the comical dysphoric shift from my last post I HATE HAVING PENIS

2015? like, 2 or 3 years ago? no?... 11?...

yearned so long for a jerk off buddy... and big joes right here...

If I was studied in a lab, I would be too distracted with all the unwarranted attention I'm getting to realize how inhumane it is.

followed a 4th person today

once I finish my current game (in like 4 years) I cant wait to shove all my misery into the most tweaker visual novel youve ever played.

uwa... dysphoria wwaawaaa

THE FOG THE GODDAMN FOG

science and space travel are best done by people in love with the science not people in love with profit

Time Machine Conversation xkcd.com/3251/

You ever post something insane you dont remember then twin likes it and youre like... oh... I posted all that...

I need twin right now, I need him so bad. I miss sleeping to his voice, comforted by his own sleeping noises. I miss being blessed with watching him sleep, when I could feel him. Being so far away feels awful, I wouldnt be able to live if he left me forever.

WHY AM I LIKE THIS??

No "slow down" sign will scare me. What will? A bunch of "In memory of ___" signs in relatively quick succession.

Ethical Owen

I really don't wanna say I relate heavy to this character. He's not a good person at all, but he's so me.

POV: You're and inspector at the hallucination factory. F-, shutdown immediately, spiders EVERYWHERE!!

I like liking men because it's gender affirming.

usually when I'm feeling bad I just like distract myself by jerking off or cutting or engaging in a hobby but there's not really anything to do right now

twin haters simply miss the wonder they could've had.

why does nobody know the fucking difference between sex and gender !! no gender is not biological it's the expression of yourself !! holy shit !!

Sometimes, I think I'm getting too annoying and twin is starting to hate me but doesn't know how to correct me and is just going to thug it out until I realize, but by that point we'll be long disconnected and he's moved on forever. It makes me want to kill myself.

Last night I had to pee, and it really went from "I need to pee" -> "oh, its already happening" it was really awesome

people assuming I'm new to a video game if you had memory problems like mine, you'd struggle to remember the controls too.

I can't stop humming church choir songs.

jerking off to cope

I'm terrified twin hates me, and it doesn't make logical sense but the feelings don't leave.

dih shape

I just... don't really want to play video games at all. It's like the depression is seeping out of my body as we speak.

why can't dissociation be simple 😭hardly staying in the moment rn

how I wish I lived during the time you could just find someone, marry them, and build a cabin with them anywhere

THE NOTE FROM BABY JOE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I still get scared about going to hell.

should take twins dna from his spit on my whistle and clone him.

all the l4d survivors talk about the women survivors very weirdly, it's tragically very accurate.

no, me, nobody in the system is going anywhere 😭 stop checking, you'll only be disappointing.

"jerk off" and "gooning" are too gross but "masturbate" is too formal.

watching my codebase deteriorate in front of my eyes and being too powerless (lazy) to stop it.

I hate when people do the "no because" before saying a regular statement. It is confusing and makes me think you disagree, these words do mean something and I intake them. 😭

oh I'm mating on that head got lotion on my mate

don't do oral sex with the big joe I think he'd bite it off

head mate messing up the room and I can't find shit

honestly having fun playing with bath toys while not even being little is so fulfilling and also the worst feeling at the same time.

twin is always there for me, I should be nicer to him.

cant even piss myself because it would go into my cuts 🥀 life is so hard 🥀

"what can I say, heh, I like em young" - @stellyellie.bsky.social

joseph questioning his existence like... there is a non-verbal one, and one I think might be a little, and another I'm ignoring for my own sanity. you gotta be an anchor of stability here, man😭 I say, invalidating josephs emotions as easily as I live and breathe.