also I keep losing weight but I'm not doing anything to do it so I mean slay but idk confused

chat I've been so depressed lately and lowkey might need to go back to the psych ward but ima ignore it

on the bright side I lost 20 lbs. i do not physically see a difference whatsoever but my mother has been concerned bc I look too skinny according to her so that's a W

hello void sorry I vanished🦀 crab for apologies. i had an identity crisis and died a little inside and apparently I have a boyfriend now even though I've been out as a lesbian for a very long time. hashtag life update!

damn charlie kirk died? okay anyways whats your favorite haunting the narrative character bc mine is laura palmer personally I think about her all the time

just shredded the absolute shit out of my thigh oh joy

I'm having a horrible identity crisis like I have no idea what to do I'm tweaking out bros I am genuinely so comfortable labeling myself as lesbian it's the only label ive ever FELT comfortable with and like getting over my comphet helped me heal sm SO WHY IS THERE A FUCKING MAN IN THE WAY

chat what do I do if I think I might have feelings for my *guy* friend but I am very much a lesbian and everything about men grosses me out

I'm going insane. like actually I think??? ohmy GOD

just found my abuse evidence photos from my relationship when I was 17! this is great motivation not to eat 🤩

busted a nut and higher by creed came on💔💔

i feel. weird.

yuck I have fat thighs

dehydrated and had a really massive panic attack on the phone w my guy friend last ngiht

dudes I'm way too high

fat and eating cherries

I'm freaking my shit y'all. non goon😞💔

y'all ever get too high off a disp cart and start like tweaking why am I losing my mind bruh

a bitch is listening to depressing music at 10 in the morning like did you even try to be happy today

i love losing enough weight to where my old clothes aren't tight anymore

chat I cant tell if I have a migraine or if I'm really really hungover

choosing to play the guitar instead of text my ex

sometimes autism comes in handy w the ed bc I get months long periods where I simply Do Not Feel Hunger and im currently in that it's great. do unfortunately have to set a calendar reminder to eat broth so I don't fucking die but other than that it's great

hello void are we nauseous bc I am nauseous!

tanning and trying to cover my sh is so annoyingggggguh

in other news I have lost 12 lbs just haven't been active # rip

i think I might have a drinking problem but that's fine lol

i hate myself!!!

i hate my ex (im in love with her)

so if I'm strving and slicing myself but not doing drgs is that considered recovering still or is that like bad or what

noodrl

i think I gained weight in the hospital but I have no clue how much tbh I haven't had access to my weight in forever. my guess is 10-15 lbs (new med)

living in blinker city bad for recovery good for evil thoughts

depressed asf but got a new pen so life is like fine I guess. not kms

in other news I'm in a horrible situationship with my ex and I am back on medication watch

your girl is a month clean😌😌😌

hi guys sorry for being inactive im back in na/outpatient bc I relapsed after attempting a month ago and just overall not doing good I can barely stay sober

hi guys sorry got briefly hospitalized ✊😛

want to die

fat

i hate my family I either need to move out in 3 months or I'm kms dead ass fuck this shit

the most manipulative girl u know is crying to a laura palmer edit rn (spoiler it's me)

i journal a lot when im depressed (basically just scribble) tell me why I started scribbling radiohead lyrics and drawing her eyes😒

I got my dosage doubled on all my psych meds and I feel so drugged up like I don't even feel real but my OCD is still so bad so the double isn't even doing what it's supposed to i just feel like a compulsive zombie

hi guys I am in a horrifying depression which is inconvenient bc I have SHIT TO DO

trying not to kms atm 😝 met my kid for the first time since I gave him up and I feel awful

i am severely paranoid and sleep deprived

tired hungry high UGH

my depression room is turning into a depression hole I fear it is in fact bad again 🧚‍♀️✨ fuck it we ball

guys I really love fish mercury poisoning can't get me if im pure of heart and well intentioned right because I switched from eggs (expensive) to fish (cheap) and it is All I Eat that's it period it is the core of all my meals. so anyways mercury poisoning won't get me right