*gently sobbing* ‘please, just put me in the battery, please, I wasn’t hired for this. This language isn’t even in ascii characters. What do you expect me to do’

I like Tron because bright flashing lines and bass make my brain feel good. If all future Tron movies could just be 2 hours of heavy bass and some sort of neon windows media player visualiser, without you know, the rest of it, that’d be perfect tbh.

New brainrot transfem passing test just dropped.

Today’s incense flavour is just called ‘positive vibes’… I cannot place the smell but it’s very calming.

I wish someone properly explained to you as a teenager that ‘being an adult’ is entirely a work of fiction. I am no more or less of a functional person today than I was at 17. Except now I buy and use fabric softener as a prop to help me maintain the fiction.

don't worry you cannot die alone the mites on your skin the bacteria in your gut will hold you tight as you go

I cannot fathom why we’re still fucking around with petitions. Particularly non-parliament ones. The rotting establishment with their eradication plans don’t care if a bunch of trannies all sign another piece of paper says ‘we, the trannies and co, disapprove of your attempts to destroy us’.

Still dark outside. With good coffee and a mince pie. Watching Labyrinth. Under a pile of blankets. This might be the perfect morning.

Proposal for a new fable: ‘The chronically dehydrated trans girl who wouldn’t stop complaining about how dry she felt all the time.’ Yes it’s about me shut up.

I have remoulded my very being to a degree that even those closest to me now find me unrecognisable. I am my own Prometheus. However, the two tiny recurrent dry patches of skin on my feet? Unfixable. It cannot be done. According to dermatologists and podiatrists. I will beat you too, Dry Skin.

Got blocked for this one.

I was gunna put it off, but I'm just gunna share cos people are feeling hopeless: I have secured 10s of 1000s of pounds (so far) to buy property that will form the start of a social housing system for trans people, that will charge you the local housing authority rate for your rent. 1/?

Jfc what is so god damn hard to understand here. It is not ok for cis people to be profiting off trans stories and experiences by taking paid roles away from trans actors. Not when we face such disparate economic conditions. This. Is. Not. Difficult. Get. Some. Fucking. Awareness.

you cannot just take estradiol and rot in your room alone gaming, boymoding whenever you do go out. you do have to actively, socially, create yourself as a woman

‘trans women will be unable to hear the major speeches or participate and vote’ You hear what you’re saying right? You’ve said these words aloud? You consider yourselves a ‘left’ party and yet you’ve stripped a minority of voting rights. You’re not on the side of history you think you are.

After some thought. I don’t think I hate fascists. Certainly not any more than prey hates a blood crazed predator. Or a torrential rain that threatens to flood my house. I fear them, certainly. But they are just a mindless force. To be dealt with as such. They don’t deserve emotion from me.

I’m always amazed by how different two peoples perception of the world can be. Just finished talking to a girl who was telling me very enthusiastically how nice and friendly Dubai is. A great place for a holiday. I didn’t bother explaining why I’d never find out if that were true.

Me : I really struggle to make meaningful connections with people and I don’t know why. Also me : I’m going to treat every interaction like it’s with a work colleague who’s recording me. And then try to never interact with that person again out of fear of accidentally being vulnerable.

Finished. Now onto ‘Tell me I’m worthless’ by Alison Rumfitt. Nothing like a bit of escapism from the brutality of trans life in modern Britain… 🙃

Oh look. Wednesday is here. Can’t wait to see what Thursday brings.

You have the choice to sacrifice trans people. Perhaps it will save you. But you don't get to ask trans people to accept the role as sacrifice. You cannot expect understanding, acceptance, forgiveness, or respect. You made your choice.

Dreamt that you kissed me like you used to in the most vivid fever dream I’ve ever had. And this morning my heart feels like it’s broken all over again. Maybe this is just how it will be. Maybe I don’t ever get over you. And maybe that’s ok.

The thing I struggle with the most about All Of This, is that when I talk to the cis people in my life, they’re just so fucking unaware of what’s happening to us. Yet, not only do I have to exist through this. I’m also expected to act as teacher, therapist, hand holder. I’m fucking exhausted.

Can’t we just get to the point where you show me the Strangest Thing and we can all go home early.

Another day. Another announcement that makes me sick to my core. I hope the people who did this are forever burdened by the weight of their cruelty.

Debating a nose ring. Would it get caught up on my glasses? Am I just bored?

‘Oh that sounds interesting, do you enjoy it?’ No. Shut up. Or ‘Oh I’m a <hobbyist> programmer too, do you know <obscure scripting language for some game>?’ No. Shut up.

😭 come on guys what the fuck are we even doing here. £9.85 fees on a £38 ticket. Revolution now.

I’ve done the correct thing and buried myself in a pile of blankets with coffee and blueberry muffins. Queue feeling horrible intense guilt all day for not forcing myself into work to increase value for shareholders. Gods capitalism has fucked us.

Coming down with a cold and have back to back teams meetings all day. Just need someone to lovingly tuck me in bed and beat me over the head with something hard until I go back to sleep please.

Oh boy. We’ve officially entered the ‘estranged family members asserting their denial of my autonomy through passive aggressive Christmas cards’ season ✨🎄

No Nut November should be a fundraiser for trans women’s bottom surgeries.

Tired: using ai copilots for help with debugging. Wired: using your tarot cards to spirit guide you through the stack trace.

Still waiting to be swept off my feet and taken to live in a commune of queer forest girls. Note that due to the lack of movement on this, I will now also accept ‘abducted into a woodland cult’.

It’s been 2 days since The Discovery and it is still very very fun.

There are two wolves inside me and the gay one thinks the straight one is a fucking idiot.

Seem to be entering the ‘oh maybe…’ part of the eternal cycle I’m caught in. Alternating between ‘I only date women because men are monsters’ & ‘oh maybe this time…’ Fuck sake.

More evidence for my theory that Your Party is a far right psy op. What an embarrassment.

First Forgotten #LGBTQ #Queer #LGBTQrights #Transrights

Can’t wait for my latest set of bad decisions to explode in my face. Just like they always do.

Just discovered that the multi effect pedal I’ve had sat by my amp for years has an organ effect. Like a full on church organ effect. I’m still processing what to do with this information but I fully expect it to change my life in incalculable ways…

Trying to muster any enthusiasm this morning. Coming up empty. Took a quick scroll through the work emails that came in overnight. There is no joy to be found here.

The loud, opinionated boomer at the table next to us in spoons called me darling and held the door for me. I have passed the final trial. I will now ascend to the next realm. He will be trapped in purgatory for eternity for betraying the fundamentals of spoons and being nice to a tranny.

poem that my dear friend @arcanumb.bsky.social wrote & published this week ❤️‍🔥🏳️‍⚧️

Trans women passing the same £20 around but instead it’s me losing and gaining the same 5 lbs.

I solved it: ‘AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH’

One day, those responsible will find themselves dragged into the deep. The weight of our dead, an anchor around their necks. Today, alongside those we’ve lost, I remember that justice is inevitable and I pray that we are here to see it. Stay safe. Stay alive. We will outlast them. ❤️

Pretty horny for a good nights sleep tbh.