this only means i shall gladly feed meself.

*hands up* aight, that's enough art re-posting. i'm currently cleaning my CSP folders. cleaning is fun.

O' Romeo, Romeo. His heart misses you so. [ #liesofp, #artlog. ]

i wish i could fall deep in love with gacha life-sim games again but ever since i lost A3! and AFTERL!FE, i find it very very difficult to put so much of my love into it. it was devastating when those games shut down.

"this town is too fragile for your thudding steps." [ #pathologic, #artlog. ]

me and partner played as these guys back then. loved the sabrina carpenter battlepass. [ #fortnite, #artlog. ]

seeing my old posts makes me sentimental and embarrassed. haha, it's cute. it's cute to see how i handled things. proud too.

"You only see me when the tears roll down your face. You only show up when the clouds won't go away. You always said we'd be together, forever, whatever the weather. It's me and my umbrella now." youtu.be/WHskTpyR1XY?... #musiclog

deleted all my art becaaaaause i'm a neat freak. and i looove arranging thiiiings, i hate my love for arranging my stuffff

"oh no, youre in [insert game]?? nooo their fandom is bad!!!" how dare you call my discord group with 4 of my closest friends bad?? apologize to the entire fandom right now.

idk, anaxa reeks of chappell roan's the subway and i refuse to explain further. it's just His song.

anaxa

way 4 luv, way 4 your luv.... 🎵

Honkai Star Rail likers. Who else thinks Anaxa and Dr. Ratio should kiss

me back then when i went to therapy for the first time: IM SO BROKEN. SCARED.... I CANT HANDLE THIS. me now after getting too used to the hospital smell: ...... meh, on the bright side, it means i was never alone afterall. *shakes my head around, thinking it'll shake the guys in there. it doesn't.*

Textile Market, Cracow, from Au Pied du Sinaï

does sunday know that welt has a co-parent and kid while he's trying to f*ck him. would that even stop sunday

oooooo?

MY CHILDHOOD. LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. a-another remake... (but meh, the new fatal frame games in the series, weren't so great.. so of course they're remaking 2)

i do be waking up in the dead of night and going, "when the fuck did i write this post / message this person?"-- jfc what year is it. when did i sleep

yeesh, g' morning. woke up from a nightmare of old memories.

Henriette Willebeek LeMair (1889-1966), 1912

my cousin said, "i love that you're out of your room and wanting to hang out with us and the family... you kept disappearing, all for 10 years." 🫶 and i just. Sent a Hospital emoji. If there was a man emoji with belts all over his white outfit, I would've sent that too.

Welp the TWST posting has began, sorry guys tried to hold it in for as long as I could 💔 Anyways I don´t really ship anyone in game but I love these two their dynamic! Romantic or platonic, they are so adorable! Epel's parents fr, Pomefiore best dorm. #rookvil #twst #twstファンアート #xitrieart

PLEASE DON'T TAKE ME THERE. HELP. SOMEBODY HELP. WHY AM I GOING TO AN ESPORTS CAFE

now? whenever someone hints at me that something is wrong but CHOOSES to be passive aggressive instead, i ain't gonna do my old anxious dance of being your therapist trying to pry what's wrong, out of you. i was 'the therapist' for ppl for a long time, even to my mom. talk to your friends properly.

my computer has been off for awhile now. *dances* as usual, it feels amazing, holy fuck

YESESSSSSSS YEEESSS I GOT CHOSEN!!!!!! AND ITS A 5 DAYS A WEEK WITH FLEXIBLE HOURS AND MEDICAL BENEFITS YEEEESSSSSSSSSS

Never, ever accept people that insist or demand that you must put your best foot forward for them but then they trample on it harshly or disappear on you with no explanation. Talked to online friends and I'm glad (but also sad) that I wasn't the only one that got left by all our IRL friends.

ill be going to a new mental health centre soon, to look around the facility. nervous!

this is funny to say but im happy i played league of legends. not because it's a good game (+ we left it after knowing more of riot's history and continuous bad decisions) but because i met my partner through it. 2 years now... time flies. 🫶❤️ idk how i found a genuine person in that game, don't ask.

"we're not going to talk about how u had a suicidal meltdown and that u were holding a knife alone in the house, just 2 days ago?" it's been like that for 10 years for me. therapy and hospital don't mean my meltdowns get more rainbow-y and High School Musical Summertime.

my partner is sharing me 'joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat' ? idk what this is, but he won't stop laughing about it. so, why not. i got zine pieces and comm pieces to render.

I really do feel like we gotta be nicer to ourselves sometimes (Also points at myself too because of course.) For example: Just because your mental health issues are more manageable and less destructive doesn't mean they aren't still there. My BPD is more manageable, but it's still a bitch ❤️

weekend plans

"Everything one says on socmed? it's all for the Branding. 🙄" I was a MySpace user since 2007, telling my 26 online friends how being alive was shit like an Xx_edgelord_xX while i tell them what i'm eating and listening to. It's a diary to me and others. Not everyone is in social media for branding.

have faith in your own experiences and interpretations!!! let your personal experience of something have meaning, as opposed to trying to find the “correct” meaning

Today is a day when arts degrees are worthless, but the product of those degrees is so valuable it would kill an entire industry if they were made to pay for it.

Another old Hades fanart piece. This one was my first time drawing both Hypnos and Ares! I would, of course, go on to draw each of them a lot XD #hadesgame

Me and my partner went out the whole day and... WE MET A CELEBRITY. I'LL POST PHOTO. WE BOUGHT HIS MERCH. HE'S SO COOL

i can't take it anymore *abducts Father Lyon Allard from DE headquarters*

If people don’t communicate their needs, issues, or triggers and hide things from you only to unleash them like a deluge that’s toxic as hell. You deserve people around you that will have those hard conversations, communicate clearly, and foster actual community. True friends grow together.

wip, added harrow and HMMMM <3

i never watched game of thrones before but my partner explaining the plot to me, is terrifying my ass. what is GOING ON in that series (apparently, its a series. not a movie!)

got awful nightmares. it's been awhile. thankfully, i got the anxiety pills so i'll be ok. but god. it's been awhile.

my gosh, the warframe community is so sweet and welcoming. i am including in-game players too... 💖. thank you for welcoming a newbie like me. I'll get to your powerful levels someday!!!

me want to kiss the priest. me want to kiss priest so bad. oh, warframe,,

Disney adults canceling subscriptions, vacations, etc really are making the Harry Potter adults that threw a fit over a $60 video game look like huge bitches