SEWN/SHUT

FOUND FOOTAGE

starting to notice, as it's made its way around the community that i'm something of an extreme sadist, the people that express some kind of interest because they've "heard of me" and it's often kind of a turn off!

i think maybe averaging 1.5-2 grams of mephedrone a week for the last month was maybe bad

aftermath

demonic

"worst thing i've ever experienced"

god i fuckign love doing mephedrone with my girlfriend

"pics or it didn't happen" you say? ah, well

so it begins

god i feel like im going insane

god i really need someone to fuck me up as badly as i could fuck me up

you can tell it's been a few weeks since i last got some real torture in because not only am i fucking feral to show a girl an absolutely awful time, the ideas coming to me are some of the most gruesome i've ever thought up

making plans to rip out my girlfriend's fingernails 🥰🥰🥰

oh dear the mephedrone memory blackouts are quite bad this time

problem with being all "ill set aside an amount of mephedrone to use for the weekend and won't use any more than that" is it's impossible not to use all of what you set aside

more than most but less than you might think tbh

going into work still high from last night's chemsex lmao

damage report

love to spend a day doing drugs and beating my girlfriend

trip report

a trans pride flag, staples corset, and staples in the arm done for @besybiltoo.bsky.social at Cowgirl Sexbang a couple weeks ago

stapled and tied @emoboygirl.bsky.social 's cunt shut a couple weeks back. one of the coolest things ive done with staples so far ngl

a creature finds itself in quite a predicament!

realizing how much of this account is just me posting about my obsession with one woman i'm seeing lmao

salt in the wound

i really cannot stress how much of a bottom i was when i met this woman

hearing that the mere description of one of the photos i've posted was enough to make someone actually sick has me feeling genuinely quite proud of myself

why the fuck did i think it was a good idea to still be doing cocaine at 5am

good lord this is going to be an interesting time

giving a girl stitches and then punching them so hard they break

god i hate trying to find kink resources online

literally just been replaying clips i have saved of her being tortured so i can hear her screaming i am down fucking HORRENDOUS chat

ahhhhhh cocaethylene

ahhhh cocaine

feeling romantic, might drop a letter through a girl's door telling her to kill herself

flower garden (cw blood, needles :)

i really never thought i'd be living out my corruption kink dreams in quite this way

always love seeing the aftermath of my handiwork ☺️

"i hate you. i hate what you've made me into. i hate that im fucking addict because of you. i hate how much of a freak sadist you've turned me into. everything about this dynamic is toxic and i hate that i get off on it. i want to kill you. i want you to kill yourself while i watch."

actually going to be pleasantly surprised if i find anyone freaky enough for these this weekend

:)

oh shit oh fuck oh fucking fuck shit fuck fucking shit oh fucking fuck shit shit shit fucking fuck shit fuck god fucking fuck

trapped in the eternal cycle of "i need to buy some more sharps for this weekend"

okay looking back with sober eyes i think this may be close to the coolest combination of staples and needlework i've ever done

okay so i know now what too large a line of mephedrone feels like

put your hands together in prayer

drink up, piss faggot

signed confession