I don't want to die. But I want to be dead. - Jean Ingelow (1820-1897)

You’ve wetted your last leg.

Everything about this scares me.

After I finish Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, I'm thinking of trying American Psycho. Either that or Clockwork Orange. Am I wrong to think that all these books are talking to each other? What is it I am trying to understand?

"One of the things you learn from years of dealing with drug people, is that you can turn your back on a person, but never turn your back on a drug." - Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

I'm in a French Revolution kind of mood this morning.

Maybe it's just a function of being 19, but nothing Mandami has done feels all that "radical" to me. Just seems like responsible governance that doesn't defer exclusively to the interests of big money. Maybe that's what radical means now?

This movie should have been called, Bree.

Do men know if they have an unpalatable cock? Does it weigh on them or shape their personality? People talk about big dick energy, but is there a weird dick energy? If a man is professionally unpleasant is it because he hates his penis? ...the questions on my mind this morning...

Good for her. I would nominate her for an Oscar right now.

Who doesn't have a Clifton Webb loose in their head?

James Baldwin might be the most beautiful man who ever lived.

Out of curiosity, when is the Carrie Coon biopic about Joan Didion coming out!?!

I wanna be a Girl Bomb.

I would have said I was totally straight but Milly fucking Alcock's mouth does shit like this, and now I have questions...

A24: Backrooms is killing it. Our reputation as a creative force with an eye for talent is sky high. Assistant: Sir, I have a Mr. Money on line two. A24: Who? Assistant: Cash Money. A24: Put them through.

Historically, the children of deeply shitty rich people suck it up and play the game to not get written out of the will. Imagine being so grotesque that even with a trillion dollars your kids still want nothing to do with you...

In a Lyft with 2000 dollars. What a world.

This was a book once. I loved it (like everything by Kazuo Ishiguro).

I think like early appointments (like I've done so many...). I'll be done by eight so I'll be able to get a run in after and not go to bed with this being the last thing I did today.

I like when television shows do what I tell them. #widoesbay

Olivia Rodrigo picked up Sarah McLachlan’s torch. The musician has created her own all-women music festival, Daisy Chain, which will celebrate ‘the voices, artistry, and contributions of women in music.’

Sam Altman looks like a guy who still needs him mom to tie his tie for him.

Edward Hopper - Le bistro 1909 - New York - Whitney Museum of American Art

Since 2020, England is one ex-Prime Minister away from being able to field a basketball team.

Reading Hunter S. Thompson for the first time. He's an author I've avoided because of the kinds of boys who generally hype his writing. But I have to say, behind the demented chaos is a brilliant, incisive court jester with knives as sharp as ruin.

I have my first repeat appointment tonight. Don't know how to feel about that. On the one hand, I know what to expect. On the other hand, I'm scrambling to remember anything he said. Do I need to start keeping notes?

Someone at work got very upset that I'd never seen Raiders of the Lost Ark. I asked him how many forty-five year old movies he'd seen when he was nineteen. The question confused and upset him further. (I watched it last night when I got home. It was quite good but don't tell him that.)

"The Heat was Hot" - America "Oh, thunder only happens when it's rainin' - Fleetwood Mac Was weather a new and confusing concept in the 1970s?

C'mon man, the horse I rode in on had nothing to do with it

If you know that Facebook is down then maybe you are the Boomer you are mocking.

I am not wired to enjoy downtime but this is pretty nice. If I finish my book maybe that can count.

I don't know that I ever want to have sex with someone I like.

At least jonny knows he's a boy.

No lies and track 1 bops, too. open.spotify.com/track/0yO9QD...

I can vote now and can join the military to die for my country, but I'm too young to rent a car. Also, I'm too young to book rooms at most hotels. Our priorities are food for thought.

The nonprofit where I intern gave us all Friday off to "get the hell out of town for the weekend and avoid the White House cage match." So, I'm at the pool with a book.

"I don't wear belts; I have a tailor." - a thing I heard a man say to another man this morning. Kind of blew my mind. Is this true? Is a belt just a poor man's tailor?

All movies are time travel movies.

Honestly, this gives me hope.

This painting gives me the anxiety. Does the swimmer not know how close he is to the wall? Why isn't that guy warning him? Is he looking forward to mock the swimmer after he brains himself? Maybe this a metaphor for social media. No, because then the guy would have his phone out filming it.

I feel this girl so hard.

I know all about it So you don’t have to shout it I’m gonna straighten it out somehow Yeah, I wanna do right but not right now. open.spotify.com/track/52wczT...

It is possible my mood could be better.

All my life, I've tried as hard as possible: valedictorian, 1st choice college. I was so busy! It feels foolish now because the unqualified won. They run the government. They own film studios. They host influential podcasts. They spend a decade doing drugs and become X celebrities by shitposting.

One of my favorite artists has died... David Hockney. This is my homage to his work... such pure, simple lines that bring so much complexity with them.

To the individual who left a tack on the bike path today. Booooooooooo

My appointment tonight is already being so annoying and needy.feel like cancelling, but my type A grade grubbing psyche is already getting on my case to keep my commitments. Ugh.