i ended up vomming but oh well

i have a (late) friendsgiving this weekend so i’m gonna try to liquid fast/omad until then 😁🤞🏽

i have to make my december lock in

i need to make an academic comeback right now actually

sometimes you js gotta gts with a heavy heart i guess

i used to do 100+hr liquid fasts what happened to me 💔

AND THEN HE TELLS ME HE HASNT EATEN ALL DAY ITS 7:30 PM WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT

does anyone else feel an overwhelming sense of rage when someone says “thank you for eating”. idk why i know they mean well it’s just- it makes me feel like i shouldn’t have ?? idk

feeling a binge today unfortunately

mmm should i buy a diet soda

we’re talking about eds and yall i cannot

heyyy

idk you like that to be calling me a loser even as a joke

little rant moment (tw?): guys i’ve never done this before but i got so frustrated with myself last night i literally just beat myself up. i couldn’t sleep and i really was trying to. hours went by and i literally started crying because i was so tired but my body would NOT fall asleep. so yeah i -

only 11.5k steps today, kinda disappointed. trying to aim for 15k daily rn

whoever said to put a sp3ll on your name and watch the money roll in … 😛 i got $13 in tips today too

20k steps today 😛

anyways we’re doing dinner and a movie tonight missed my man

i literally cannot tell anyone my ex and i are talking again or else i’ll get beat

“JUST GOT BACK WITH MY EX BITCH HE SAID HE SORRY” 😛😛😛

my ex literally views my stories even though we don’t follow each other COME HOME POOKIE

f4sting tomorrow for a concert cause i wanna look good and post pics 😛

a week without you 🤍

i just want to text him and tell him i miss him and hold him again i miss him i miss everything about him

this mornings cry sessions because i miss my ex

this is actually so embarrassing i can’t believe THATS how he broke up with me wtf. like is wrong to be mad about this

trying to sm0ke in the restroom but this is the one time everyone and their moms wanna come in

also he brought his sister to the breakup yall i thought that was weird like yeah she stayed in the car but that meant i had to stand in the middle of the street crying my eyes out while my neighbors were out and about

i have so much love to give and yet none of it goes to myself

i miss him so much. i miss the future we never got to have, trips we never got to go on, birthdays we never got to celebrate. he was my best friend, i guess that just didn’t transfer over to the boyfriend part

i know i deserved better i just wanted HIM to be better yk

one second i want him the next im realizing he could never love me the way i need to be loved

how to get your man back fr fr

do yall believe in like manifestation and things like that

lost the loml y’all i guess this is what we’re doing

every time i explain my relationship i get told to block him

i miss him so much

it’s not even 9 in the morning yall

i don’t know if any of you guys pray in any ways. but a friend from high school passed today. i just ask that you keep his loved ones in your prayers, and his soul as well. he fought a long battle, im sorry i never got to visit you j 🤍

i broke no contact JUST TO FORGET TO ASK IF WE WERE STILL GOING TO OUR CONCERTS FUCK i’ll ask like 3 days before

evb about to be so mad at me i texted that mine

he unfollowed me on instagram he’s not coming back

me cause i don’t text or call him but i send him a tiktok a day about getting back together

he confused me so much because he broke up with me but he was saying he didn’t want to and what choice did he have. and he hasn’t texted me, but he keeps the tiktok streak alive, and he follows me on all my socials. and i got so delusional i prayed for an orange car and i’ve seen 4. i’m crazy omg

day 4 post breakup i didn’t wake up thinking about it, but i still feel it in my chest. right now im still in denial, there’s still a part of me telling myself he’ll come back and we’ll make it work

all i had yesterday was a protein bar and 2 cookies so at least the heartbreak does that for me

now i just need my man back

we slept skin to skin, showered together, kissed with morning breath, wiped each others tears. he’s my best friend. i’d talk to him every day and tell him everything. when i woke up, what i had to eat, if i saw a fucking bug, everything. what am i supposed to do now

we were together 2 and a half years. we talked about moving in, marriage, kids. we were supposed to grow old together, live our lives together. it was supposed to be him. it was supposed to be US

im in shambles