2004, I got Mono from my "first love". Then on 8/24/2018, during a work week I was LOVING, at the peak of my career, in my prime, it ALL changed. I'm missing from my life. I'm one of the Millions Missing. Phuck MEcfs.

I sure am ridiculously nice for how unlivably angry I am. #mood

I am NOT. HEARD. I am MUZZLED. I am ACCUSED and misunderstood by the F R I E N D that I thought could NEVER EVER ACCUSE or muzzle me. E V E R . I WANT to go away. Permanently.

you should be worried

I don't want to be here. When does the total hellscape END? (If you're about to tell me the Story Of Job, or say you'll pray, or mention jesus, kindly fk off.)

Do you think I'm so shallow to not see the beauty in you?

A million percent

fucking box

"Religion gives comfort...from a world torn apart by...well, religion mostly." Fk yes, #JonStewart! #TheDailyShow youtube.com/shorts/X5xNf...

I mean...... PUHLLLEEEEEASSSE? 😷🤫 #Memes #Meme #MURPHYSLAW #ChronicIllness #MECFS #Cats

fucking bombardment

Another Disabled woman helped my Senior ma ...'cuz I couldn't myself & I'm more physically incapacitated than them. That's a hell of a bottom line atm. In other news, a guy screamed at me 9 days ago in my driveway for 'not being sick, look at you'! #MECFS #pwME #EBV #LC #Spoonies #ChronicIllness

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Hear someone when they first speak softly. I wish we didn't have to scream for help to be heard ...and have even that, not work ...which just brings more screams.

SEIZE JOY FROM THE JAWS OF PAIN. DO YOU HAVE SOMEONE YOU CAN TALK TO?

When ppl say they're in a bad spot, u DON'T leap OFF social media w some complex abt IT & ignore ur friend. You investigate their posts, so that ur neglect doesn't make them worse. Fucking care. #MECFS #pwME #PTSD #cPTSD #ISOLATION #Neglect #Breadcrumbing #Abuse #Spoonies #ChronicIllness #NEIS

I wander here, frantically searching. But you see, I am dead already. Without the pleasure of death. . #MECFS #EBV #Mono #IACC #SEID #pwME #PTSD #ChronicIllness #Disability #Disabled #Spoonies #Viral #Death #SI #NEIS #NEISvoid

It's a babyyyyy. 🐆 😥 💘 🥲 #Cats #Cat #CatsOfBlueSky #CatsOfTikTok #NotMyCat #Memes #Meme #EasyLikeSundayMorning #Lionel #Cosmo #Classic #Songs #Singing #Music

Where are ALL the #SPOONIES? The ones w/ #ChronicIllness? The #MECFS babes? Please show yourself w/ a hi! #LongCOVID #ME #CFS #SEID #MILLIONSmissing #EBV #EpsteinBarr #Mono #POTS #Dysautonomia #HSD #Hypermobility #EDS #DisabledByVIRUS #Disabled #Disability #Sick #NeverGotBetter #NEIS #NEISvoid

It's a babyyyyy. 🐆 😥 💘 🥲 #Cats #Cat #CatsOfBlueSky #CatsOfTikTok #NotMyCat #Memes #Meme #EasyLikeSundayMorning #Lionel #Cosmo #Classic #Songs #Singing #Music

EXACTLY! It makes some of us Night Owl-y ...or work off something other than a 24-hr rhythm...to lengthen the end of our day. More than subconscious for me. Why would I wanna cut SHORT the BEST time of my day, physically, mentally, emotionally, creatively, productively.......?? #MECFS #Spoonies

EXACTLY! It makes some of us Night Owl-y ...or work off something other than a 24-hr rhythm...to lengthen the end of our day. More than subconscious for me. Why would I wanna cut SHORT the BEST time of my day, physically, mentally, emotionally, creatively, productively.......?? #MECFS #Spoonies

RELISH IN THE SCREAMS OF YOUR ENEMIES! ARE YOU HYDRATED?

If you think about it hard enough, we're nothing but a collection of trauma responses. Cheers! 🍻

Sometimes you don't know HOW fucking badly you need the 'thank you, that's really sweet of you, same!' ...until you're not getting it enough times ...where it used to be, or where you yourself usually often can add it in.

*whispers quickly n' softly* I want you

Not completing Conversation, being interrupted/ignored = lil' Deaths to me every time

I am a HUMAN. I need touch, affection, hugs, eye contact, and in person interaction. Connection. Like everyone else. I've never not deserved that. The more of it you're privileged to have, the more you're annoyed by it. The more you need it, the more out of reach.

Where are ALL the #SPOONIES? The ones w/ #ChronicIllness? The #MECFS babes? Please show yourself w/ a hi! #LongCOVID #ME #CFS #SEID #MILLIONSmissing #EBV #EpsteinBarr #Mono #POTS #Dysautonomia #HSD #Hypermobility #EDS #DisabledByVIRUS #Disabled #Disability #Sick #NeverGotBetter #NEIS #NEISvoid

I feel soooooooo unbelievably fucking SUPPRESSED. And kept... from FULL CONVERSATIONS... daily. 😥 #NEIS #Spoonies

The Daily Show was incredible, thank you, Jon Stewart!

How do you keep sanity when your most dear connections are mostly just avail online, online landscapes change, closest friends are distant or deprioritize "online", and health makes you stuck at home? Where do you go when a hug is annual at best, invites are none, and messages go...more quiet? 😨

Yesterday started out too well. Of course it has to burst into flames and me into tears.

A great deal of our problems result from not holding those who tried to destroy our democracy accountable for their actions.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

It's a fucking aaache.

I know we're political here ...but I use this for my void-filling screaming and venting deprived poetic misery. Anyone got a problem with THAT?

fucking barb

fucking barack

fucking bark

fucking awesomeness

fucking back

I love the mocking of Trump's posts lol

rolling up to the Olive Garden like

He was my fave Prez 🐠 #Nostalgia

#Men #Women #Mad #Emotion #Rational

💡 Destroy all Via-gra. Feed all people of Earth instead. 🥣

Yes yyyyyes. They do it for me too.

How the fuck did you know?

I’m not wearing anything right now, unless you consider the crushing weight of existential dread to be an article of clothing.