one of the most positive memories i have from childhood is when i had a sleepover on the night that the first hannah montana episode premiered. the level of unexpected joy im getting from everything recently has made me so giddy and is so needed 🥰🥰🥰

my special interests have overwhelmed me, will report back in 2-4 days

also how today feels:

i think about this moment far too often

all i want is la mudanza at the super bowl thanks bye

the fact that i can’t shower with my headphones on is a crime against myself and all autistic people everywhere

debi tirar más fotos was in my top five albums last year and i am so excited for benito AHHH this album was incredible and he completely deserved the win!!! spanish isn’t my first language but i speak it at work all day and am working towards fluency and this album is a part of that journey and 🥰🥰🥰

sitting at a bar on my break while the democracy crumbles in MN and both my restaurants try to justify making its employees come in tomorrow during an actual state of emergency in dc. i’m looking for a silver lining here but im just not seeing any

modern american politics consists of experts patiently explaining why something insane that people are talking about could never happen, followed by that exact thing happening

one of the places i work is close to the arena in dc where the PWHL played today and holy hell did the lesbians come out and support 🫡 i got absolutely destroyed at the bar because we were so busy

the whispered count in at the beginning of the prophecy gets me every time

thinking about how tloas (the track) is such a bittersweet song at its core and in some ways reminds me of all the happy/sad songs that came before her

sinking into my special interests today to feel better and honestly it’s exactly what i need right now. my body and mind feel so tired, both individually and separately. i wish i could crawl in a cave and sleep through the next 10 years but alas i must survive and fight for change

one of my regulars is a journalist in the white house press room (works for an intl news outlet) and we know each other well enough that i was explaining PAlor to them a little!! the way i got their attention on it has me hopeful that the next time we talk they’ll have some opinions to share 👀

i feel like i have whiplash from the queer joy/special interest fixation vibes i had at the start of my day to fully being brought back to the reality we all live in. gonna end the night trying to get back to a happy medium place if possible. hope everyone is as okay as they can be ❤️

alert alert alert i can feeeeeeel the hyperfixation for HR entering my body and all i want to do is talk about it and you know who doesn’t want to hear about it? the stuffy old men im taking care of at the bar at work 😠

for any other autistic folk out there — my PDA going crazy with heated rivalry and its pissing me off so much. my brain has somehow viewed watching it as a demand and all i want is to sink into some new gay content and be caught up w/the pop culture but my brain is pushing harddd against it

i’m not on insta rn, and i know this is preaching to the choir, but i’m giving my yearly reminder here instead that jan 6 was terrifying for those of us that live in dc near the capitol. i had just gotten ACL surgery, couldn’t walk, and couldn’t tell if the city was being taken over for a few hours

still thinking about the fact that the “we can see you” sign owner from the doc has yet to be identified

i finally had set aside my entire day off to watch heated rivalry only to discover that my account access has finally been taken away from me ☹️☹️☹️ it was my best friend’s now ex husband’s account info and it was only a matter of time but i was really hoping he wouldn’t notice for a while longer

my shift didn’t suck last night! i stood up for myself and asked my gm who already understands my autism to move my section further from the unexpected dj booth, and then rang in the new year completely sober for the first time in probably 9 years or so!! extremely proud of myself on both fronts 🥰🥰

i am manifesting that my coworker will pick up my nye shift tonight because i feel dead and desperately don’t want to work. putting it out in the universe however i can 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

my mom just sent this to the group chat my sister and i have with her, and it is taking everything in me not to info dump on why i intimately know about this already

there’s a place that does private karaoke rooms near my job and i splurged and booked an hour after work by myself to sing all the taylor i want because none of my friends let me when we go and i must say 10/10 recommend

okay i’m gonna be vulnerable on here for a sec — as a non numbers girly who desperately still wants to be in the know, is there a master doc somewhere of all the numbers to look out for and why? i understand some/most of it but sometimes i just get so confused and need further direction

i’ve been working on sobriety from weed (16 days and counting after no T breaks for 10 years!) and i really wanted a preroll tonight despite all that, but when i went to take out cash the ATM ATE MY CARD and i don’t get a new one for 5-7 days and OKAY UNIVERISE I HEAR YOU LOUD AND CLEAR BRO 🤨😫😠

just got off the phone with my maga father and his wife, and she made a point to talk about the rumored tayvis wedding to me cuz they have a summer trailer in westerly, RI. she kept offering to have me come and “stalk the wedding” (so fucking creepy) and they say i have a problem with parasocialism?

merry christmas to everyone, but esp the unconventional holiday people! i’m spending mine cat sitting my best friend’s (and former roommate) cat who refuses to come out for anyone but purrs and drools all over me every time i see her because she knows me (the feeling is mutual, she is my baby 🥹)

Sending love to all those who don't have the family situation they'd like today -- ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️‍🔥🫶 ☃️🌲🎁🎅🔔🕯️

i got cut early after they gave us some cold food for the supposed “holiday party” that was my 15 min break. now that i’m unexpectedly alone with no plans on xmas eve, i think im gonna grab a drink and go home to watch the final show again and bop around my apartment for a while so i don’t feel sad

i decided to leave my pentagram earrings at home for my shift tonight and that, folks, is maturity 🙂‍↕️

i go see my family for the holidays every other year because i work in restaurants and that’s reality. this year on christmas eve, my job is calling the 20 mins they’re giving us to eat in the middle of our 11 hour christmas eve shift our “holiday party” and honestly that’s some insulting bullshit

i always go back to despite it being very well known how much vitriol is thrown at this side of her fandom, the flagging has arguably only gotten LOUDER over time. there’s so many things she could not do or not include that would make a stronger case for the hetlors, but she simply doesn’t do that.

ughhhhhh okay goodnight to all you wonderful little queer people in my phone, i absolutely cannot wait to see what the skyline looks like when i wake up 🤡🥲

to stay up or not to stay up… i don’t work until the afternoon tomorrow so the smart move is bed now, doc later but my mind is just so alive rn

star wars was one of my first special interests ever as a kid, and natalie portman as padme was absolutely my first crush (although i didn’t realize that’s what it was), yet im watching the new trilogy for the first time right now. every minute i watch, i feel a star wars demon rising from within 😈

every time she talks about travis it sounds more like a manager trying to fluff up their bestie’s resume so they can get a new job. like since when would anyone say they are on the same career trajectory? v nice of her to say

ugh nola n2 was my show, ep 4 is just the biggest treat (i am looking so hard for myself in the crowd shots)

it’s interesting how the rep bodysuit convo is happening outside of the context of a new bodysuit potentially signifying rep tv. like they’re showing everyone losing their minds and yea obvi it’s a lot about the new look but also the implications of the new look were so important

THE MANAGER AT MY LAST JOB THAT HARASSED ME, MOCKED MY AUTISM, AND GOT AWAY WITH IT FROM HR JUST GOT FIRED FOR ADDITIONAL HARASSMENT

currently being p chaotic and listening to taylor’s entire discography on shuffle while playing stardew valley actually romantic was followed by christmas free farm and i’m kinda vibing with the whiplash

My favorite part of The Eras Tour docuseries so far is watching all of the women discuss, decide, plan, lead, teach, and create while the men stay silent in the background and do what they’re told.

willow era version will always be that girl

also sorry if someone else has posted this but also???!!! look at these cute queers and their shirts!!!!!!!!!!

verrrrry interesting way to label the intro 👀 🧐

i love how during love story when she sings “i love YOU and that’s all i really know” she’s looking dead on at the camera (us)

lil emotional thread here — i just decided to do my full makeup while listening to tloas before settling in to watch the final concert, and as someone who is very new to being active in fandom spaces, im so grateful for this community. taylor become my special interest during a time

“the persona is huge but the person is soft” made me pause the documentary and walk around my apartment for a minute

kam 🥹🥹🥹 ugh i will ride into battle for this sweet baby

she just has the dykiest walk when she’s not on stage and i love it