Manic fucking pixie dream

Someone in the work parking lot is absolutely jamming to blink182 at 8:30am lol

I still can't believe this is fucking happening. I've kind of been going through it so I've been practicing old bad habits. Every day feels surreal, like this is a dream or something.

I wish I had parents bro lol.

My nose bleeds so much now. So tired of tasting blood.

I wish my mom loved me more than her transphobic boyfriend that wants me to die

I'm so depressed it's kind of crazy I've been back on my bullshit honestly

I love going on the Internet and instantly seeing my missing friend and name a billion times. I want to chuck my phone into an incinerator sometimes, but I can't.

People magazine name dropped me too. I'm going to do myself in. Transphobes are swarming my personal Facebook and I've honestly been having such a hard time with this I relapsed the first time since I lost my dad 2.5 years ago.

I have had to sift through comments where people are saying they hope my friend is dead because he is trans. They are calling him "it." An account with 21k likes posted an AI prompt of him as a fucking angel. I'm wearing down mentally over this.

What do I even do with my brain

Everyone is talking about going to tell their moms happy mother's day and I just. Idk. Wish I had a mom and dad.

I'm so stressed. Thousands of eyes are on this situation. My friends and I have a spotlight on us. Reporters still talking to me nonstop. Like 50 friend requests a day. I'm having to moderate hateful transphobia on my posts. On top of this I'm suddenly having really spontaneous nosebleeds.

This feels like a dream

Dealing with this shit is making me want to fucking scream and cry

THEY NAME DROPPED ME ON THE NEWS LIKE 20 TIMES. FUCK. THIS IS WHY IVE BEEN GETTING SO MANY FRIEND REWUESTS IM SO OVERHEELMED

Some lady annoyed me so much at work I just left. I haven't done that in a while but I'm out of spoons. My friend has been missing for almost a week and my Facebook mentions are full of thousands of northern Kentucky residents arguing about they/them pronouns.

It's unfortunate gas prices are so high because my main coping mechanism was driving around with my music turned up to max volume because it is the only thing that drowns out the constant gnawing guilt and shame I feel over everything I have ever done at all times.

I woke up to the post I made having 3k shares. I'm so stressed. I am having to comb through ignorant comments regarding use of they pronouns. People are recognizing we are a group of trans people. Lots are empathetic. Some, not so much.

Friend still missing. Police found the car and phone. I made a post, it's getting around fast. Media is contacting me. Gave them his dad's number, didn't want to overstep. This is a fucking nightmare. I am tempted to share it here too; but I have less local connections on here.

One of my friends has been missing for over 48 hours and the police are no help. This is so stressful.

unethical and immoral things are gross because they’re unethical and immoral, they’re not unethical and immoral because they’re gross. ethics and morality don’t spring from the palatability of something

It's a really good thing I don't struggle with hurting myself anymore because the contractors left razor blades all over my house.

At t boy camping

I finally started Accutane but they lock the pills up behind Fort Knox-esque packaging and I've destroyed two doses trying to just get them out. This is frustrating. Fuck the FDA for regulating shit like life changing medication this hard but not recreational drugs laced with lethal doses of fent.

I got misgendered by 3 different people yesterday wtf kill me. Very unusual for this to happen but I have phases where people do it over and over and over again in a short period of time. It makes me feel fucking horrible and no one wins. 😓

My baby brit graduates his respiratory program tonight. I'm so proud of him. Without him I don't think I would have made it. He sacrificed so much and worked so hard for us. Things should be a lot better soon.

Brits graduation ceremony is today. Things are finally coming together. Still picking up hella shifts to make my money back though. 🥲

The most insane shit just happened to me but I can't tell anyone about it. What the fuck.

WHO THE F U C K DID MY DAD HIRE TO DO RENOVATIONS BRO. THE CONTRACTORS JUST SHOWED ME THE BATHROOM TILE WAS LAID OVER FUCKING CARPET. I???? COME ON. WHY WAS THERE CARPET IN THE BATHROOM IN THE FIRST PLACE???

So. The floor couldn't be completed without completely tearing out the basement pony wall and rebuilding it. The panels were so water damaged and warped that the baseboards wouldn't sit flush against the wall (couldn't finish the job with aesthetic results without tearing the wall out)

Happy 420 to those who celebrate.

The basement flooring was laid, they just have to do the baseboard edges downstairs. They're starting to lay the upstairs tomorrow, but they prepped it already. I'm very happy with it. The carpet was genuinely horrifically filthy.

Goodbye filthy carpet.

I'm gonna miss this place If you give it to me I'll give it back much harder If you treat me like a son Then I'll treat you like a daughter Everyone has a future Everyone has a soul Everyone has a heart They have a mind They have control

I worked my fucking ass off this week man. I don't think I've made this much in a week in years.

I probably hear and say the word box 100 times a fucking day

The contractor tore out my wall. Most of the moldy walls are gone. I gave him a hug. It turns out whoever built this half bath, they built the walls AROUND the toilet AFTER installing a specialty toilet in a size that isn't produced anymore. Geeze. I had a few options, but this was the best.

Ok so the contractor thinks I'm a woman but we smoked a joint together and he's fixing all of the things about my house that's stressing me out so I'll take it.

Wow I only pay 66 dollars a month in car insurance I didn't realize my rate was so good. Thx state farm.

I've genuinely been so stressed these past few days that I'm pretty sure I haven't eaten for at least 48 hours. I lost 10 lbs again. Bruh.

If you have surgery and say you think you regret it immediately after, and follow that up with not updating the multiple people who beg to see your healed results, I'm going to go out on a limb and say you aren't happy. What was the point of rushing into something you didn't even want?

Oh boy back to the grind at 12am to some unholy hour. I love picking up shifts.

I just broke down sobbing because I have had to return 2 toilets because the rough-in for my toilet is 8 inches. They don't make toilets with 8-inch rough ins. I keep crying. I just. I wanted to take shit into my own hands and do it by myself, but I keep fucking up over and over again.

I was prescribed Accutane yesterday but the ipledge website was down. All day. The pharmacy couldn't fill my order because the stupid fucking government website that gate keeps this medicine is fucking incompetent.

Tfw your contractor smokes you out on the job. Holy based.

I'm going to Lake Tahoe and San Francisco in June and I am SO fucking hyped. I've never been to Cali. :0