Bark!

Always a fun night when I'm pumped full of espresso martini in a dog bowl and then flogged and making normies scared 🤣

My partner took her last breath today after fighting so hard after having a critical stroke... She went peacefully and is resting now.

I'm so fucking drained of life. My heart, soul, mind and body are just in autopilot right now. I just want things to get better. I just want to wake up and this whole thing be a nightmare. I'm not strong. I'm not handling this. I'm scared.

So I bought coveralls for my Halloween costume and someone jokingly said I should make it my thing... But like... I'm not mad with how I look?

Beat the main story of Legends ZA last night. Was a fun time. Just need to get the trade evolutions and my living dex for ZA is done.

The looks of absolute shock and terror when I get flogged and beat on at the leather bar by non kinksters is honestly one of my favorite parts.

@sibjakey.bsky.social made a big move in recovery last night. We're out of the hospital and into a Health and Rehabilitation center. She's healing from her situation really well, for it being how bad it was and it being 3 months later.

New sheet day!

Well hello there shiny wabbit!

Happy Friday y'all. Just got home, and puppy needs his back blown out. Lol

Bork! Happy to be home and not in human clothes.

I really want my motivation to do anything back ... I hate not wanting to draw because of everything I'm dealing with

While the recovery has been as good as it can be, and we're only making improvements... Having dealing with my partner having a stroke and other health issues 2 and a half months ago has been rough. We're recovering steadily and good. It's just going to take a long time.

Morning coffee after a night out with friends.

I'm awake I guess

First run through of Silksong came in at 53 hours. 96% completion. Man I really loved this game.

Did laundry and cleaned a bit ... Not as do nothing a day as I would have liked... Anyway... Puppy butt.

I have zero energy and zero motivation to do anything today.

Seriously need to know what it is about me that turns tops into bottoms. Like wtf I finally find someone to top me and as soon as we're done they're all like "Hey I know I'm a total top but will you fuck me" And then poof total bottom. Lol happens too often.

Been having a rough go mentally lately. But happy it's Friday

Got so stressed with work today I broke down crying three times. I typically don't do that. I can handle myself better than that. But fuck something about today hurt me in the soul.

Don't ya love when someone starts randomly talking to you, and you tell them you're a submissive type and they IMMEDIATELY only refer to you as Sir. Like I'm not a take charge person. I'm not a dominant type. That is an instant turn off. Don't try forcing me into a roll I don't want.

Better late than never, officially the first tummy Tuesday for Graphite 3.0

God I wish I could turn my brain off.

It is a good thing I like pain because holy fuck Silksong is hurting me.

Welcome to debut of Graphite 3.0

I have Silksong. It is really real.

It's supposed to be a happy time getting the notification that our new hoods shipped. But it's an absolute gut punch not having Pinky here to receive her new hood with me right now. She's stable in the hospital. We have a long road of recovery ahead. But fuck I feel alone.

Oh shit we got Borb Doodles!

So when I inevitably finalize the sona I want, one thing is certain. Yellow hoodie vest must be there always 🤣

I made exactly one financial decision today. And I fucking love it

Okay. Megaplex is going to be a thing I go to going forward. That was an absolute blast as a last minute thing.

So it was a spur of the moment thing but I guess I'm at Megaplex for today

Reskeet and Like this post to enter to win a free Inner Bear portrait! I'm down to do any animal too, not just bears. Help me share this series far and wide and let's find the next BearlyGoin bear 🐻❤️

I just want things to get better ... I know it's going to be a slow process on my partner's healing... But I just need her back.

For all intents and purposes, this is a panda, nothing more

Dealing with the medical crisis the past week and a half has me so overwhelmed by ALL of the emotions happening at once. I'm confused. Picture may or may not be relevant

Doing anything to give myself some sense of normalcy in such a hard time... Sitting around the house in gear is helping.

Holy fuck... This past week has been a fucking whirlwind of shitstorm after shit storm... And we still have a long ways ahead to recover. Please keep my partner in your thoughts if you know them... Dealing with a critical medical emergency. I've only just had a moment to breath

I'm a good boy. See even my beverage says I am

Not saying that these shows had a hand in developing me into what I'm into now... But also not NOT saying that. 🤣

So someone made a comment the other day about how just my muzzle reminds them of Mortal Kombat... So I had to take a selfie in my Scorpion robe and the muzzle of course

What up. It's hump day!

Oh no... Zebra Bananza is so fucking beefy.

Look I will never yuck anyone's yum... But when you try to force your fetish on someone just because they "have the image that they'd be into that"... It makes you a shitty person. been losing weight for over a year and one random saying "show me your huge gut big boy" sends me spiraling.

Something about queer power restoration. Something about a deflooffing. Haircut. 😂🐶💛

I love my big doofy child. 💛

Leave it to one random innocuous passing comment to leave me hating myself and feeling like a burden. 🤣 Oh Mondays.