[pacing around the room frantically] natori shuuichi's teen inability to relate to matoba seiji's understanding of the world and thus rejecting him and preventing them from ever forming a meaningful bond versus him as an adult wanting to do right and be someone that matoba can rely on but

doing research <3 so i can write a terrible natori pov for whatever my fic is going to be, so i'm reading a bunch of natsume chapters. and i knew that people say that natsume is quicker to anger and more nasty in the manga but i love seeing it first hand. he's so fucking cute

currently balls deep in someone's natori matoba tag on tumblr dot org and also have accidentally drafted 1k of a fic. something bad is about to happen to me

watching the 10 dance trailer again and remembered the dancing outside after practice for the sheer love of the game scenes which made me cry.......... fuuuckckk.... they have to nail this movie or i will be so FREAKING mad

if i get temporarily weirdly into matoba / natori will everyone forgive me ← guy who is only capable of being into something completely at random that no one else around them cares about even an iota

natsume yuujinchou episode where they're at taki's house and there's a scary yokai who wants to eat everyone and it makes creepy scary sounds. love that one

[relieved pleased sigh] yaoi

returning to a dnd game and making my dnd character have more sadness in his eyes <3

[deep weary sigh] yaoi

oops forgot to say chapter 3 of my dark rise fic is up read here archiveofourown.org/works/725858...

don't talk to me while i'm listening to britney spears criminal 11 times in a row

official eng translation of some manga that i'm reading the translation uses "grade two" and not "second grade" 🫵 CANADIAN 🫵

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過ぎた！

i hope nothing bad has happened recently to my friend qifrey <-- lying

BLOG POST ALERT‼️ i've written one of a planned handful of pieces on The Night Beyond the Tricornered Window, where i begin talking about it by talking about the confession scene at the end. notebookdotca.tumblr.com/post/7996966...

everyone read my blog post so you can become convinced to read the night beyond the tricornered window. and then you will be able to read my upcoming blog posts about it that i'm going to write :)

one of my passions is going into the tags of a tumblr post which is describing a specific sub-sub genre of fiction to see what sort of stupid nonsense people are pretending fits the bill. i love whispering, incredulous, to myself "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? ARE YOU STUPID?"

shakafai friday

We're socialized to constantly apologize for being too outwardly excited about things, but this world is so full of terror and misery that I'd rather see those bursts of light and passion shine through the cracks wherever you can find them.

i don't think i've read a single thing that anyone suggested to me though except for natsume ono's tonari ni. and that's because i already am a personal fan of hers and there was a hot middle aged man in it

i remember at the beginning of the year i said "i'm going to get into reading manga this year" as a joke because i read a lot of manga every year but it really turned out to be true. i am reading more manga than usual. is it a lot of mid bl? well. yeah i guess. but not all of it

everyone read my blog post so you can become convinced to read the night beyond the tricornered window. and then you will be able to read my upcoming blog posts about it that i'm going to write :)

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ping pong the animation

i ❤️ my blog

btw i made a short post about Yamashita Tomoko’s "The Night Beyond the Tricornered Window" on my BLOG notebookdotca.tumblr.com/post/7994319... for now it's just a pitch to convince you to read it because i just finished reading it and am primed to write like 4 different blog posts about it

TM Opera O, the most beautiful, fastest, strongest, most gracious and shining star on the racetrack 👑

just spent 20 minutes looking through every single one of my bleets (there is only 20 minutes worth of them when you scroll quickly) and wow haha.. man.... um i make a lot of tweets about manga. i guess having a BLOG was in my future after all no matter what

it happened to me (again)

nobody tells you this, but needle felting is actually all about the process of breaking a needle off deep inside of a project and then painstaking spending 20 minutes slicing it open and digging around until you find the tip of the needle and then spending another 10 minutes repairing the damage

black forest ham, dark fortress chicken, cursed talisman turkey

MADE MY FIRST BLAWG POST notebookdotca.tumblr.com/post/7993345... i wrote about "my oh my, atami-kun" which is a boring slice of life manga about a teenage boy who can't stop getting crushes on his male friends (which charmingly never lead to anything) and why i like it so much.

finished setting up my gorgeous beatuifufl blawg which i made to not be embarrassed about talking about things i enjoy and i'm embarrassed about making A POST LOL 😭

heh.. i made a blawg for which to discuss manga... hehe

there's little as special as reading a work of fiction that makes you cry cry cry like a little baby

just thought about him. oikawa tooru

drove a mini cooper in my dream last night after assisting my girlfriend in a midnight robbery and it felt soooo good to drive

it happened to me: i replied to someone with sincerity and excitement about a shared interest online and they gave me an unpleasant reply that focused on one aspect of what i said and combated against it

just remembered that i had a complex conversation about noda ayako's "double" (which is astounding unfinished 5 vol manga about codependency lol) last night in a dream with a guy my brain made up

a waltz / an idea / a bright burst of joy

happy women wednesday

manga.....

i miss reading a clamp manga and having to determine whether the themes of it were total garbage or astounding genius to me

yaoi meltdown on the timeline

realistically the ebook copies are the 3-in-1s and they're only like 14 dollars so it's less than 100 dollars for all of them and i can read them on my <3 big ereader <3 except the print copies are HUGE and the rough dark lines clamp used when they made x are SO gorgeous in print

😰 i never finished reading the libraries print copies of clamp x before moving 😰

a waltz / an idea / a bright burst of joy