Huh. Well, that's kind of heart-warming.

I'm glad boxer briefs are at least kind of flattering in the front because goddamn they do nothing but make my ass look kind of flat.

On the off-chance that I know any trans folks that live in Kansas, you're more than welcome to come up here and crash on my couch until you're able to get on your feet otherwise, if it's at all possible for you to get out of there. Jesus fuckin' christ.

Woke up today, stress levels felt high for unknown reasons. Told my boss I just needed a couple days of personal space, so I'd be out for the rest of the week, he told me to take it easy and that was that. As much as I hate cost of living here, I don't think I can ever leave this company, lol.

Weight is down to 263.4. The mix of the diabetes meds and eating less is resulting in some good progress, and I finally picked up the dumbbells for the first time in literally months today. Arms hurt, but it's the good hurt for once.

I've played about 10 minutes of Psychonauts 2 and I'm already fucking enamored with this game.

This is so on-brand for Twitch. Being both behind the times and this wrong in their business decisions feels like it's in their DNA. Twitch, did you not just see what happened with Discord when they said they were going to start using Persona, and you decided AFTER that, that it was a good idea?

Twitch is requiring new Affiliates, before their first payment, to give government photo ID and a separate photo to Persona, the same Persona that has connections to government mass surveillance programs. When I asked Twitch support for another option, they said there isn't one. #twitch #persona 1/4

I get that no one's going to want to talk to me when I'm being mopey all the fuckin' time and I need to fix that. But maaaaan, it's fuckin' taking effort when more social interaction is the fix in the first place.

Kind of wishing I had a roommate at this point, I really need to cut costs and the only way that I can substantially cut them right now is paying less in rent, but paying less in rent doesn't exist basically anywhere in King County, lol

All I want to do is scream into the void until my throat feels raw, but venting on here does nothing, I've got nowhere else to go. I hate bottling shit up, but what else do I even do anymore? I'm just fuckin' lonely, y'know?

Me, watching what's happening to my dad and trying to read up on ways to prevent/slow cognitive decline (paraphrased): "Exercise regularly." Oh. "Learn about new things, pick up a new skill." .. oh. "Go outside and socialize with other people at least a few times a week." ....... oh. Well.

THERE HE GO! PHOTO FINISH

Simpled wins the A!-lympics! Stream doodle prompt lmao #furryart #manedwolf #maney #leggy #olympics #Simpled

Reminder: under no circumstance should you give discord your ID. It is gonna -suck- trying to set up alternatives, and this whole fiasco is going to damage communities, but you CANNOT give them your info

so it turns out that the identity verification provder persona, with its well documented links to peter thiel from the epstein files and palintir, is keeping all data of targets and linking them to intelligence databases and watch lists, exactly like you suspected vmfunc.re/blog/persona

Any furries in VR that I know that were willing to cancel their Discord Nitro over the ID thing, this is the exact same thing, down to the same untrustworthy company with massive financial ties to Peter Thiel. Don't give them a pass just because it's a VR convention.

Going from boxers to boxer-briefs feels weird. Not bad weird, but going from loose and billowy to snug is taking some adjustment. On the plus side, I fit into a size smaller than I thought I would need, so there's that.

Weighed myself today. Under 270. Don't remember the last time the scale said that. God, if I could just focus and actually work out regularly...

God, I wish I could remove amazon from search results by default when I look for something I want to buy, I don't want to give amazon money anymore and I'm just kinda tired of seeing them at the top of every search.

Well, that was about five hours of Costco shopping, unpacking, and cleaning most of the apartment. If anyone ever came over here, they'd be very impressed, I think. The cats are just confused, as usual.

I think I'm just too apathetic about existence to bother with food right now, honestly. z.z

Another year, another unimportant February 14th come and gone. Wonder what's for dinner.

Finally played Psychonauts in the Rhombus of Ruin. Was a really fun game! Actually had some moments in there where I was like "oh shit, this is really cool." None of the VR mechanics felt forced, super enjoyable.

One thing I realized after I saw the notification about my badge with Nitro when I cancelled mine: no one knows about it but me. I'm the only one that knows I had a multi-year badge. Literally no one knows or cares but the person with the badge on Discord. Don't let them play you like that.

I know I'm not supposed to trust any emotional downswings that I have after 9:00 or 10:00 at night, but man, been feeling kind of shitty all day and it just carried straight through.

Got a sticker made recently that I thought was cute, basically just me throwing a green heart at people and it bouncing off their head. Thought it was a fun way of representing my lack of subtlety. Pretty much no one has responded even remotely positively to it, always some level of upset reaction.

weathering the storm🌈⛈️

I guess the game must be over, since we've moved on to the scaring the shit out of me and the cats with fireworks out of nowhere from across the street.

I really actually kind of miss having somebody that I can vent to when something is bothering me emotionally. I hate feeling like I have to bottle everything up like I used to.

... yeah...

Yep, wearing a hoodie indoors. Sick time.

Stage 2 sick already achieved, dry wheezy cough phase has started.

I know there's no general end in sight for me living by myself, but I'm still holding off on renewing my lease for now, because it's a nice thought sometimes.

Getting sick when you live by yourself sucks so much x.x

Starting February off strong, thanks sinus headache and congestion.

February again already. Mm.

Pre-post FYI: Horny thoughts abound. Idly daydreaming about how I would probably enjoy just telling local friends that I'm free use if they want to make the trip over here. c.c stop by during the lunch hour, have lunch, have a cat, go back to work. Or just fill an empty hour and fill a cat. >.>

Just a small thing, but people likin' my stupid selfie actually made me feel pretty good lately. Never been very strong on my own looks/body, so kinda helps the ol' self-esteem a lot just from the little reactions and all. <3

Felt like reposting this at not the middle of the night.

Just doin' my best to exist. Haircut, new shirt, silly gamer lights in the apartment.

Well, even if most of the people that I try to talk to don't message me back, at least I can say I'm trying. It's better than I used to be.

You know, for as much as I used to say that I'm going to stop being such an emotional shut-in and actually be more free with my feelings and not be embarrassed about vocalizing horny thoughts, I sure have made absolutely zero progress in that regard. Almost feel more ashamed of vocalizing it now.

he’s gonna get fired eventually

I'm not saying this would fix me, but it's definitely part of the toolbox.

There's so much that's going right in my life that it's amazing that I'm depressed or mopey as much as I am. Guess that the social aspect of being alive manages to outweigh pretty much everything else, somehow.

My fading skill level at video games is starting to both anger and depress me and I'm starting to lose what few joys I have left in life.

alright I guess it's one of those times where I randomly decide I'm gonna stream somethin' OOT rando, Ship of Harkinian with mild amounts of cheating because I'm still learning this nonsense twitch.tv/vendryth