I really hope I could find a traumatherapist in the future who I can trust to, I found out that I just can’t stop lying to therapists because I just can’t trust them at all ;^;.. I have one rn but I’m still unsure if I’m able to trust anyone rn, unfortunately everytime I tried it, I got even more

I’m so glad that I’m planning to move together with my partner because I really can’t take care of myself anymore and it’s starting to get very dangerous for my health :(.. I’m just SO glad I’ve got her support, she’s the only one I can truly trust and unmask and show all sides of my “personality”😭🤍

aaa I had an insanely stressful week full of masking and pressuring myself to go through it, I’m SO glad that I’ve survived it and now I’m able to play Minecraft with my partner and some friends ;-;;🤍🤍 my inner child feels so happy We’re making our own modpack and I’m looking for a doll mod hehe~🤍

I feel like everyone moved on with their life but I’m still far away from getting better.. how can I even get better if I never truly felt okay in the first place and nothing ever felt right except for medically transitioned

I want to try buying contact lenses online, where do you buy them from? O.O #jiraisky

I also wanna know so if my moots could hit this post up please let us know 👀

Duality of an artist!! ❣️ #光が死んだ夏 #art #fanart #thesummerhikarudied #tshd

i feel like this will be retable to them mentally ill jirais and shedsky user 😏

bro i need to stop mentally ill maxxing and start whimsy happiness maxxing

Ugh I need to start working again on thursday but I’m getting panic attacks everyday, especially when I have to leave my appartment and I’m so fucking scared.. I’ll also get my new adhd meds tomorrow and I’m so fucking scared that the dose will be too high again & the adhd symptoms will get worse

tysm for the spam!! 🤍🤍 @angel-sprinkles.bsky.social c:

Doesn't this gloomy bear SCREAM JIRAI!???!!! #jiraisky low-key debating on getting her when I get paid (´｡• ω •｡`)

I really wanna finally try pien make up!!🤍 but I only have one pair of natural looking contact lenses rn which I’m using daily/casually. Where do y’all buy your circle lenses? I’m looking for big, doll-like ones which are safe to wear and high quality (maybe made of silicone-hydrogel) tysm!!🤍

i wish the internet as a whole would stop antagonizing and sensationalizing severely mentally ill people/people going through psychosis. it shouldn’t be entertainment

everything’s stressful and scary rn but I’m so excited for the clothes I ordered 🤍 I desperately want to feel a little more confident again and start to dress up, put make up on and feel more like myself again ;-;🤍

the only thing that keeps me going rn is my supportive gf and my acro tokyo order that should arrive very soon aaaa ;^;; the heat is killing me.. it was an exhausting weekend but I had lots of fun yesterday, how is y’alls weekend going so far?🤍

It’s so hard for me to function and live normally when I’m all alone.. but gf’s away and I sadly still need to wait until I can move to her and I don’t wanna move to my parents or another mental facility, because the chance of getting re-traumatised again is just way too high.. I have nowhere to go

I think I sadly reached my limit, I really can’t keep my high functioning fassade up anymore.. I’m so physically and mentally exhausted. ugh It’s so hard lately and I can’t even really schedule more appointments with the psychiatric lady because I’m so immensely drained and traumatised/scared.. .-.

Happy pride month to all my queer and alli oomfies 🏳️‍⚧️💖🏳️‍🌈

my first trauma therapy lesson went well! yayy 🙏🤍

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I’m so fucking thankful for my gf, without her I’d literally slowly die in my room because the health system in my contry neclected me to the point that they wont even wanna describe me Benzos anymore..

today was DAMN awful, I broke down at my doc’s appointment and forgot to mention smth important, I went grocery shopping right after bc I hate myself (I felt paranoid & dissociated the whole time), I accidentally bought expired raspberries 💔AND a 200€ doc’s bill was in the mail from the psych ward..

im losing my mind

guys everything makes so much sense now, gf and I are pretty sure that I’ve got the non-possession from of DID.. and that explains why I keep lying to professionals because I can’t trust them and my host does everything he can to protect my system because we got traumatised by professionals so much

does any one of you have DID diagnosed or any dissociative disorder? I really need to look into it, I dont know what I have but its definitely something dissociative because I really can’t stop dissociating 😭 I never had it that bad in my Life I think

I wanted to correct myself, I talked about it in detail with my partner and its more likely to be DID eventually.. every single symptom is aligning with it and my actions and everything makes so much more sense now.. I dont wanna self-diagnose myself but I have no choice.. no one’s will save me

but dont worry im so goddamn lucky and after almost a year of desperately searching for help I got an answer of a trauma therapist specialized in EMDR and ADHD 🙏🙏🙏 I’m so glad you guys have no idea- I’m literally dissociating since last year because the trauma has impacted my whole life

guys.. something shifted and I realised that I’m about to develop Schizophrenia .. maybe I’m paranoid but uh- how tf does every criteria fit

I just wish the hospital staff would be at least a LIL BIT empathetic.. like its really not that hard to be kind to the patients who are obviously very mentally unwell but trying their best to get better.. one of the sports therapists triggered my Trauma today and it caused me to relapse..

it’s so hard to get better as an autistic trans man in a open psych ward.. I’m thankful that I got the opportunity to stay here for a few weeks but all of my fears basically become reality because the health system’s transphobic, ableist and misogynistic as hell..

I need more yuri on my tl ..🧍‍♂️

yesterday a fellow patient asked if I’m a boy or a girl and called me he in the DBT group therapy session.. this made my ENTIRE day yesterday (I had a really bad day) .. ;-;; 😞🤍🤍

ugh my last post was a while ago oop- how are y’all doing? I’m currently in the open psych ward but I’m finally doing better after a few months.. ;-;🤍

ppl love to forget that mental illness can be a disability

Lilesveil 🙏 【 #oc, #ocsky, #art 】

I really need some new pants which actually fit me with at least a decent quality, preferably baggy or wide pants in black!! does anyone have some recs for me? I’ve been looking for some subcul pants for a while now but my hips are too wide for most of them I fear.. ;-;

helloo im a lil away from my phone rn and trying to focus on gaming and my interests🤍 I hope y’all are doing well, I’m getting better and better and my antidepressant dose got increased so I’m hoping to get more things done again aahh

i wanna get hiiiiiigggghhhh

how can I heal my nervous system asking for a friend ~

See, I don't even want my idols to know I exist. I can like them from afar, consumimg their media is way enough

Yaoi vape

sorry for my inactivity lately.. I’ve been having a very intense bpd episode for a few weeks now but I’m slowly feeling better and more calm now.. ah.. I forgot how bad it can actually get, I feel so drained and exhausted now

aaaa sorry for my inactivity, a lot as happened lately and Im veryyy emotional in a good but also in a bad way and Ig Ive got a new fp.. a second one and well im very happy about that but also a little overwhelmed ngl I hope y’all are doing well !! 🤍🤍🤍

on days like these I’m giving up on the thoughts of ever getting through all the traumatic things that ever happened to me.. but I feel like I have no choice, I need to keep going even though I can’t really enjoy my life anymore, only when I’m far away from home at my partner’s place.. I can forget

I’m sadly not able to be that active on my socials rn because I’m very overwhelmed, stressed and burned out ;-;.. that’s also why I couldnt reply to some of your replies yet .. even tho I appreciate them very much and will answer asap, promise!! 🤍 hope y’all are doing well tho🤍

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when you can’t afford merch from your niche interests, so u have to make it yourself.. ;^; (Angel’s Egg’s left, Drakengard 3 on the right)