One of my dream dogs has only one breeder in the U.S.A and puppies are like 10k. She's the only person to title the breed with IGP1 and 2. She asked if her followers knew why she was doing a certain training method, and I responded. I was right and it felt so good bro.

Good mornbing

Wrow

I swear to God if you all try and make this shit a thing again I will go ballistic. Fuck off, eat shit, and choke to death. Thanks. Leave me the fuck alone.

I wanted to go on a walk this morning and get coffee but it is 0 degrees.

Bleeh

Omg this guy is on the Facebook forums like asking so many people "can I do my shot on top surgery week" And I said "cis men don't stop producing hormones for surgery, yes." And bro argued about possible hematoma then asked AGAIN.??

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Guess who is getting a new car!!!!! Omg!!!!! It's me!!!!

Kpin starting to hit me over da head with a frying pan bro

I need these drains out of my body immediately but I have a little less than a week left 🙃 My bf's mom is an occupational therapist, so she's going to remove them on the 2nd. Brit is med but he's never done drains so he's uncomfortable with it. I hope it isn't like. Really vulnerable. Or gross.

Yeah, adds up

I feel with any major surgery there's the fear of regret. I was so scared to do this because I was always thinking "what if I regret it?" The truth is that I have been overjoyed since I woke up. I'm enthralled with how white and grey shirts fit me now. I'm so happy with my appearance now.

Donald Trump must fire Kristi Noem immediately. Or Democrats will initiate impeachment proceedings against her in the House. We can do this the easy way or the hard way.

I want to get back into art so bad but I'm not going to lie, everything I produce these days looks awful. It's been so long, and I legitimately forgot how to draw due to severe burnout and horrible art block. Might go pay for some classes. I need direction from a mentor to shine my brightest.

Brighter!

I'm so sick and tired of these fucking drains. I tried going without Percocet yesterday. It was okay. I called my primary to tell them about the throat thing and they said they could do much. Dermatologist can't get me in until late March so it is what it is I guess.

I'm sitting here wondering when in the healing process is a good time to post photos of results because likeee I can tell the contour, incisions, and nipples look amazing. HOWEVER. I am very bruised with two giant wounds and many visible sutures and drains. I look like I was hit by a car.

I lost over 25 lbs for surgery because I was so fucking worried abt my surgeon's weight limit and they didn't even weigh me for surgery like they said they would. Just took my word for it. Wow. Skinny legend. They didn't even need to check, they saw my beautiful slim physique and just knew. 💅

I dislike this new trend where everyone thinks it's really funny to do the "fent fold" If you're doing this or think it's remotely funny you should die, actually Lol drug addiction and the systematic oppression of vulnerable demographics is SO FUCKING FUNNY 😂😂😂 LOL! I LOVE HUMAN SUFFERING!

Regretting teaching Juno confidence exercises and how to jump on objects because if I'm on the couch or in a chair she just flings her body in my direction and jumps on me like a trampoline

Yeah man the person intentionally sleeping around having bareback sex while not on Prep or getting STD tests after every hookup calls me a "BPD psychopath" At least I'm not intentionally risking spreading HIV to strangers because I'm a selfish nymphomaniac 🤷

You ever notice that the people who say the nastiest shit on a regular basis can seemingly never tolerate receiving a fraction of the energy they give out to other people?

It's a Knife Man kind of night. Can't sleep. In pain. Sad. Knife Man.

Telling a trans man who's 5 days post op that he only has friends because he has a vagina is fucking insane and deranged. But you aren't thinking about other people's feelings when being transphobic towards "yourself", are you?

My brother just told me my ex is having financial problems because he's in severe debt due to his mom encouraging him to take out wildly huge loans and buy a house he can't afford. So he decided to stop paying state and federal taxes and has a takehome of 2k a paycheck, but still can't get by.

I'm kind of upset because I cut a friend out over being told I only have friends because I have a vagina and various other hurtful shit, so I'm just. Idk. Bothered by it. It's really fucking with recovery. The thing with my ears, nose, and throat isn't getting any better, either.

Once I heal I'm going to lock in and start doing dog sports again. I think I might even register Juno with AKC partners and get her CGC. I miss the dog world.

I've been having moments when I take off my post op binder and just rub my hands on my chest. It's weird not feeling anything dangling. It's like, there really is nothing there, and I take moments to touch the numb parts because it's so weird not to feel when before my chest was overstimulating.

For the last few days I've had some terrible stuff going on with my ears, nose, and throat. Swallowing is excruciating and my uvula is twice its normal size, it was 3x the size a few days ago. I'm in the middle of that awful snow storm, and I'm in no condition to dig out my car.

It's hard to be happy right now. America is in shambles. I'm genuinely terrified. I feel so much dread. Starting to consider applying for asylum and leaving the country. I don't think it's safe here anymore.

My chest looks so fucking good it's everything I've always wanted. I feel like crying happy tears.

Today is my last day in Michigan before going home. I'm excited to see my results but also very nervous obviously. My entire chest is different forever and I haven't seen it yet. Other than that I have more mobility. First few days were pretty hard, felt tight and sore. But I'm doing okay.

I grew up eating venison because my dad hunted deer my entire life and I'm just now realizing how country that is

I can't take this post op binder off until Saturday I have literally no idea what my results look like. I've got Schrodinger's nipples fr. We also just had to change the dressings and there's so much blood 😭 I couldn't look I felt sick honestly. Just kind of had to weasel them out and back in.

When I was getting prepped for surgery the anesthesiologist could not get the IV in and he kept saying "you have incredibly thick skin has anyone ever told you that" Damn. No. Not physically or emotionally lol.

I'm out of surgery and on the other side :)!! So excited to see my results on Saturday during the post op appt and dressing change.

Detroit is so cold. I'm freezing.

The dawn of the final hour

Tabling with my brother at a card show and it's honestly really fucking fun lol

I haven't smoked weed in a few days and it's making me have these outlandish, insane dreams. I had a dream my intestines were infested with these fluffy caterpillars called "carpet worms" and they were breeding in my body and also eating through my organs and coming out of my skin.

Holy shit dude

The people who flash their brights at you when there's a cop ahead are heros honestly

RSD going crazy lately

I haven't been able to smoke weed or cigarettes in over 5 days and I have 9 left and I'm losing my fucking mind

Also my HOA just sent me a letter telling me I have 90 days to fix something to maintain the value of the HOA property and they just added a photo of the side of my house that was blanketed in algae LOLLL. They were like "You need to fix this in 90 days or we're going to send another warning."

I had to block my mom again. She sent me a bunch of messages glazing her transphobic boyfriend and told me my surgery was a choice. I genuinely cannot handle her being in my life during this. It's a huge fucking deal. She'll do nothing but bring me down.

I called my surgeon's office. They have been nothing but prompt and kind. I told them what they needed to write on the leave of absence and they did. It got approved immediately. I was crying so much last night over this. I have been so depressed and stressed out I have made myself physically ill.