I’ve been so bloated recently and I hate it buttt I also know it’s because I’ve been eating and not eating good food.. I’ve been getting back into my old habits and it is SO HARD to break them. Doesn’t help I’m constant surrounded by food and yummy drinks at work:((

Mmm what should I drawww any ideas??

Guys it’s been a long week:((( I’ve struggled with eating to much a few days, but also I’m down and probably the smallest I’ve been since like middle school and yet I’m still a fat whale and I’m so sad :( I feel like I’ve gained but the scale doesn’t show it so I don’t understand that either ughh

When my bf is out and about he’ll randomly send me photos of strangers and just caption it “Thinspo” or “ed core” 😭 it’s so silly but sad to me like damn he really think of me everytime he sees that now 😭

My bf just told me I looked like a butch when we first met… NOTHING IS WRONG WITH LOOKIJG LIKE A BUTCH BUT THAT WAS N O T THE LOOK I WAS TRYING TO GO FOR AT ALL. I was wanting to give mentally unstable twink boy….:(((

Ohhh guys I regret to inform that I smoked a drunk cigi😔 and have thought about that cigarette since… UGHHHH KILL MEEE I CANT DO THSI AGAIN

Oh tonight I’m going to hang out with a few coworkers and I’m exciteddddd BUT!! My coworker is cookingggg baked potato soup! Sooo I’m hoping it won’t be too terrible on calls since I’ve seen it can kinda be anywhere from 220-360. But most were from restaurants sooo unsure tbh.

I really hate eating. Like I genuinely hate it so much it’s so gross and disgusting. I don’t understand how I continue to kinda lose when I eat in grateful but confused. Sighhh

Ummmmi just found out my new coworker is an ed specialist/ therapist…..😭😭

Been so longggg my fault 😖 Anywayyy I got the job! I love it!!! It’s so much fun and I’ve made friends and they’re all so funny and sweet heheh!!

I hate when I have bad weeks instead of a day…. Why do I let it continue UGH. Just stop eating…the taste is NOT worth the weight.

Okayyy my interview went really well!! I think so at least? The person I talked to runs all the stores around my state and I think I made a good impression I hope?? But we’ll see she said she had a few more interviews today so wishing myself and everyone else luck lol!!

Everyone here is so sweet oml. PLEASE LET ME MARRY YOU ALL!!!!!!

GUYS IS THIS A GOOD/CUTE OUTFIT FOR MY INTERVIEW TODAY?? ITS FOR A CAFE!!

Mmmm my 🍃 smokers, how do yall curve your munchies? Cause honestly I’m fine fasting all day long but the moment I put that shit in me I’m down to eat anything and everything 😭

I’m lwky so mad rn. I didn’t take ANY photos last night bruh😭😭 and I looked so cute. It lwky was pretty fun when I actually got to drinking. Before that it was boringgg anddd I was babysitting the whole time sigh. OH and I got insulted by some random trying to hit on my man like wtf??

Hellloooo! Week update>:3 Went to the dr and was praised for my weight loss, then told to diet more and to cut basically everything but Whole Foods out my diet, was told to maintain right after lol. Hung out with friends and had lots of fun! One actually spoke to me which he’s never done before!!

me + coke zero = <3

TW BC|| NUDITY!! Doing comparisons are scary. Wym I lost my ass and tits(didn’t have much of them but still) like my ass literally depleted.

Yall I don’t drink. And this is why. Cause me trying to do a cartwheel only to fuck up my canopy 😭😭

This what it look like, he feels so bad lol. But it’s okay he was in Japan and didn’t know what it said

Omg my bf got me like a matcha starter type of kit that the guide said it had matcha and the whisk right… bro it was literally like small dried sweet rice bread coated in white cho and matcha. Bro scammed him so bad😭😭

Andddd this is today’s smoke date! :33

Hehe my boyfriend posted this on twt with cap ‘date with my girl’ I just think it’s so sweet and silly heheh also fear I like this photo😭😭

INTRO- Hello I’m Kitty/Kiki •she/they •EDSKY/SHSKY/LITSPSKY •DNI- Minors under 16, pedos, and nsfw ONLY acc! I enjoy reading, writing, art, walking, fasting,and movies! I love my bf<3 SW-91kg CW-70kg GW-58kg UGW-49kg

Sighhhh I hate how I get with my bf. I’m so clingy it’s embarrassing:(( all I want to do is be with him and go out with him but he’s not feeling well and I wanna cry bc I can’t be with him. I hate my dumb family for making dumb plans during the only time I could see him ugh.

Omg I’ve just realized I’m finally out of the overweight bmi!!! Yayyyy!! BMI 25🤭 Trust ik I’m no where close to being small still😔 but still an improvement!!

I fear omad really is the way to go sighhhh I always lose when doing it and it still gives me a chance to eat something without feeling ravenous 😭😭 anywayyyy I just reached a goal that I haven’t hit in over 5 years! And I’m on my period! Yayyyy

EHHHHH MY BF IS HOME!!! Im going to go see him tonight heheheh!! I did my nails and makeup and am going to try and dress cute! Too bad it’s raining sighhh. Anyway here are my nails though!! I really like them!

Grrr I hate comparing myself to my partner but it is so hard. For context. He is 5’3, and weighs just a little above what I do. I’m 5’7 so you’d think I’d look smaller but no. He literally looks so thin and small and I look so huge and gross. Sigh I it’s his muscles but UGH.

Did anyone ever watch princess tutu??? God the way I wanted to look like/date Rue. She was my gay awaking at the ripe age of like 7. I literally did ballet bc of this show. God I wish my parents never took me out I probably still would have been as skinny as I was then ughh.

Grrr I don’t by any means as an artist support AI art but I wanted to see my body at my gw and thought why not see and this is what I was given and I think it’s pretty close to what I imagined lol

Trying to explain my need to be smaller and the smallest I can be to my bf is literally terrible. Like bro just keep telling me he finds me hot where I am now. LIKE OKAY BUT CAN YOU IMAGINE ME 50LBS LESS???

Face/hair reveal?👀 I didn’t end up doing the blue cause my hair turned too yellow I didn’t want it to be green:// BUT!! I plan on using a darker pink to make the raccoon tail soon!!!

Omg guys im dyeing my hair!!! It’s brown with pink blue highlights and underneath!! Butttt question should I dye a pink/blue raccoon tail underneath???

TW!! BC!! Relaxed vs sucking. Grr I hate how much my ribs stick out. They’re so broad and gross 😔

Wait should I start vaping? Nothing with nic I hate nic unfortunately butttt just like flavored vaper lol

Okay hear me out. I need to know if this is dumb or not okay??? Okay so I love savory food and it’s one of the things that makes fasting hard. So I bought like a bag of Korean ramen seasoning that is 0 cals for 1/4 tsp! Woudl it be crazy to put it in hot water and drink it?

God I feel like absolute shit. I am so tired. I feel so nauseous. My head hurts so bad. It feels like I have like big heavy headphones on my head feels just heavy and I can’t hear anything UGH

Mm I don’t think my bf takes me seriously when it comes to having an Ed. I think he thinks I’m just making it up or trying to say that’s what it is when I’m Judy trying to lose weight.. granted I don’t tell him ask the horrible thoughts and feelings I feel about it everyday but who knows

Rahhh good morningggg! How is everyone doing? I have felt so sick recently like nauseas and can’t eat! Well at least at night during the day I’m so hungryyyt but once dinner time hits I feel like I’m going to puke even just looking at food which in a way is good lol

When I’m bored I like to look up my height and gw on twitter and find people with similar body types as me to see what I could look like and I fear my he gets smaller and smaller as I look at people with same hight that are way smaller than my gw lol

God the way I want to just leave. Leave everything. Run away. Go anywhere and everywhere all at once. I jsuy want to go and I want to go with him.

Grrr I hate being broadddd I just want to be thin but no matter how small I get in weight I’ll still look big :((

My bf has been complimenting me a lot recently butttt with every compliment comes with a “now” likeeee ‘your so hot..NOW” or “you look so much better than before”. I understand I do butttt it hurts a lil I fear :( I talk to him though and he apologized! I love him even through our ups and downs!!<3

Weee I got a belly piercing!! My little prize for losing weight I suppose 🤭 (Please don’t look at how huge I still am :(

I just realized I’ve lost almost 50lbs, it’s been slow but I’m doing it sigh

Ahaha ootd for work! I feel crazy but I feel like I look thinner whoops

Sighhhh just left, I feel so dramatic crying but that was the last time I’ll see them for a whole month:(( I’m going to miss him so much ughhh I made him notes for every week plus one for the plane and then decorated the envelope for him hehe