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I feel a deep melancholia today and I cannot pinpoint why. Everything just feels so far away. 😮‍💨

Wha???

I love their cunty little family squabbles

I sit here in the locker room eating a banana. Accompanied only by the sounds of someone fighting for their life in the toilet stall. I wish I hadn’t left my AirPods at home. 😔

I cannot play Mega Bonk until I 100% Hades II 😤

The way I’ve reached out to this clinic twice *with* a referral and still haven’t been able to get a call back let alone trt

Yesterday I had a mini crash out that I thankfully realized was irrational before it got too out of hand. Got it together enough to start the last week of the block at 210kg

I know I’m gonna have a good week in the gym. This is good! Unfortunately it’s because it’s the start of Block 10 so everything is super light compared to last week. That’s not bad, per se, but it is frustrating.

So after yesterday’s complete and total failure my coach is making changes to my programming going forward and staggering big lifts and I NEED to learn to not take it as a failure on my part. If I ever do a meet I’ll have to do all 3 and the warm ups so idk how that’s supposed to help but w/e

There’s something about wolverine’s character design that seems off to me

Them: Is that the… Me: Big Boy Social Club cropped mesh jerseys? Yeah. It’s. 🤭

What a fucking day

I need this game to be good 🙏🏾

518.09 lbs! That’s a new PR and sorely needed bright spot on an otherwise disappointing day 😤

I need a j and an ♾️ day weekend

Got an endocrinologist referral! 🙌 Now I just have to hope for an affordable solution

Would you believe wearing a necklace with spikes isn’t the best idea for the gym?

This is about to be the best gym tank of all time

Damn it I thought the direct was today! 😩

At one point I thought I had overcome comparing myself to others but that was clearly not true. How do I beat this?

Every dude on gear

Why does my stomach always start rumbling in the worst way when I’m about to leave work and go to the gym?! 😭

Successfully made dinner instead of ordering please clap

I’m in this post and I don’t like it! 😡

Week 1, Block 9

What if steroids actually fix my mental issues? Has that been considered? 🤔

@majinsb.bsky.social and I have scary dog privilege

Don’t forget the courses!

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Hey siri, how do I untether my self worth from whether or not I achieve arbitrary goals of physical activity?

I tied for 5th in the tourney but only the other guy is listed on the results. Does it matter? No. Is it still a bummer? Yeah. 😞

Uh oh. Here comes the nerves

400lb backdown sets of 6 reps

Revisiting this to say that a 44” chest should not be considered a 5XL! *cries in too big for ekkovision tanks*

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There was something different about yesterdays pump. I looked fuller? Idk I can’t put my finger on it

Tourney this saturday! I’m in a much better headspace than I was for the last one…but I still don’t want to bomb out immediately 😬

Forgot to charge my headphones and now I’m stuck listening to butt rock

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My nutrition goals are mid 200g for protein, high 300g for carbs, less than 100g fat. As of 5:16 PM I’m at 118g carbs, 66g protein, ?g of fat 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

XXXL being a 40” waist should be illegal lmao

Want bigger legs? Just face your knees outward lol

Had a really good workout and was surprised at how well everything was moving until my coach told me I was doing last weeks weight

If only they’d stay pumped 😂

Super close to ordering some new sneaks when all of a sudden 😔

There’s something very satisfying about this

I’d love to fill this shirt out one day 😮‍💨

So after that I continued to have an awful workout and almost got pinned under 275 on bench. I wish I knew wtf was/is wrong

I’d like to respond but I turn into a huge fucking asshole when I fail something I should’ve been able to do.