Update: I almost definitely didn't fall asleep before midnight & my brain woke me up at like 6:30, a whole hour before I needed to wake up 💀 I have like 7 hours of school today I'm gonna die

Unfortunately it would not fit But also if I used the old motherboard id have to find a new power source & screen & work out what operating system I can put on it cuz it's like 10 years old & can't update Windows anymore (lol but also fuck Windows) But maybe I'll still look into it idk

My brain seeing that I have to be up again in less than 8 hours: what if we just didn't try sleeping all together?

I've been getting a lot of cyberdeck videos on tiktok & im like "maybe I'll make one if I have most of the pieces already" Like "maybe I can make a writing one ig if I have a case" I just remembered I have a fake book Like a box that's been made to look like a book, if what I have fits.....

I've been having issues with procrastinating going to sleep again I've also been having issues with falling asleep I fear that the 2 are feeding into each other; I don't want to try cuz I know it'll take ages to fall asleep & it takes ages cuz I'm on my phone so long 😭

If anyone needs a shopping list: Boxed milk, butter, can openers, cooking oil, seasoning, tea & coffee, sugar, flour, meat but especially mince, bread, eggs, cake mixes especially those with their own frosting - especially those that just need water, dishwashing liquid, & feminine hygiene products

Idk if I've talked about this here but I need to get it off my mind: I could have written a better Indiana Jones 5 movie that still had time travel but wasn't "Indiana has to go back in time to save Hitler & is digitally deaged badly to do it" This may be a long ramble but I think I'm right:

My writing muse & spoons leaving me on this holy day of #steponizzy???? Oh how fickle the writing energies are

Thinking about Eds old crew who miss their first mate, who will yell at them to work now? & who will reward them when they all do their work???? Imagine a s1 meet up between the ships where the crew of the QA are gobsmacked over the R crew not listening to Izzy like ??? How dare?!?!?!

wouldn't it be funny if EVERYONE blocked this Attie AI account @ bsky.app/profile/atti... before they could do anything with it

I've been trying to do some basic readings for myself like weekly to try to learn the cards & maybe get ideas on how to design my own This is the 2nd week in a row I've had the reversed high priestess & the 2nd time I've gotten the reversed 3 of coins The cards literally went "did I stutter?"

Me, last night: just trying to get to sleep My anxiety, dread, depression, & negative self image:

Finished my plushie nets They may or may not fail but until that happens, I'm leaving them be

I need to write more of Izzy Hands getting railed Getting his mind fucked out Getting his back blown Destroy that old man

Me: writing the idea down My brain: what if Izzy & Ed were nearly the top ballerinas in the US but had a motorbike accident that fucked Ed's knee & Izzy lost his leg? & he's been dancing on the same kinda-cheaply modified prosthesis since? & then Stede buys him a ballet specific one?

My brain last night making up a dream: OK here's the pitch - modern era, Zheng, Jim, & Archie are all bffs & in a poly w Olu. Zheng used to do ballet at a prestigious academy but dropped out. She & her gfs are passing the academy when she sees her fave tutor (Izzy) thrown out. (Cont)

2 sides of the same dead dove idea: Stede comes back to the Revenge at the start of S2 V1: Ed doesn't forgive him & has already mind broken Izzy so uses Izzy to mind break Stede & turn the 2 of them into his playthings V2: Stede decides Ed & Izzy can't be responsible for their own actions

I may have fucked up a lil but the results are 🔥 imo

Oh I fucked up "I don't need gloves for using hair dye, I'll use the brush" This is 3 rounds of soap, makeup remover, & sunscreen later 💀

Idk if bringing back crop tops for all genders and body positivity would fix society but i think we should try

They did not fall on my face & I found a better piece of rope so they shouldn't fall in the future Hopefully

Will my shoddy DIY plushie net fail at 3am and drop all my plushies on my face? Place ur bets now 🤣

Me: plushie nets are how much???? My parents have netting I can use, I can make it for free & I'm not gonna look up any tutorials cuz F that The plushie net I create:......

One saying that I keep telling others but need to remember myself: Trees do not produce fruit all year round & neither do we. Meaning we should not expect ourselves to be able to produce output (art, work, etc) all year round (even tho the capitalist hellscape we live in tells us we need to)

Me, last night: trying to go to sleep My brain: imagine, Izzy gets in moods where he wants to hurt himself & Ed has to look after him like how Izzy looks after Ed when he's depressed? Let's think about all the ways Izzy could hurt himself & how his captains would worry Me: you're upsetting me now

I can't write any fan fic rn but imagine Izzy gets cursed by a witch where he has to have sex or he feels incredible physical pain & he pretends he's not in pain & he's fine until someone (maybe Stede?) bends him over the nearest horizontal surface & he realises how much pain he was in?

When will my love (the drive & energy to write) return from the war (bless me again so I can finish the like 4 WIPs I have half posted rn)

Me watching the final season of the good place: damn this is so good why didn't I watch it earlier? Me watching the last episode:

I made this!!!! Everyone look at my #mushroomart!!!! Its a clay & foil sculpture with acrylic paint & it took me so long but I'm so happy about it. It looks so cool irl & I'm entering it in an incognito art show so fingers crossed someone likes it enough to buy it!!!! 🍄 I'm sonrpoid of myself tbh

This is the colour design Now I just need to work out how to make it irl

Finally found my ipad pen Working on a design for my own pirate flag What do y'all think?

I really wish these protien powder companies sold sample packs. I don't want to buy a whole tub just to see if I like it. Yeah, it'd cost more per serving but at least there'd be less waste. Like just send me a box of single serves of different flavours.

Are we not contouring anymore?!?!?! When did that happen??? My (probably long expired) contour pallet is finally at the end of its life so I head out to replace it & not only does the brand no longer exist (😭) but pretty much no one has a contour kit?? At least the drug store brands cuz im poor

I asked my sister this question & she said even tho it'snot a sport, she votes ballet & I agree

I hate when ads are like "iM nOt GoNnA gAtEkEeP tHiS" Like no, you should "gatekeep" your product. Ensure no one knows about it. Ever.

I have basically lost my voice I sound like I'm doing a bad Izzy impression, now & I keep forgetting so I go to speak & all that comes out is gravel 🤣

Seeing how Heated Rivalry is promiting hockey to a whole new audience, I suggest we take less popular sports & make queer media about it until its popular. What sport would u write about?

I finally have the spoons to draw, I know what I want to draw (my own pirate flag), and I've lost my ipad pen!!! Why do I keep losing it!?!?!?! 😭😭😭😭 When I find it I'm painting it w nail polish & maybe adding a phone charm to it

Have a sore throat & I'm losing my voice & I keep thinking about Izzy losing his voice for a week & just angrily gesturing at things because he can't yell Just a week of angry charades while the crew all stand around trying to guess what he's "yelling" at them about

CJ is trying to convince microIzzy to go for a swim in the chocolate fountain Izzy keeps thinking about the issues he had after swimming in the champaign on new years eve

Hot take of the day: Walle is one of my favourite movies, definitely top 10, the opening with the big band music set to the panning shot of the world in ruins changed my brain chemistry Any the take: if Disney weren't cowards, theyd be using Wall.e as an embassador for protecting the environment.

I want to live in the star trek future where I can ask my phone to google something & it'll do it But to do that my phone needs to be listening to me all the time, tracking me, etc. We cannot live in the Star Trek future because of capitalism

Thinking about Izzy's jellybean shaped torso Thinking about tummy

I might have to repeat one of my classes for uni no😭😭😭 I can try one last time tomorrow but I have like 2, maybe 3 assignments I need to redo I have no idea what I'm doing 😭😭😭

Am curious about some fun outfits u think Izzy should wear Any era Let's use him as a dress-up doll

When I was a child, jam would come in these glasses. You ate the jam, cleaned the jars, & had a cool glass. It was peak reuse for me as a child. I ate so much jam. And I'm eating a lot of jam right now and i can't even use the jars as glasses any more!?!?!?!! It just feels like a waste

Craziest thing happened to me yesterday Was driving w my sister Saw something that looked like a giant cage horse mover being towed by a car Was not a horse Was a camel Have never seen a camel outside of a zoo before No pic cuz I was driving

I know it says OC but imagine Izzy Hornigold has made young Izzy wear it? Or Ed talked him into it? Or he's wearing it as a treat for CJ? The possibilities Also his tits are 100% big enough 🤣

I have some new followers, so hello Please be aware that I'm a lil insane & post a bunch of nsfw fandom stuff. I hope to one day also post original nsfw stuff so if you're not into that, I won't be insulted if you decide I'm not for you. I also like making things. Here are a few recent or WIPs