Just went to check in online for my long ass haul flight tomorrow and the only seats left were middle ones. This has to be some kind of mistake. I am too long to sit there. Someone will have to swap with me, a child on their first holiday perhaps.

So many of my friends in recovery, including me, have their clean birthdays in November or December. Way more so than in the summer. Winter really is the final straw to make a using addict's life feel totally unmanageable.

Couldnt sleep last night because my neighbours upstairs have foraged a treadmill from somewhere and had their two giant dogs using it all night. Move to east London they said. God bless them all the same though.

IT guy at work trying to fix my computer just asked me when the last time I rebooted was. Brother thats like asking me to tell you when I uttered my first words, took my first steps, heard birds singing for the first time. It is simply too long ago for me to remember.

Deleted tiktok a week ago so I could focus more. Still occasionally venture to YouTube shorts for a quick hit though. Some fantastically bad content over there. Its like an anti short form video advert. Whenever im on it, I crave books. I long for spreadsheets. Its the perfect deterrent.

Just thought "I hope they go bankrupt" three minutes into an episode of Grand Designs. A new record for me.

Why do I, a member of the public who is not in the film industry and has no financial interest in it, have to constantly read about box office revenue and performance. Like who cares. Leave me out of this. www.bbc.com/culture/arti...

Been trying out meditation for the first time this week and this shit literally makes me feel like im back on the benzos again. Absolutely elite freelapse experience, I should have tried this ages ago.

Finding the process of buying a flat, which takes months & the majority of which I have little input or visibility on, kind of at odds with the way I have navigated basically everything in my entire life until now. Seriously hope this solicitor I found on google after 5 minutes knows what hes doing.

Autumn is here guys Get your coats on

One Battle After Another is elite. What an insane filmography. These are my favourite (haven't seen Inherent Vice).

What a band AOTY contended open.spotify.com/track/7qOBKh...

Left my shoes in the office shower by mistake and some dude went in immediately after me so I can't retrieve them. And he has been in there for absolutely ages. Brother please hurry, im sitting at my desk in my socks & people are starting to come in. My professional stock is falling by the second.

Had an offer accepted on a flat and now theyre suddenly asking me to put them in touch with my "solicitor". My personal solicitor? What next, my personal physician? My publicist? My agent?! I don't know who any of these people are

Clips of people from Burning Man are all like "its a level 8 sandstorm outside, we are trapped in our shipping containers, the orgy tent has blown away, i havent been able to make contact with my family in 6 days, our supplies of food & water are critically low, we're having the time of our lives 🤘"

(At a gig and seeing everyone is broadly the same age as I am) "man, a lot of old people here tonight isnt there 🤔"

Love holding down the fast forward button on the 9 second tiktok video that im watching because its taking too long

Trying to buy a house for the first time at the moment and I am just familiarising myself with the concept of 'leaseholds'. Whats all that about then. You're telling me that after like 150 years, some mysterious land baron will literally own my house instead of me? Thats awful. Fuck that guy.

Just bought a pot of hummus from the supermarket. Plenty in there to last me through the week! Im so happy tescos decided to start selling these without lids. Those completely unnecessary things were always getting in the way.

As peaceful protestors are arrested for holding placards, starving Palestinians are being shot in the street. This will go down as one of the most shameful moments in British legal history. No amount of suppression can hide the truth: our government is complicit in genocide.

Right now I feel like my phone's only function is to remind me of how much money I am spending. Constantly. We should end mobile banking and bring back cash and chequebooks.

About to lock the f in 💪

Rightmove is always saying shit like "have you considered this disgusting fucking hell hole for all the money you have ever earned in your entire life"

I have seen two absolute bangers at the cinema this weekend. This one goes out to all my good friends in Switzerland and Germany.

Yes brother do you want to come over and listen to the last 90 seconds of "The Subway" while we hold each other tightly

I pray every day, not in a religious way, but to hand my will over to a power greater than myself. Anyway, I always used to ask God to give me "strength/patience/courage" etc, but recently I'v been saying "thank u for giving me" these things instead. And it has really made a difference. Lets get it.

Estate agents of Rightmove, we have got to regroup on the meaning of the word "stunning"

Locking in

I was cycling behind a dude this morning with a t shirt that said 'Olive you from my head to-ma-toes' with a picture of an olive and a tomato hugging each other. Olive you too brother, have a great day.

One of the best tunes this year for me youtu.be/Phh3oVCtzBg?...

Not many other dudes wearing shorts in the office today. Bit of wind scare you off did it boys. Were you frightened by the clouds. Not me, it will take a monsoon to part me from these wonderful pair of jorts I have on right now.

Long, tiring day in the sun. Now to watch Tarkovsky's "Stalker" for 3 hours in the cinema and fall asleep before the trailers even finish.

The headphone manufacturers should be using this as an advert.

Riding a lime bike through London Fields with my headphones on, couldnt understand why everyone was looking at me. Turned my music off and heard that my bike was making the sound of those German bomber airplanes from the movie Dunkirk.

Pretty cool how basically every single movie from the 1950s contains at least two of the most beautiful people you've ever seen in your entire life

Riding a lime bike through london at night whilst listening to tunes. Insanely goated experience. Perhaps the most goated of them all.

just said "yes please" in a work email 🤮

Buying a bag of ice cubes from the shop. Something not quite right about that for me. That should not be a commodofied entity. What next, must I purchase the air.

The IDF have been actively and enthusiastically carrying out a genocide and have been proudly live streaming the whole thing and still want to act shocked and scared when every reasonable person sees that and hates their fucking guts

It's hot as hell today brother

Seen Bright Eyes a bunch of times but tonight I finally saw them play one of my favourite tunes ever, so happy man, what a night, let's get it open.spotify.com/track/0lwDCE...

The mutual "maybe a friend is joining them later so I'll keep a respectful distance" zone. This is society!

You really do form some seriously parasocial relationships when you go to a gig on your own. Never met any of you in my life but I just gotta say, im so happy we all picked this spot in the crowd together. Enjoy the show guys.

Had the day off work. Gym, coffee, cinema, run, end. I want to do exactly this, every day, it has been perfect.

Listening to a tune in my bedroom and heard a dude walking outside my window whistling to it. Get in here brother, I've got plenty more where that came from.

Seen so much live music this year. Life affirming stuff. Took me a long time to realise that being clean was only worth it if u build a life worth living in recovery. I spent 3+ years of my cleantime keeping my world very small, acting out in every way possible. Refusing to live life on life's terms

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Its so hot today man, what a gorgeous day. I just love answering emails at my computer when the weather is like this.

The government's welfare Bill is a cruel and disgusting attack on disabled people and their right to live in dignity. MPs should ask themselves: did you become an MP so you could push thousands of disabled people into poverty?