So I woke up feeling nauseous and I have work today, so I’m going to try and get some sleep and see if that helps because I can’t afford to miss work this week after being late on Monday 🫠

I hate when I make plans with friends because I just have to hope and pray that nothing goes wrong before the day and the DAY of said plans are supposed to happen and then if something goes wrong I have to make up a last minute pivot and then I get frustrated because the plans are all messed up 😵‍💫🫠

I didn’t have a good day for many reasons but the main one being: Today is my dads birthday, and I couldn’t be there to celebrate it with him, and I tried to keep my emotions at work hidden, hell i didn’t even say anything to my wife about it

If earlier this morning is an indication of today will probably go… it’s going to be a long day 🫠

Sooooo I think with everything going on irl, I’m just not really going to be able to participate in inktober BUT I’ll post on the days I have time to sit and draw something

So it turns out my wife has Halloween off and now I have to figure out what she and i can do with our dog, we want to walk him around on Halloween night but I want us to do some fun things during the day time too so planning that out will be fun 🫠

I just want ONE thing to go right this week please 😮‍💨

Going live with Graveyard Keeper in about 20 mins and have no idea what to expect :D twitch.tv/aciddotexe

So I have to change plans for November I guess 🫠

So I had a rough start to my work week yesterday, I had to walk to work in a downpour, my coat was in my wife’s car so the shirts I wore got super wet, had to go into a Ross, buy a new shirt, some towels to ring my hair out, and a brush, had to run into Safeway to change

I’m not really contributing to my marriage, if anything I’m dragging my wife down, my job is seasonal, and it’s almost October, after Halloween (unless they have me help with tear down) my job is done until next year, and if I’m being honest seasonal work is all I can handle, physically,

So while I walk around during my shift at work one thought constantly pops into my head and it’s always the same question over and over but worded differently every time: “Why do people like me?”, “why do people want to be in my life in any capacity?”

So I’m trying to figure out what shoes to get because i need some new shoes before the Halloween season at my job REALLY kicks off so do i get Doc Martens or Converse (specifically Chuck Taylors)?

So I’m thinking about inviting my grandma and grandpa, and my aunt, uncle and their kids out to celebrate our wedding anniversary in November but idk if they’ll want to see us, much less celebrate, I just want them to come see us for once instead of us having to go out of our way to see them 🫠

So I’m certain I didn’t sleep well last night because I woke up this morning, made my wife her coffee before she left for work, and as I was doing so, I was falling asleep on my feet, this happened a few weeks ago too at work, so idk if I just need to do a sleep schedule reset or what?

There are things that I want to do but can’t because rent took most of our money, we have less than 100 dollars in our account to get us through until Friday, my wife and I can’t celebrate our dogs birthday on the actual day, we can’t even celebrate our anniversary, and it sucks 😭

Ngl, depression is hitting really hard tonight

I’m sick of things not going right, I’m sick of fighting with people, I’m constantly frustrated, I’m not happy, I need change of scenery, I’m mad I can’t be with my family for this years holiday season,

Ngl I’m feeling pretty numb at the moment, i genuinely hate how I look, my dysphoria is so bad, i wish I didn’t look so “girly” all the time, I wish i could present more masculine sometimes but clothes shopping is so hard because of so many different factors, i wish I didn’t feel like this 🥺😭

It's taken forever, I still haven't 112% Hollow Knight, and I'm still not sure this game even exists. SILKSONG TIME www.twitch.tv/monran

I’m in a place mentally where I know I’m not doing well, but i feel like I HAVE to act like i am, i know it’s okay to just let myself fall apart when i need to but right now I feel like I need to be strong enough to just push through and hope that things continue to get better

So I’m looking for a new place for my wife and I to live after this lease is up in July next year, and don’t get me wrong I like this apartment but I’m really missing my home state.

I’ve seen so many people spreading the misinformation that PBS is shut down or is shutting down. The Corporation for Public Broadcasting has been shut down and PBS has been defunded. HOWEVER!!! PBS still exists. It is more important now than ever that you donate to PBS if you can.

So internally I’m crashing out, like my wife and I have to be packed and out of our current apartment by 10am and we have the bedroom left, and the outside closet left to do, just please let us get this new apartment so we can get moved in and not have to worry about if we’ll be homeless or not 🥺😭

So it’s looking like my wife and I have run out of time to keep our current apartment, and we need to find a place to stay temporarily until we can get into a new apartment and even with both of us working right now we still don’t have the to live in a hotel until we get a new apartment

So I think I’ve hit the point in this situation where I have kinda lost hope that we’ll make it in time for us to pay our rent, get groceries, and get our dog to vet for a shot he needs before the month is over, while I have started my job, I don’t think we’ll get

I’m usually not one to double post but if there’s anyway you can help my wife and I out so we can at least put gas in our car and get groceries for the next week or so please read this and donate if you can: gofund.me/25d486de

I feel like things are falling apart at a VERY FAST pace, like my wife tried to gas up our car on the way into work and we couldn’t because we don’t have the money, I don’t start my job until this upcoming Wednesday, and I have felt like my body is falling apart for months and I have no idea why

I’d like to take this opportunity to say Happy anniversary to my beautiful wife @rbree2.bsky.social , I know that we are currently going through a really tough time but I believe that as long as we have each other, things will get easier and better, I love you so very much my sunflower 🌻 💛

I really wish I had insurance right about now, because I have been wanting to go to therapy since I moved to be with my wife, and it’s been taking so long to get a job, and I’m so close to getting a new one and I’m so scared that something is going to happen and I’m not going to get it

It's never too late to explore your passions in life. Idc how old you are; do the things that you've always wanted to do! Music, art, dance- WHO CARES! Life's too short to think of 'what-ifs'!

So i pulled something in my shoulder, i dont know when and i dont know how but it sucks to turn my head a certain way at the moment 🙃

I had a great vacation visiting my family, but it gets harder every time I leave, I thought it would get easier but oh boy was I wrong, and don’t get me wrong, I love Washington state, if I hadn’t moved out here I wouldn’t have gotten married to my beautiful wife, (1/?)

So today is a bit of a busy one, we have to get Parker setup somewhere to be boarded while my wife and I are traveling, so we’re going somewhere today to see if they have the availability we need, and we have a friend coming over to hang out with us before we leave,

So I didn’t sleep to great last night but I hope that after I sleep for a few more hours this morning I’ll feel better because 😮‍💨 I’m feeling the effects of not getting good quality sleep 🫠

learn your history, besties

So lately my nighttime comfort background noise has been watching videos from The Bald and The Beautiful podcast, Trixie Mattel makeup videos, and Juno Birch playing the sims 4 and sometimes I leave those playing on the TV as background noise for my dog while I’m out of the apartment running errands

A rare broadcast? In 2025? Yes, you are correct! Not djing but still music playing #DeadAsDisco right now! Song requests on! Twitch.tv/TheNeoabsolution

The way we same celled this but two days apart xD

To the guy who tried to get me to “tie my shoes” in front him (he tried to tell me my shoes were untied but I knew they were not) just so I would bend over in front him so he could look down my shirt, I’m not dumb, I know what you were trying to do, just because I’m a bigger chested

I genuinely can’t wait for my birthday trip to Michigan so I can just enjoy time with my wife and family, and not be online as much or at all, I just want to live in the moment while I’m there, and not be so absorbed in my phone and while I will be taking pics, I won’t post them until I’m home 💛

To my beautiful wife @rbree2.bsky.social , I love you so much, we’ve been through so much together, all the ups and downs, we still find a way to get through it all, you are my safe space, my other half, my best friend, my soulmate. You do so much for me, show me so much love

So today is Mother’s Day and this my first time ever being able celebrate, while I may not be a traditional mom, I am a dog mom, and that’s a title I will wear proudly

So today is the day I’m getting part one of my sleeve, and I’m super excited about it, it’s something that I’ve wanted for a while now, and I’m excited to see it all come together as each part is done ☺️

If I hit anymore hurdles while apartment hunting I’ll scream, we need me to have income coming in on my end on one of the applications if we want to TRULY qualify and I’m just sitting here hoping to hear back from a place I’ve applied to

So in between apartment hunting, I’ve been planning the wedding ceremony of my wife and I’s dreams so we can have a celebration with friends and family and i realize that I can’t do it on my own like I thought I could 🫠

As I’m laying here next to my wife, I’m realizing how lucky I am to have her in my life, I love you so much @rbree2.bsky.social , together forever, for the rest of eternity 💛💛

Today is a day where I realize that I have lost myself a little bit, I’ve been trying to get through a lot of things by myself, I know don’t have to, but I also feel like no one would understand what I need in that moment, or I just couldn’t express what I need in those moments (1/?)

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If the universe could just stop throwing shit at my wife and I that would be great, we have been dealing with the situation with our apartment, me still trying to find a job, and my wife and I are pushing ourselves to point of burnout and it seems like we can’t catch a break