🌟Intro🌟 Hello my name is Ezra~ I enjoy making art,Drinking tea and makeup This is my vent blog that will contain stuff pertaining to my eating disorder and negative thoughts so if you don’t want to see it then,.go away. MINORS DNI!! My stats are Hw:345 Gw230 Gw:190 Gw:160 Ugw:115

I wish I at least could know my exact weight aahhh I might have to start counting calories again

also my aunt is controlling af and will make a big deal out of it if I say no to meals or try to workout. she already is constantly complaining to my mom that I'm "too thin" which I'm totally not, she just hates that I lost weight at all

rn I'm so disheartened bc I was losing weight consistently for like 4 days but my mom asked me to visit my aunt for a little bit to basically break the ice after a falling out. anyway i feel like I'm definitely gonna gain while I'm here because they're constantly going out to eat :/

I'm sorry for constantly disappearing I feel like I'm missing out on making genuine/lasting connections here because of it but everything sucks and life is hard lol nothing can go right in my life and my way of coping is isolating myself(which doesn't even help) and idk how to stop

good morning guys I hope everyone slept well and that you all have a good Saturday♡

Why the FUCK am I always bloated

my fav #thinspo rn oh to have thighs this small

I won't repeat the same mistake this time though❗️ (￣ー￣)

high af rn lmfao why don't I learn

oh I totally binged yesterday after smoking (yeah I did NOT have it under control🤡) and somehow I still lost 0.6kg hehehe

Reminder to myself and to you guys Drink some water

hi guys I did the chores then I went back to bed and I've been stuck down a kpoptwt rabbit hole ever since, I hope you're all having a good day<3

now I smoke and binge Mr Plankton for the rest of the day hehehe

omggggg I wish I could show y'all my makeup today aahh I love it

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also i smoked yesterday and it didn't lead to a binge woohoo I've got this under control

this bitch is still going wtf free meeee

good morning mooties I hope you all slept well and are ready and able to take on this day♡

WHERE THE HECK IS SAKI

it's a Christmas thing! how'd I not know about this my family is Christian and very big on Christmas😭😭😭

pls this goes for all my moots! I would never knowingly interact with fatphobes/fatphobic content

okay google wtf is an advent calender and why is everyone talking about it

randomly decided to hop on the scale just before eating and omggggggg I lost 1.3kg I'm so mf happyyyyyy

sharing some cheese and crackers with my mom as omad today ^^

so addictive

fucking ravenous today ughh

without downloading any new pictures where are you mentally? I'm so totally okay.

why do I still have my period on the 5th day??? someone is trying to get me to commit a crime

happy monday y'all! I hope you have a good start to the week✨️

man isn't crying supposed to make you sleepy?? why am I literally immune to sleep ??

does anyone know any tricks to fall asleep quickly/any time?

I hate everything

I just don't really feel like doing anything..I'm too tired and too sad to put it simply I only feel motivated when I smoke but I can't do that bc I'll binge and I'm broke anyways lol

I feel like if I do this and try to pick up walking again maybe I can reach my goal in time but idk if I have it in me

I will have to try really hard ...

I need to get better at fasting like rn idk I think the only way I can be under 50s before my two weeks is up is to fast a lot. like every other day

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the fact that this was me at some point...how do I get back here fucckkkk idek if it's possible atp because of how far off I've fallen

how did I let myself go like this like how fr???I can't fathom that I look like this because of my own actions and lack of control

I'm genuinely so fat rn I wanna die

wow weed is lowkey my only source of joy rn might just end it tbh

smoked and I didn't binge but I did end up eating more which Ik I wouldn't have done if I'd been sober so ig I really do need a break🥲

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been at 600 cals since brekky and I'm desperate to stay there but I wanna smoke and these days smoking makes me binge so what do I do now

I fucking hate being sober

can I lose 6kg in two weeks like is it possible???? I feel like it is, am I delusion???

I'm actually closer to my hw than I am to my lw now oh my fucking god this is serious