Got a email about the job I applied for. Was feeling weird about it and confused why the person who emailed me was the one emailing. Said they wanted to chat. I agreed. Was fretting but then they replied to my reply and included a :D and suddenly I felt so much calmer. Lol. Freaking brains wtf […]

Oh wow, a while back I was thinking it'd be really cool if there was a shader language for 2D image editors and it turns out there is one and krita has implemented it. SeExpr, made by Disney but open source. Definitely going to need to play with this at some point

New pic done on the new pen display. I've been trying to incorporate more time on the floor in my life, started with setting up a futon a while back. Tonight I decided to setup my art stuff on floor desk I could kneel/sit at. This pic was done almost entirely […] [Original post on fluffs.au]

I really need (want) to learn to weld and do metalwork

The (ADHD?) response to an expensive physical product of "I reckon I could build that cheaper"

Praise be, I finally got home and entered the bootup password. My services are restored. Can't wait for the JetKVM to get here so I don't have to deal with this again haha

Huh. Two nights in a row of working on personal code. Maybe the burnout is finally easing up a little.

Unpopular opinion on the Starfox fuck ability discourse, I never really found Fox, Falco, or Slippy particularly attractive anyway. Peppy though. 🥵 I think the main issue I have with the new art style from what I've seen is the eyes feel a bit vacant and too small for the rest of their body […]

Unlimited hackability? seems like a terrible selling point for a security focused device, I am trying to keep hackers out! 😶

The canvas/instructure debacle continues to deliver chaos at work. Imagine if we didn't put everyone's eggs in one basket, and hosted our own fucking infrastructure instead of relying on cloud paas?

Stopping here and buying a policy before i head into Toontown

After a bunch of flailing about wildly I opened Godot and poked at a small experiment and it turned into a couple hours of enjoyment and productive exploring. Been ages since I've felt like that so that's good.

I'm a freaking idiot. Just restarted the server at home forgetting that I don't actually have VPN access to the initramfs ssh I need to login first to unlock it. FFS. Guess I'm making an unplanned trip home tomorrow afterall lol 🥲

Yeah that tracks

[Adult content] Scrubbing through porn trying to work out what is written on the guys wristband. I think I really lost focus on what I was here for

Insomnia purchases again. At least this time it's something benefiting a creator and not just buying random tech stuff. Been meaning to try @joabaldwin 's Noss Saga books, and I finally grabbed the first 3 audiobook bundle. Thanks for the DRM free option so I can play in my own software ❤️

Lol my partner is asleep but has hiccups. Really hope that eases soon cause it's hard enough to sleep sharing a bed as is 🤣

I have to be an artist, I already bought all the tools

I just deleted my most popular repo from github.

[MH-] Had the entire evening to myself, tried to be creative and my brain shut down and I felt like I was gonna cry instead. I guess rest it is. I know it's because my sleep has been cooked recently and I'm really deprived currently. But that response is really not helping with the fear that […]

ok go off 50-60 year old who also volunteers at my heritage railway and owns two locomotives (insane) who also has the profile picture on whatsapp "my faviorite gender neutral pronoun is comrade" like fucking go off holy shit what a legend

I'm "running dist upgrade during work hours" level of care today

plants, too. it's their biosphere, man, we're just living in it

thinkin' about how animals are generational starships for microorganisms again

In unexpected news I sent through a "roadmap" of technology changes we need to prioritise and focus our time on at work. It was received positively and now there's a session with my boss's boss to get approval. (Because apparently we're still incapable of making these decisions for the team […]

I wish I had any energy at the end of the day left for myself

Oh that's right Coco is an emotional punch in the face and now I'm all 😭

While I am pretty sure I know what they're meaning by this, it's hard not to read this as capitalism coded

Doctor: You have syphilis. Me: That can't be right, I've never even touched a boulder.

Spending money on things I do not need in order to feel joy and hope that _this_ time I'll use them and be exceptional at the craft.

Thinking back to the interview I now remember him saying the team I'd be in is doing machine learning and algorithms on their data. And at the time I took that to mean classical definition. I am now scared that it actually means "we're feeding it to an LLM" and I should really try to clarify […]

Sorry for all the job stress spam lately. I'll try to refocus back on furry art and Linux shit again now lol

Honestly don't think I did very well there. I am terrible at representing myself well as a human.

My interview in 2 hours I'm stressed I don't do well at important decisions that change life at this scale Cause you can't roll back from them if they're wrong 🥲

Oh that's right. One of my mental flaws is terror and paralysis over decisions. That's why I'm feeling like this haha. It's been so long since I've let myself have a decision to make I forgot I wind up like this lol

Lmao stopped into burger shop (five guys, never actually been in here) on the way from work to get a milk shake, and suddenly Linkin Park Numb starts blasting over their speakers.

Reddit popping up a "get the app" I can't dismiss on mobile after a few seconds. Yuck. And amusingly the link is broken lol

Not gonna, I burst out laughing reading the last bit.

Slop Drop and Roll? Is that anything?

Realising it's harder to say "I didn't use AI to build this" when the core technology you're building on has embraced it.

What if I get this new job, and it's worse? What if I don't get this new job, and I have to stay where I am? Why can't I ever be the person that thinks everything will turn out okay? Maybe it's cause I'm always looking after the ones who think that and it didn't? I wish I could choose joy

I want to collapse now

Way of working sessions ongoing. I am praised for my suggestions by all but my boss who continues to actively fight me on any improvements I try to bring. How ironic if we finally get this stuff across and in place and I immediately give notice

Questions for non-sighted and low-vision users, if I could please have some of your time. (Others feel free to boost for reach) Flowcharting/diagramming/white-boarding tools like miro, seem to be completely inaccessible from what I can tell. Two questions: do you find flowcharts and other such […]

Next interview tomorrow. Apparently my technical challenge received good feedback. Which is good cause I felt like it was pretty poor haha

A weird thought I've been having lately. In most of the games I enjoy playing there is a huge range of NPCs to talk to and I will go out of my way to find and talk to every single one of them. In real life the thought of talking to a stranger is overwhelmingly terrifying. My escapist fantasy is […]

My Chemical Romance and Panic! at the Disco CDs arrived in the mail today. It's nice to pretend I'm still in the before times

my brain started singing "menty-b, menty-b" to the tune of "let it be" by the Beatles. Thanks stream of consciousness, I know.

considering setting up my own solo fedi instance but somewhat overwhelmed by things like which domain name to use and what happens if my box pulls in something illegal and I don't notice but get done for allowing it onto my server. You know the rational scale of concerns

I know you kids these days like your neural networks *sits backwards on a chair* how about you open a book and train the original neural network :neodog_book: