There’s something so beautifully GAY about Spanish love songs about forbidden love. Yes. That’s a man and woman singing about not being allowed to love eachother, they await a day where they’ll find their “promised land” and be accepted, they want their love to not be a secret. Lavender lovers

Today I almost got a beer at work, but realized I haven’t drank all year. I think I’ll give dry January a shot.

I don’t care that your 23 twitch followers and 38 art friends are on Twitter/X I look down on anyone who still uses the hell site app that’s promoting and creating CP. At the very least, in this age of technology you can protest by reports.

I was forcing myself to go to Salsa 💃🏽 lessons to connect with my roots and whatever. The plan was salsa because of #BadBunny But when the Bachata part came on… when I danced with a partner and took the lead… Oh I got emotional. Something clicked. Back to my first love, #JuanLuisGuerra

Latinos. They don’t have ADHD, they are just loud and hyperactive. Latinos. They don’t stim. The just bounce to the beat and move. ADHD never excited because it’s been integrated into the culture. I only found out I had it when I moved away. When my culturally approved fidgeting was… bothersome

I realized, being the youngest one at this intro day. That one day that will no longer be the case. I’m not going to be the youngest person in the room forever. Not at work. Not at the gym. Not in Salsa class. My youth is fading.

Maybe this dance centrum will be my new haunt. Maybe this will be my new lifetime hobby or whatever. More people are arriving. Seems like everyone expected to be here at 19:30 instead of 19 as the email said today. TBH, I think I’ve gotten quite Dutch.

I kicked my ass out to the dang Latin dance school despite the weather and wanting to cry every single time I am expected to bike somewhere. I put on my podcast and blamed the school for anything that happened to me. And now I’m here. Techically late, but they didn’t expect us for a longer time.

ActiveMirror dropped a new single and I didn’t care much for it. But lately it’s been stuck in my head. It’s their first song in Papiamento. It’s called “den scochi Bo mama” In your mother’s lap, and it’s about growing up and missing childhood But it also sounds like PG cussing

Bikes to work today relatively okay. But there’s currently a snow storm going off. I don’t know if I’ll be able to come home after work if the roads are snowed in… If tomorrow and Friday are as bad… I need to either work from home or get a ride to and from work.

So if swooping in at taking the head of state is fair game now, which country do you think will make first claims to swoop into the United States of Amerika to kidnap trump and take him away for his crimes and take over the US? Cause that’s fair play right? This is the example being set right?

"Trae un sol en su mirada": Significa que su mirada es brillante, alegre y cautivadora. El sol simboliza luz, calidez y vitalidad, sugiriendo que sus ojos irradian felicidad y atraen la atención de los demás.

Muscle memory so hard that I stood up from my desk and was unreasonably upset that the desk did not rise together wirh me. wtf.

I’ve been thinking a lot about Venezuela. My time there as a kid without my parents. I remember the day Chavez was announced dead. I remember the days leading up to the votes. I remember the family crashing out about Maduro. I remember the nonstop peaceful protests.

Latin Spanish, there’s a word that’s a slur, but instead of it being a slur it’s a term of endearment. I’m not sure how to feel about it. It’s not always used on POC, so it became more of a general term of endearment? They will also refer to people a “lil fatty” as a term of endearment

The carpaccio obsession woke me up this morning. Half dreaming of eating carpaccio for breakfast has been a gift!

Maybe I’m problematic, but I don’t really understand asexual people who are, idk hyper fixated on being ace? Like, in my circles and experiences it’s not like we are constantly bringing up sex and romance, so it seems odd weird bring up the fact that you’re not into it when it’s not spoken about

I love the guys from sales, but damn does one of them smell like dog sometimes. I can take it when he reeks of coffee or cigarets. But the dog scent really kills me.

Julie Andrews is absolutely the saving grace of this movie. The special effect are certainly fun to see, and it holds up quite nicely. #MaryPoppins

Julie Andrews is an American sweetheart dang, shes such a great actress

Wow okay so I looked up Marry Poppins after the great success of watching the Sound Of Music and let me tell you, I’ve gotten 20 minutes in and it’s absolutely dog shit. It must be thing you needed to watch as a kid to like I guess. These kids sing after running away is awful.

I’m not negotiating clarity. If something feels confusing or inconsistent, I’m stepping tf back. I won’t keep spaces warm for people who don’t show up. Consistency matters more than potential.

If there is a shortage of people practicing medicine, perhaps offering free tuition to medical school might insensitive people who otherwise couldn’t. Find a way that people can go want to study full time medicine could still maintain paying rent and groceries while studying.

Maybe having red velvety curtains would fix me.

Frozen in place unable to start. Maybe I need to take my pills. Or wear shoes. Idk

There’s some feeling, both relief but also massive anxiety. My European friends are sharing things about Venezuela on Instagram. Relief, I’m not going insane, the world is watching. Anxiety, things must be pretty damn bad to be sharing this.

oh yeah? would a loving god design a monkey so susceptible to fascism?

You couldn't publish this today. You'd have to cloak it under several layers of metaphor.

Okay but what if I just eat a little bit and then brush my teeth again? i am prety hungry… Then again now that I finally for batteries in my scale I was scared to see I gained 4 kilos. I was already 8 kilos overweight.

Growing up sucks because your heroes turn out to not be great people. Your friends however? they stay consistent and cool.

Sweet Child O’ Mine by Guns N’ Roses is an anthem for my first rock party. It had alternative music, it had live local bands. It had cool people dressed alternatively. It was my first mosh pit, I had no idea what it was or what was happening but amongst the sea of violence I was safe in the crowd

Found a spider near my kamp. His name is Esteban. The wolf spider I migrated from homie’s room to mine hasn’t been seen anymore but also doesn’t have a name

the fact that the cashier recognized me from my vlogs while I was asking if they sold shoarma for the guy asking for money in front of the store was… idk if there ever was a doubt if my personality was faked online, did me inquiring make him think it was a stunt? Or would he think I am genuine?

Sometimes it feels like I’ve escaped my eatingdisorder because I don’t purge and I don’t starve myself for 3+ days anymore. But when I look at my eating habits when I’m not doing 100% it’s comes back… When I look at my attitude around alcohol induced purging… It’s like it’s ghost still haunts me

It was a hack to brush my teeth an hour ago bevause now I’m hungry and stoned and I can’t gorge myself anymore. The last week I’ve been suffering of the classic winter “eat so much that your stomach physically hurts from binging”

Going to work on diving the room properly this year around. People will come in through the living room wheee they first need to take their shoes off, and jacket in the hallway. My sleeping area will only be entered by myself and maybe some day my lover, if that’s in the cards for me.

The Beamer being set up properly in my room in order to FINALLY have a chill movie night? priceless. Beautiful. Amazing. Quality of life shall here forth skyrocket imo.

Im not sure what kind of feelings are coming up in me when Will, playing Lark&Sparrow’s kid suddenly slips back into Lark&Sparrow’s dad when having to get them into the calzones while doodler-silly. Idk. It’s cute to see Henry come out of Normal in that scene. #DungeonsAndDaddies

Such a night creature I am. Get stoned all day, devour media and carpaccio and now that everyone is sleeping I want to make my room more me.

This carpaccio fixation is going to bankrupt me 🥲 But on the other hand… it would make a power meal of protein & enrichment to try and eat with chopsticks. I wonder if they sell this stuff all year long or only for the holidays 🤔

This is psychotic and so funny 😄 #dungeonsanddaddies

I finished season 1. I’ll miss whatever this friendship was. #dungeonsanddaddies @dungeonsanddads.bsky.social

Actually, Taylor being a bit of a momma’s boy is cute and somewhat on character. I kinda wanna imagine that he got so into anime because he looks up to his mom and the work she does, wanting to hear her on TV and consequentially got really into anime because of it. #DungeonsAndDaddies

I love how despite transitioning in opposite directions, you still end up experiencing a lot of the same things when it comes to privilege and being perceived.

Go stopped at the supermarket today by the cashier who recognized me from my vlogs 🙈 I never know how to react to that cause my vlogs feels like venting into the ether and even with 25K followers, it doesn’t feel like people ACTUALLY watch my stuff.

“My first kiss was a threesome” #DungeonsAndDaddies

I enjoyed the end results of that Google calendar a bit too much. I think I like my job, and I think I like having structure in my life, even if ADHD thrives on chaos…

Welp. I spent over an hour learning about and making a shared Google calendar for the homies. We’re gonna be so good at taking out trash now that I painstakingly added each date into the agenda bevause the trash schedule is not as linear as “every 2 weeks” But it will be worth it in the end.

You know that trend where people introduce their pets to the snow? I have the urge to do that wirh my snake, but that just seems unwise to the cold-blooded little noodle.