Hiii #edsky #caterpillarsky… I know I was gone :((( I’m actually trying recovery for the very first time in a long time. I can’t waste my years wanting to be perfect knowing my Ed will never be satisfied. I’d rather eat good food with my friends and eat ice cream watching a movie. <3

Seeing my February gw being the same as last year makes me want to end it. Why did I gain back all this weight… #edsky #caterpillarsky

My body as a silent scream they can't hear. #edsky #caterpillarsky

Looove fasting <3 (day 3) #edsky #caterpillarsky

Not proud but i was eating with my friends and it was so fun 🥲. Fasting for 48hours now tho. #edsky #caterpillarsky

500 cals today ! Not eating till tomorrow night cause I’m eating w my friends <3 #edsky #caterpillarsky

200 cals ! #edsky #caterpillarsky Love volume eating

Anyways here’s my February tracker !! #edsky #caterpillarsky

Going to pilates with just a soup in my stomach. Hopefully I won’t faint 🥲 #edsky #caterpillarsky

44hours fast completed, lost one kg ! #edsky #caterpillarsky

Broke my fast cause I was so weak but 40hours fast completed !! Next step is 42hours fast #edsky #caterpillarsky

Guess he’ll see me in the hospital when I’ll be so sick he’ll regret

My bf just made me so fcking mad and didn’t even apologized and went to sleep knowing I am so angry. I’m starving and I’m angry and I hate everyone.

Green tea and journaling to distract myself during my 48 hours fast <3 #edsky #caterpillarsky

Trying to drink more since I’m LOCKING IN and fasting a lot more. Havin 2L per day is so hard I only had 1L today water weight is killing me 😩 #edsky #caterpillarsky

So disordered I like the feeling of being about to faint bc of starvation #edsky #caterpillarsky

My legs were tiny… #edsky #caterpillarsky

Yay 🏃‍♀️ #edsky #caterpillarsky

Telling my grandma I’m going to eat out with friends to skip lunch and go walking instead #thisedisdrivingmecrazy #edsky #caterpillarsky

Don’t mind me just going through my bodychecks and missing it #edsky #caterpillarsky

The way I’m maintaining is embarrassing #edsky #caterpillarsky

I hate not having Ana face it makes me feel like I’m faking my Ed 😋 #edsky #caterpillarsky

BMI 15 I need you please #edtwt #caterpillarsky

I feel so fat #edtwt #caterpillarsky

i love this piece so much i feel like it encapsulates my experience w anorexia perfectly #edsky #caterpillarsky

Give me my body back 💔 #edsky #caterpillarsky

Unpinning when I’m FINALLY 44kg yay

I feel so unvalid in my Ed :( like I’m just bmi 17… I’m not even looking underweight. Not fishing for compliments I just need to vent #edsky #caterpillarsky

Just lost 2kg in 1 week. It was probably water weight from Christmas tho #edsky #caterpillarsky

800 cals today and I ate at the restaurant tonight !! We ate sushi after our final it was so fun #edsky #caterpillarsky

1000cals today but im on my period and I had exams so I guess it’s not that bad… #edsky #caterpillarsky

I just need to be 40kg so bad please please please #edsky #caterpillarsky

450 cals today #edsky #caterpillarsky !! I have exams tomorrow I’m anxious 🙁

Hello #edsky !!!! Just got back home and weighed myself !! Turns out I didn’t gained as much as I thought !! I still gained but… a win is a win ig ?

SOUP SUPREMACY🍲 #edsky #caterpillarsky

🧵harm reduction🧵 ──────୨ৎ────── I'm not in recovery but i try to be as safe as possible </3 feel free to add any tips + info of ur own! DNI anti recovery & fatphobes #edsky #caterpillarsky #edtwt

The butterfly necklace my bf got me 🥹 #edsky

THIS IS THE CUTEST THING I SWEAR

Hiii edsky !!! I didn’t post for a week bc I gained a little during new year. Thus i felt like I wasn’t allowed to post ?? But I’m going back to my appartement tomorrow so I will hopefully loose. #edsky #caterpillarsky

I got a letter from my grandparents for Christmas in which they told me "do not ruin your life bc of beauty standards". Little do they know my Ed is so much more ??? Like I’m dealing with traumas, undiagnosed disorders ?? But yeah I’m just a teenage girl wanting to look like a model. #edsky

Christmas party with my dad’s family tomorrow… they’re the one who triggered my Ed as a kid 😍 (at least it’s easy to loose weight there)

Am I the only one who feels like #edsky is wayyy more realistic than #edtwt ? Concerning ana I feel like edtwt is full of people in their honeymoon phase while I have been sick for 5 years :(

My mom took my blood pressure earlier and it was really low. It was validating <3 #edsky #caterpillarsky

I just weighed myself and did not even gained !! Best Ana during Christmas <3 #edsky #caterpillarsky

Silly walk to burn Xmas cals <3 #edsky #caterpillarsky

I’m sorry for being such a crazy bitch

Currently sitting on the bathroom floor, scratching myself to blood cause I’m a terrible girlfriend #edsky #caterpillarsky