The others didn’t seem to care at all, so why try?

But who knows if you really care if I’m here or not

What am I supposed to do when everything keeps crumbling apart in my own hands and I can’t do a thing about it? All that happens is I’m blamed for all of it, blamed for my own misery as if I wanted myself to suffer every fucking day losing any motives to keep trying, staying alive for no reason

Or seeing how in an attempt to try and expand my friends circles, i then just get avoided for no fucking reason; I can’t be told if the other person wants something or not; someone else doesn’t trust the new friend; or that friend just turns into a fucking asshole What am I supposed to to then?

“You have to stop hiding and start fixing things” And what? See how things get worse? See how I’m dragged around for nothing? To see how the plans I was invited to were just forgotten and passed around to my other friends? How is that not supposed to make me feel unwanted, how does a friend do that

Why does it keep happening

Why does no one believe it until there’s no way to come back

What else do you need so you would finally fucking believe me

I feel as if I’ve completely lost my shine, fully muted. A husk of what I was just a year ago I want to expand friendships, but I feel I’m burning through my time with the friends I have now; do they consider me a friend? Did they? I’m afraid of confrontation, I often mess everything up

Mind numbing pain

(You call it back and forth and just to turn and say “where the hell are you trying to go?”)

ちびぬめ

rainy

And now it’s me who has your fear of opening hearts

3 years HRT

I really wanted to enjoy this day, I had made plans and prepared for a week Instead I broke part of my favorite suit, broke a good lanyard, wasted the entire day where I was able to be alone for a good time One day is all I’m asking, one day where nothing goes to shit

I'm considering paying for my mastectomy n the end. 😢 Been more than 3 years waiting for court to decide something about my health insurance to pay 4 my surgery it just seems it's going nowhere, I'm feeling humiliated, tired and also a bit worried this process will take too (+ on thread)

what i'd give just to feel like i belong

“I don’t want to lose you” How many more to make fake promises

the sleeping situation

A cat in the cold

life is good, actually

Finally had a chance to have pretty snow and get outside with my fursuit! So fun!! ❄ 📸: @fuchsrehchen.bsky.social #furry #fursuit

It’s pretty funny to see when both of my fursuits are being worn at the same time #FursuitFriday

As per yearly occurrence; playing the songs that matter the most Since 2018 Love you

Avena dos pesos

Silent agony

Tears in your eyes someday will dry Will they?

A broken heart nonetheless

Will I ever actually heal?

ha! never heard that one before 🎄🦮🎄 silly lil profile pic for @jennithepup.bsky.social

With him by my side I always get the calming feeling that things are going to be alright again. It’s been always like that with him. I’m very glad to have him. Especially recently 💖🩵 🖌️ by @astremgoo.bsky.social

Here’s your pleasant reminder to clean your hardware if you haven’t … totally didn’t forget this one out (IM SORRY 😭)

A good memory #art #furry #furryart

My heart may be broken, unrepairable But I’ll die if it ever becomes bitter

i will keep posting my backlog in a no particular order

Something new. Let’s see how the pictures will turn out compared to my other Polaroid camera from the 80s

When did I begin feeling like this, I don’t like it, I hate it, I hate it so much

Sorta missed the energy in venting emotion while playing the guitar and listening to certain genres, it feels so good

“No me canso nunca de hablar, porque vivo en el silencio más total”

Spooky time! 🎃 with @fuchsrehchen.bsky.social

It’s nice to look back at the photos of Tokyo at night. It was such a vibe ~ <3

I caught a very Cute Pokémon last Saturday, it was really Shy at first 🥰😋 💚 @howlingceltera.bsky.social

If you come across this post, post your sona not smiling.

If you come across this post, post your sona not smiling.

🖕 :3 🖕

Getting a bruise on the pinky of my right hand right when i need to do commission work really fucking sucks