Starting over with my follows because my timeline has gotten way too doomer and way too scoldy. I get my news from the news. Can't really afford to do the staring into the void thing on every social media. Nothing personal.

No more "personal brand". This profile will just be me from now on, for better and for worse. Let's get a little weird with it.

I keep having these 2am thoughts of "no one likes me" but that isn't true. A lot of the people who interact with me like me. What's true is that I don't have any fans, because I'm not creating anything.

one of my biggest quality of life increases was realizing that for people whose only interaction with me was to tell me all the things I could be doing differently, i could simply not spend time with them and they could do that by themselves without me involved at all.

Splitgate 2 out here like: Fuck you *unlaunches your game*

Wish "overstatement of harm as justification for revenge" weren't so par for the course on the left-leaning internet

I think I am old enough now that I can accept that I don't really want to be too social or too famous. I always put my damn foot in my mouth. Even when I haven't yet, it feels stressful. I can only say "this time, it's gonna be different" so many times before I stop believing it

Passed my professional licensing exam, lost the project bid, but got an offer from an interview three and a half months ago. Never been so happy to switch gears.

if youre looking for a rational, useful thing to do i would recommend comparing your appearance to that of curated and edited images online of people who are attractive on a professional basis. this will profit you immensely

Can I be honest? Both my Discover timeline and my What's Hot timeline are boring as shit right now. Just the same reheated stuff. It's not really a great sign.

what if I were more fearless about making jokes not everybody will get? how would that play out, I wonder

@magicmarionette.bsky.social is a goober bat and deserves more attention. Pass it on.

april

It's just a bad day, not a bad life.

Don't know why there's a chip on my shoulder about never sticking with an Internet presence or creative endeavor long enough to become popular when my real life is about as comfortable as it could be. Aside from the loneliness, I guess.

Hot take: Don't hate the new Discord update. It let me go even more compact than before. I crave the information density

I would love to make, like, one or two new close friends. I know I'm crazy busy and older than most of the Internet, but it'd be cool to have some new folks in my circles.

I was *just* getting my sleep cycle right, and then getting sick fucked me over again.

Recrystallizing my sense of personality, and understanding more wholly what I am about.

I have officially reached old man status with my "Jazz and Classical public radio while doing desk work" phase

I'm gonna stick it out for 2025. I'm going to pursue the furthest educational attainment that is prudent and reasonable, and I'm going to give putting my body back into "decent" shape before 40 one last try. But I have no idea what I'm going to do next.

How meaningful is it to help people who are, in the long run, beyond help? Why do I feel bad for not wanting to win over people who don't want to like me anyway? What am I even aiming to do after I'm done with this stage of my life? Where does my effort go?

I want to believe all the time and effort I'm putting in is going to go somewhere, but as uncertain as the world is right now, and as little difference as I make in the world now, hiding from my past self, I just don't know. Maybe no one will care what I accomplished.

Monthly Check In: * 4.0 in grad school still (two of six "quarters" in) * Two first interviews and a second this month * Pushed down to 1800 cal/day to make April goal weight, and very, very gradually easing running into my 90 active minutes a day

Is it insane to think "I can't wait to finish this Master's degree so I can get back to making stuff for a tiny audience on the Internet" or

A lot of the silly discourse and negative comments on here boil down to the fact that the genre of people who earnestly comment on viral posts do not understand sarcasm whatsoever

Anyone know of someplace hiring? I was most recently a "technical business performance associate" at SolutionHub, working on their eQuality suite's Xcelerate product. I didn't understand a single thing about what the company, product, or me did, and I made $950,000 an hour to reply emojis on Teams.

Checking in: * A+ average in grad school right now (one of six "quarters" in) * Contract extended through end of May, though I'm still actively looking for project manager / scrum master work * Also about a month into 2100cal/day and 60-70min of daily cardio. We'll see what happens!

What is Jake looking at (wrong answers only)

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Put in 35 job applications this week for Release Train Engineer, Scrum Master, and Project Manager positions. Heard back from one and it was a robocall. Am I cooked?

Aweboposting on your feed.

I'm only 3 days into the change, but eating at maintenance and doing a pound a week's worth of cardio seems way less miserable than eating a pound a week under maintenance.

Nothing is quite as terrifying or vulnerable as sincerely trying to clear the bar of Making Good Art.

I've given up on having an audience for now. Trying brought me little success and no satisfaction. I just want to have friends.

I went and isolated for a bit while I was weighing out how much strain work and school would be. I think I will manage. No big creative goals this year; just trying to stay healthy and finish my degree. But I'll have some time to play games or chat with my friends if I like.

Okay, folks. I've got a lot to do for now and I need to protect my focus, so I'm signing off for a bit. As always, please continue to support @magicmarionette.bsky.social and I'll see you all the next time I make something that I want to show the world. Love, Trev

About four months at most. There was Grand Canyon, Stockholm, Stress About Work, and Christmas

Let's all check in. How long did your year feel? Mine was 3 years long

Lay down at an appropriate time for our current time zone and only managed about 3 hours of sleep, so real Contemplating Mortality hours it is

I keep reiterating that my only goals for 2025 are to do well in grad school and get healthy, but I'm not really saying it for my friends and followers. I'm reminding myself not to bite off more than I can chew.

Without downloading any new pics, what’s your energy going into 2025

Grad school will take up two nights a week, and my lovely spouse will stream (from my office) for at least three. So streams, videos, and songs will be contingent on how much homework I have. But I hope to have at least a little creative output next year. We'll see?

Roasting Chet's nuts. Tom can't stop me now

"Posting through it" until Shinigami Eyes considers me notable enough to make me green

I woke up super late but here's another old fumo-based fanart. This time it's of my friend, the amazing artist @magicmarionette.bsky.social !! Please go check them out if you like art, bats, and/or CHILL VIBES #art #fumo #bat #batvtuber #magicmarionette #art #digitalart #glaze

What are the health risks of drinking 12L of agave nectar a month. Asking for me

So here's how things are (probably) going to shape up for me in 2025: * Grad school, provided I can afford it, full-time all year. * Staying on my current 40hr/wk contract until March 1, provided I can swing that and my school workload. * March 1 onward - getting back into streamer-centric software

Why did #AEW ditch Toni Storm's most successful gimmick ever? It was the most over I've seen anything be over in recent memory. I'm just baffled with the new creative direction