updates in my life include: my girlfriend visited me for the first time YIPPEEE, I got a tattoo, went to a final fantasy concert and ive been feeling very good about myself :) also I draw a lot now

soft launching being back here what do I do

sorry I dont post here a lot anymore, its lost a lot of luster after my girlfriend stopped posting here

it used to be all so shrimple

anyway this is a fan art of a fan art i did yesterday

getting excited about art and drawing again is honestly what's keeping me going

if anyone has tumblr you can follow my art blog where im just gonna post my learning process and stuff i wanted to draw okay thanks www.tumblr.com/rejectedspac...

changing my entire profile just to feel something

Stoner and a bottom?? you're a pothole

keep finding cursed pre hrt pictures which is actually great because I then realize how far my progress has actually been (here's your comparison about 2 and a half years apart)

"You have a hairstyle that makes you look like you'd be working at a bakery" @rustictoaster.bsky.social

today feels heavy

i want her to take my clothes off like the sexy part of a reeses cup

anyway its literally my birthday tomorrow what did you get me

feels surreal to almost be 30, idk i just never expected to live this long i guess

food aversion/ARFID is kicking my ass this week

ugh what i am supposed to do when my moms love felt conditional for so long growing up and she now pretends like it never was ugh ugh ugh ughu ugh

im literally so in love with her it's not even funny

i hate looking into mental disorders sometimes because it's like, oh yeah i do that all the time and then i have to add it to the list

do u drink or eat soup

im like kind of hungry but every time i start eating i don't feel like eating very much hmmmmmm

at 29 I just realized that literally no one who was supposed to support me growing up actually supported me in what I wanted to do growing up

"my compliments to the chef on this snack" - her about my boobs

sometimes the coffee is so good it feels like the barista is flirting with you a little

she didn't know that emo was short for emotional

met up with a friend who i hadn't seen in almost 2 years today and I think her saying "i don't even recognize you" after almost 2 years of hrt and losing weight healed me a bit

never let anyone kill the love in your heart, the childlike love for things, if you're hyperfixated on something don't let someone shame you for it, love what you love unabashedly because no one can take away meaning you derive from something

if i see another youtube essay that are a "brief retrospective" that are more than like 2 hours im gonna lose it

at this point my sexuality is "if i like someone i like someone"

penis delirious

oh right my birthday is in like a week and i always feel weird around my birthday

feel like such a mess today

look some of you are a little TOO negative

horses are kind of just evil under developed giraffes

how it's been going

this girl is in so much pain today

THE US DOESN"T HAVE JUNIOR CHICKEN???

ignore the boobs but when I strain myself I legit get marks on the parts I strain the most its insane

strained myself wayyy too much at work today ughfjfmmfjejeic8j3jr

gay in public and gayer in private

i think the reason it ended up looking like this is because they wanted to avoid showing the curve of the hip because it might offend someone, so instead she gets a galaxy sized dong which of course wouldn’t offend anyone

I love being an adult I get to watch cartoons all day