breathing and coughing. The poor guy has keenel cough and pneumonia, but I'm just so thankful it wasn't bloat. I was worried I was going to lose him today.

A neurodivergent horror story in 8 words:

Freaking love this YCH from @trashcorgi.pmd.social! Autism, my favorite season.

Growth

I'm one of those weird "morning people". Good morning animal people in my phone. Make it the best day you can today. For no one else but you, because you deserve it!

It's chili season.

Today, as I am closing in on my one-year anniversary of returning to dog handling later this month, I'm struck with such immense gratitude. To the owners of the daycare- for giving me a chance to come back and do the thing that I love the most in the whole world, loving and caring for dogs.

Holy crap, I'm under 180 pounds for the first time in recent memory. I guess handling dogs has some physical benefits, too!

A portion of every dollar spent on Harry Potter merchandise goes to anti-transgender campaigns.

Just finished Pokemon Legends Z-A, and no spoilers, but it got very weird, very quickly. Really jarring pacing. Other than the pacing feeling off though, I REALLY enjoyed the game, and I'm super excited for all the shiny hunting and upcoming DLC. Super strong start for Pokemon on the Switch 2!

I would give anything to hear my mom say she's proud of me. That she loves me as her daughter, but I know that will never happen. She's too busy mourning a version of me that shouldn't have needed to exist, instead of loving the person who's here. Having a narcissistic mother is heartbreaking.

I think about this a lot.

If you need me, I'll be watching the Westminster Agility Championships. This is my super bowl.

Really rough morning at work. That happens with animals, I suppose. Hoping for a better afternoon.

Taking @rowelandfox.bsky.social out for dinner for his birthday tonight! They had an Oktoberfest Spetzle Mac n Cheese topped with pork schnitzel. I would like to bathe in it, please. Holy hell it's good.

*Screams in nerd*

So excited to pick up my Switch 2/Legends Z-A Bundle tonight after work! I really wanted to go to the midnight release, but alas, I am a 38 year old woman who works in a physically demanding job and needs her beauty sleep because she starts work at 7 AM or earlier every morning. xD

Today was one of the most high maintenance and difficult daycare groups I've handled in recent memory. "HEY YOU HAVE A TOY I WANT" *attacks* Dogs mounting each other left and right All while trying to keep the ball players adequately entertained. I'm exhausted. I fucking love my job.

In therapy today, I had to confront the belief that living my authentic life as my trans self causes real pain for my mother, and that no contact may be the compassionate choice for both of us and I'm struggling with that. She's never been particularly interested in getting to know the real me.