I think it’s time I delete social media for a while.

I texted my family a 25yo video of me in my 20s and got no response. When I left for 10 days on vacation last year without them my husband said they “thrived” while I was gone. Still no mention of Mother’s Day. I feel they wouldn’t care if I was here or not.

A reminder that this is why we make fun of The Odyssey. The book would not exist if Odysseus was not such a complete chaos goblin who was busy causing problems for himself by arguing with Gods and being a shit navigator. There is no way to make an extremely serious movie out of this material.

Evergreen

At the end of the day, don’t we all just want a cottage in the Scottish Highlands, an Agatha Christie novel, an alluring rainstorm, a crackling fire, a kettle on the stove, and a basket of freshly-baked emotional support scones?

It’s Wednesday and still no mention of Mother’s Day but he did ask if I wanted to start a big chore project over the weekend; to which I said no.

The daughter of my husband’s best friend and my daughter’s first best friend tragically died yesterday. I watched her grow up. I don’t know how to process this. I’m heartbroken.

I’m going to bed early. Just let me read in peace and quiet until I fall asleep

prueba de cerdo as a sandwich with steak fries

Pulitzer for Fiction winner: “Angel Down,” by Daniel Kraus Mr. Kraus’s book was honored as “a stylistic tour-de-force” that blends allegory, magical realism and science fiction into a whole — told in a single sentence. Looks like my next read.

Marinating pork for dinner. Currently sitting in car avoiding work. Questioning life choices. You know, the usual.

I mix arugula in everything

In our Airbnb they had a rugby channel on the Samsung tv. I watched women’s rugby for a couple hours. My folks asked “what are they doing” and my husband said “they call it foreplay” and I just about spit out my drink laughing.

I don’t know what anti meme is or means

My kid graduated college today. Honors scholar magna cum laude in data analytics. She will work for me for 2ish years before moving to a big city company. Maybe I can talk her into staying and just taking over. I’m tired.

Fake nails applied 💅🏻

I leave town tomorrow. Needed to use up: potatoes, chicken, white wine, pico de gallo. This turned out 🔥

Ive been putting the wrong syllable emphasis on Padma Lakshmi’s name this whole time

“Who are those people by whom you wish to be admired? Are they not those whom you are in the habit of saying are mad? What then? Do you wish to be admired by the mad?” – Epictetus #stoic #philosophy #wisdom

🤣🤣🤣🤮

Damnatio memoriae.

One of the side effects of my leukemia meds I hate is I have bumps all over my skin. I used to have such smooth beautiful skin. Now it’s covered in a bumpy rash. These meds made me old, puffy, bloated, bumpy and tired. Better than dead, I guess.

He said he would help me put this together this afternoon so that I could use it with the oven tonight under cover. It’s about to storm, 5:15pm and he’s in a city an hour away. I guess I’ll cook the scallop on the stove. 😕 I’m so disappointed.

My animals are: Mabel Wabel Gumbo Wumbo and Penny Wenny

Me avoiding work

I’m to sear some scallops in my new pizza oven tonight and I’m really freaking excited

I didn’t want to cook but still needed food to have with my meds. Pan fried potatoes, eggs and arugula. Quick 15min and done.

Notice how a book can make you gay, a vaccine can make you autistic, a mask can make you sicker, and a poster of the Ten Commandments can make you moral, but guns don’t kill people.

“Disgraceful: for the soul to give up when the body is still going strong.” – Marcus Aurelius #stoic #philosophy #wisdom

A guy, who used to own a local bbq place, who asked me out when I was separated (and I stupidly said no because husband and I were attempting to reconcile), is now touring with GWAR … and I’m a bit remorseful that I coulda slept with him one time maybe like a groupie.

New pizza oven first run was a success!

I refuse to plan my own Mother’s Day

Create weird additions to Christmas villages: whore houses, tp’d frat house with beercans in yard, dilapidated RV, homeless guy on bench. All additions to your traditional Christmas village

Stainless table arrives tomorrow. For tonight this will do.

Truly the only place I would sit back down to dinner after shots were fired is a Waffle House.

Tis the season… Batten down the hatches, folks, turn off the lights and close the blinds, the termites are swarming.

Election year politicking with candidates for various judgeships. Here’s my campaign contribution. Thanks for the beer and wine.

It’s just not my night/week. Like the wind has been punched out of me. I’m out of breath. My blood showed really low red blood cells the past couple times. Probably explains it. Chronic illness sucks. I’m taking an edible and going to bed with my book and trying not to break down in tears.

I got a pizza oven! Pizze Sunday

The “I don’t want to cook” shrimp on salad

I don’t want to cook so I’ll buy some local shrimp and throw it on a salad.

roll tide

Needed to use up stuff in my fridge. Flour coated chicken breast, fresh sage and rosemary, white wine, chicken broth, salt and pepper.

*cries* ugh. Outbid at the last second

Donald Trump is trying to get Iran replaced with Italy in the FIFA World Cup even though Italy didn't qualify. Nobody should have anything to do with this rotten corrupt World Cup.

I like jewelry and under normal circumstances I never buy retail cuz it’s like a car with markup. However, I bought this new. It’s a Bulgari anniversary 18k ring inspired in shape by the Colosseum. It’s one of my prized pieces in my collection.

Light viewing from Mubi. Have to finish before my free trial ends.

“l am an extraordinarily brilliant person”

Dinner