I said I’d stop posting my bad feelings but since I’ve limited it, my bad feelings have stayed lingering longer that usual even doing the journal thing. Maybe this just how I’ve trained my brain to cope 🤷🏾‍♂️🤷🏾‍♂️🤷🏾‍♂️

Idk… this whole thing man. Life. I just feel like we should have a choice to opt out. Like I’m tired the “it gets better” of it all. Like the goods aren’t as strong as the bads and the bads last way longer than the goods. That’s just my experience though. Clearly I’m ass at this shit so let me dip

Tried journaling the other day. All it do was elevate my heart rate. Gotta find another release. Feel like maybe I just need a good cry. The ATLA concert could’ve done it but I didn’t wanna be violently sobbing in my section. I feel when they come it’s gonna be a flood/storm, not a quiet stream

Work tomorrow along with weekend activities. Will I actually find my center by the top of next week?!

Wrote 3 and a half pages of feelings and I still can’t shake it

Embargo lifts when the game launches?!? I might be fuckin COOKED

I may have lost the remainder of my patience in this life. I’ve never gotten here before but it feels as though everything pisses me off… idk what to do with this energy…

A company with decades of single-player experience pivoting to multiplayer? Well, it worked for Anthem, Suicide Squad: Kill the Justice League, FBC: Firebreak, Redfall, Marvel's Avengers, and all those PlayStation games

Normalize not constantly riffing bad jokes while watching serious dramas where all the details matter

The weight of existence was soooo damn heavy today. I really can’t have days off with no plans lmfao. It’s almost always a guaranteed rot and spiral. I USED TO BE BETTER THAN THIS

At least I am loved though right?!

Nobody’s ever ready for me to keep it real lmfaooo

Didn’t realize Keeper is out this week. I wanna trust Double Fine because PSYCHONAUTS 2 was so good but like… I just don’t know. Think this one is definitely a make or break for my chances

where's your safe space?!

Picked up a 3am Amazon because my pockets get ran weekly woooooo!!! 🤪🤪

Y’all remember Words With Friends?! We should bring it back

I remember in college I’m like “I’ll just work extra hard, pick up mad shifts and get more money and the response was “ohhh good job, I’ll take more” and after that I stopped picking up hours lmfao

Will there ever be a check not dipped in?! Feel like at this point I have to hide and keep my phone turned off to not be asked for shit. Even expressing how little I have, the thought isn’t “oh never mind” it’s “okay cool, I’ll just take a little then”

Never stand at the final miles of a marathon. It’s taking everything in me not to start crying. WOW

GUYSS!! WE ARE HALF WAY WOOHOO!!! A little less than $20k left and 12 days! If you haven’t backed out comic now is the time!! www.kickstarter.com/projects/com...

Insecurity is so weird. Like nobody in my life mistreats me or makes me feel unwelcome but there’s like people that I think about and wanna reach out to but for whatever reason I’m like “naaahhh I need a good reason”

A bridge or a topic

If you’re making AI videos in an app, why don’t you use the writing skills used to make said prompts and write actual stories or content pieces and find a team to bring them to life. If you care about anything other than likes and engagement, I guarantee that’ll be more satisfying than this shit

If you see a “Sora” logo in a video it’s ai full stop. Sora is Open ai’s new text to video model that turns prompts into video and they look realistic as hell! Educate your gullible friends on how to identify ai from “real” content.

New Love is Blind season is out. First cluster. Last few seasons have been MID af, but they brought the fuckin lunatics out for this one. Are we back?! Maybe so

Wow, look at me finding the loophole

WAIT I CAN TALK ABOUT SENSE OF SELF IN RELATIONSHIPS BECAUSE ITS RELATED TO ONE OF MY INTERESTS!!! REALITY TV!!!!

I think I’ve figured it out. The hyper introspection always comes at inopportune times. LATE at night when I’m trying to sleep. Grab phone, post til it’s gone. Right now we got forced down time before we can shoot and all I wanna do is analyze talent, my future, and sense of self in relationships

no yeah it's fine. sora 2 is fine. i actually love the fact that people can create virtually anything now in believable detail by typing in words. this is going to be great, especially without any regulations in place. this is exactly the world i hoped for when i was young and wanted to make art.

I really wanna just be in the head of an AI believer so I can better understand why they don’t care about repercussions or why they don’t think this shit is fucking garbage. Like it’s soooo objectively bad but they really just eat it up and I wanna know why

Take all the pictures Take all of the videos Record all of the memories

2025 has been an amazing gaming year but you wouldn’t know it as we spend way more time talking about the business of gaming instead of talking about the games themselves

Anyways with the vlog out, the goal for the week is to write a video in the first half of the week, shoot it and have it out for Sunday

Clarity

Anxiety so trash because it can really leave you unsatisfied no matter what. Like things are moving and you’re nervous about it so you want it to stop but then it stops and you’re like hold up I need to progress can we move again

Another video. Mostly talking but there’s some memes with Santino youtu.be/AmjjGtoppBw?...

Kingston loves Spider-Man Homecoming and got hyped when he saw Spider-Man at the museum of science and industry. Tryna see if I can get him on that spider verse flow

Can’t rush it though but I hope to figure it out

I really do want to have a like…transformative year man. Like completely different space come this time next year. More money, better shape, more direction, better headspace. I hate time goals but I do know i just don’t wanna be here for too much longer

I’m always so annoyed when I finish an edit because that shit real life probably took in total 3 maybe 4 hours and I been putting it off for like a month. I really need to just commit to certain amount of time a week to editing and see how much could get done

Can confirm new video will be live on Sunday!!!!!

The response to that IGN article about Sony titles being too similar shows how biased and brain rotted people can be toward things they like instead of actually reading

Live loud, live bold, you never know

Sorry, that wasn’t feelings again. Silent Hill f really killin it with the atmosphere and presentation. The little bits of story we got so far also got the gears turning so excited to see where it goes

Every time I dress a little casual for work and my mom complains, I die a little inside. I can’t explain it. It just pisses me off and like increases my “let me just end myself meter”

Been talking about this trend for years when it comes to games spending. Why are there premium gamepads, $149 collector's editions, Pro consoles and general rising prices? Because the price-insensitive, affluent players are the ones doing more of the spending as everyone else shifts more to f2p.

TOMORROW AFTER WORK WE DO IT OLD SCHOOL. I GET AN ENERGY DRINK AND STAY UP TIL THE SUN RISES FINISHING THESE VIDEOS

I saw this post the other day about romance and attraction and how they’re different things that are often tied together when they shouldn’t be

ABK Acquisition might be the craziest monkeys paw in gaming. Went from the best value in gaming to damn near pricing out its entire draw. So glad I stacked to 26 but after that, they’ve definitely lost me. Back to my 1-3 games a year