6lbs down since the last time I tried on my hoco outfit a little over week ago it feels so much better now ugh

Ok I need a lil celebration post rn Life has SUCKED ASS recently but I finally broke out of the 130s and that’s not huge but it’s progress towards my goal!!!!! I’m gonna feel AMAZING at hoco tonight the weight loss is so noticeable my muscles are defined and I can see my ribs again I’m so happyyyyy

halloween playlist makes everything better

mind you, they are EIGHTY. NINES!!!!

Goddamnit I rlly don’t want to cut but it’s the only thing on my mind rn im like three and some years clean

This feeling is so unbelievably horrible but antidepressants is the absolute last thing I want rn

Why wouldn’t the last thing my parents say to me before bed be “A b in math and history???” Goodnight to you too I’m so exhausted get off my fucking baaaack

i dont want to study what if it makes me explode

wtaf my friend just said her and her gf arent going to the hoco game when we literally agreed we would!!!! I couldnt go to the last football game and i had such bad fomo:( ive been looking forward to thissss.... wtv im still going with my boy bsf. but now i feel bad for dragging him along sigh

I wanna do something important and impressive with my future but I made the mistake of sharing it with my parents so now they’re telling everyone that’s what I’m gonna do without realizing how much fucking pressure that is I’m LOSING IT

I’m locking in so hard for hoco

Just weighed myself after school to feel bad abt myself but I’m literally down a few pounds MID. DAY. I’m so ecstatic rn u don’t even know

Pulling an all-nighter yayayayay

Why does purging have to help me relieve stress so effectively it’s so gross

waking up and having a coffee just to face The Stomach Pain for the rest of the day

Was cool but didn’t get a chance to take a photo sigh maybe next time

I have a super cool outfit planned for Sunday morning coffee with friends I hope it actually looks good so I can post it on here:3

I love that when I took like 1/4 of the meal we made together he took the rest without complaint. That man is JACKED and a bottomless pit and I love him for it.

Got high

Love my physics teacher but that man promised he’d grade my test by the end of the day three days ago and oh my god I’m gonna freak out

Made the mistake of letting that school counselor in and now I feel that accountability and pressure to get better nnnnnoooooooooo

I might be delusional but I can see myself marrying this man in a decade or two we love each other so much I’ve never had anything like this he’s coming over tmrw to build my dresser and hang out I love him

I have no clue how I did daily freezing showers during my honeymoon phase I’m too cold all the time for ts

I’m seeing and feeling a difference just in time for hoco next week WOO

Why are calories evil a full day of school, gym and all and I JUST burned off my oatmeal from this morning

Okay I’m officially done with purging for now I’m getting mia face and I hate it im switching back to med/high res fuck this

AND he laid his head in my lap and we stargazed together AAAND when we said bye we hugged and he lifted me up sigh

My boy bsf is so confusing:( I used to like him but he turned me down and I was FINE with it (and still am) but we still do super not platonic things… today he literally tackled me and we rolled around wrestling in wet grass giggling helloooo 🫩

Woke up feeling nauseous and light headed and now I have to choose between not passing out at school or food in my stomach first thing in the morning which I despise :(

Sometimes I GENUINELY forget that not everyone like has an ed and thinks about food all the time like wdym youre not hyperfixated on your weight and appearance 24/7 your brain must be so peaceful lmao

School counselor said “I thought so” when I told her I’m ana

I wanna say I did wonderful perfect amazing on my physics exam but that’s what I said last time and my score was HORRIBLE

Bread is the single worst thing to purge ts is disgusting

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When I was recovering I totally forgot how isolating this disorder is. Technically, I have so many people to talk about this to but would I actually ever do that? No!!! I don’t want anyone to worry about me even though they maybe probably definitely 100% should.

Really liked this outfit tehe

I simultaneously love and hate being reminded that my eating disorder is directly tied to how much control I feel like I have in my life. This week has been hell so ofc I’ve been high res like crazy.

Not dead, just locked in

can i lock tf in

Binged yesterday but caught a stomach bug so all is well

First time in a changing room and not wanting to bash my head into the wall repeatedly 😋

if you see this, quote this post with a gif of your pfp :))

About to get so high idk where I am 🙂‍↕️

New Tyler album has been on repeat all day and will continue to be on repeat until I get sick of it btw

Fun lovely amazing

I feel gross for eating when I didn’t have to im gonna go lift till I can’t feel my arms

It’s impossible to imagine someone seeing me romantically and that’s making me not want to eat for the next week or so! Let’s see how much I can drop before school starts!

Old bcs make me curl up and rock back and forth

Got high and found all my old thinspo not having a good time