i was very close to kicking my own bucket but i became certain going to hell will not only not granting my wish but it will make it worse. so i changed my plan from passing away to gaining amnesia

im going to have my defense on wednesday and my examiner is gonna be the prof that tried to out me to my parents. well

cell of empireo,

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my draft of the sakuma big essay is staring at me but unfortunately im low on SP (sanity point) and my RAM is too full and my OS is on survival mode

still mulling over the best way to word it but going with everyday sakuma's wish is to be with kidou but not in the teikoku's system at the time, sakuma wants to support kidou as a close friend / partner but # its complicated

got myself thinking because i know genda would beef against fudou too but i wish to know How and Why he would do that. ik kidou's more concerned more himself and sakuma's is completely about kidou. i feel like genda would resent both fudou and himself though

this is my sauce of the chronicle mode of vicro, so you gotta finish the match according to canon matches with requirements and stuff

i only spent the day sleeping and rewatching this cell of empireo playthrough because i need to re-experience peam

i already got some school stuff done and im more or less free. so theoritically i should be able to draw lots... except im in flop era

the new penguin hisatsu makes me happy. i also hear the cv horieru character (raimon's new GK) speaking and that makes me happy too

they fixed his collar

new ologies episode topic is so conveniently timed

to think i actually self diagnosed it post abandonment crashout 7 years ago and dismissed it bc i thought it was not that bad!! i feel like an absolute fool 😭

regardless of how much i saw the diagnosis result coming because im not THAT surprised and how much i wished to be diagnosed this is a lot to take in and process

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assessment results are in and discussed and everything i suspected I have (ADHD, bipolar, NPD) are revealed to be BPD symptoms that I mistake as others like the astronaut meme in the "so it has been BPD all along" way

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forever will be a glazer of kidou n sakuma's romantic two guys friendship and i dont regret it and im right for it... imo its a shame that endou gouenji and fudou are given credits of importance for kidou but not sakuma even by areori writers. sakuma is important to kidou too like kidou is for him!!

gave an oldie blogpost an image id upgrade

cute

its smth that even i missed so like well. okay. about it but kidou is a lot more earnest and open than people give him credit for. like if we were to point fingers at the emotionally constipated one it's gouenji

yay for knights of guinevere for plus size butch icon

i mean sure its not making that much sense if it's seen from purely technical skill sense but what's sakuma's referring is that kidou isn't playing in raimon as Kidou (the heir) but rather as Yuuto (himself) its really not hard to understand and yet

atp im whatever about any bad thing said about sakuma but the ones that are still scathing to this very day is this one person who got angry over sakuma's "we need your gamemaking" at dissociating kidou in team K match like cut sakuma some slack....

the more i research about it im more certain that i have npd, and i scored consistently high in the BPD forms i had to take. its a lot to take in and process..

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well. this is truly the worst crashout in my whole life because usually i would ugly cry in the i dont want things to be like this way but now i stopped caring. like doomerism. apathy. absolutely defeated

wrote an essay on this

shit is so bad im daylight drinking

depending on how things go i might end up not pursuing masters overseas but settling with getting masters here just because i need the students discount for psychologist counselling

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okay, so. i have bipolar disorder. we have a suicide rate of about 1/5. i've basically spent my entire teenage and adult life trying not to kill myself. so with that in mind, here are my tips on how to hang in there: 1) don't isolate. i know all the excuses. but don't do it

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people hate on ommocat due to her being a shotacon which i also dislike her for the same reason but people dont really talk about her workplace mistreatment which makes me frown

i did a wee research on various mental disorders when i was taking my MCMI assessment (online) and for whatever reason NPD and covert narcissism are among the ones that i relate to most. like if those are shit thats behind my extra mean streaks all along i would defeatedly agree and nod

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as much as im trying to not minding it my recent posts consistently flopping do be ruining my self esteem lmfao. im just going to rest or not bother with drawing

oomf encouraged me to continue working on it so i am doing it

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obsessed with this fucked up animal thing (its called gundi aka comb rat)

i filled my mcmi assessment while waiting for next appointment. and i got extra tired and profound because i had to Process