Cultist Lord of the Amajina Mines. Oh my dear, you appear to have wandered into the wrong meeting. Too bad we must kill you now. #FFXIV #gpose #vanillagpose

grieving， grieving， constantly grieving. i mourn what could have been， what will not be， what i can't save.

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Artist is MrLovenstein.com but I changed the words a bit for chronic illness

my darling， you will never be unloved by me. you are too well tangled in my soul.

i've wasted so much time becoming nothing.

i'm a heartless puppet， just moving around until i break.

Good things are coming but I am so far behind schedule on so many things. It's nearly midnight and I'm not even 1/2 way through my work load 😭

Couldn't run D&D tonight, we were down too many players due to random circumstances on their end but that's life. Tomorrow is chill. Saturday is Femroe Photoshoot. Sunday wife and I go for groceries. Tuesday FFXIV x MHW drops. Wife doesn't have to work the week of the 13th. Good things are coming 💜

Time for the pinned thread, starting with my ko-fi account :3 I'll be adding more to my shop over time/as I have spoons as well ^^

#RuneLore As I the player am AuDHD, that does get into Tyr sometimes about certain subjects; mostly her work as a technobotanist. Which means any *real* moments of her being AuDHD would have to be filmed without her knowing in the privacy of her study areas, or be like a reddit stories thing. -

#RuneLore I've always felt Tyr is very lilac and lavender. The scents are nice, and that pale purple is in her color scheme for every outfit :3

The Dollar Trees around here sell a knockoff Goldfish thing that's like, whales? But honestly outside of the shape being different they taste exactly the same, and the boxes are just $1.25 instead of like $5 for just under the same amount on the whale side so I always get them for game snacks ^^

If you're reading this, I love you, and I hope the best for you today. ❤️

Being healthy? I've heard of this. Is this like that unicorn thing?

#RuneLore Not at all, Tyr's focused to an almost hyperfixation point on most things. If she's ever 'spacing out' it's when she's in bed trying to fall asleep XD

#RuneLore Tyr would just say 'straight' to avoid confusion, because she herself doesn't really know on the sexuality side. Gender wise she's firmly afab and okay with that, but sexuality...I have the words and would say she's demi/grey but idk if she'd have those words if that makes sense?

#RuneLore Tyr and Dancing Green fell in love during their Arcadion fight, they just didn't know it yet. Tyr's offer to help him recover from burnout and the time spent was such a slow burn it was agonizing, and admitting feelings was like pulling teeth but they did it and now are a happy couple ^^

Just...more bad news dropped today. Completely killed any happiness I had, and everything I've been looking forward to. Life really loves to kick me when I'm down and then toss sand in my eyes as an extra 'fuck you'. I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take 😔

did i live with you in a past life? was i your lifelong partner? is that why the idea of losing you torments me so much? how long have i been without you?

it must be nice having someone care enough to cry over you.

It is 40 minutes past when I am normally in bed. My cats know this. They have decided to curl up on my legs in protest. I'm sorry babies, but I'm finishing up a role quest because I slacked on doing those. I promise I will be in bed soon XD

I wish my joints would stop having opinions about the changing weather

Welp. I can't solo the True Path boss of the subterrane and there's no level unsync for the V&C dungeons so I guess that's a set of mounts I'm never getting. No one I know in my friend circle plays anymore. I don't belong to any groups that do this kind of stuff, and the FC is just me and -

I want to answer the QotD about emotes but...I've literally never had a random one thrown at me in all my time playing. People don't just walk up to me and do emotes. Makes me a little sad, actually 😢

#RuneLore Tyr would have a mixed shop; flowers primarily, but also alchemy made from plants. She grows everything herself in a greenhouse in the back and if she could she'd 100% retire from adventuring to do that but realistically she'd have help and man the shop when she can between adventures.

#RuneLore I mean literally the end of Ultima Thule and fighting Zenos. That nearly killed her, and even if she's recovered there's still some bits that have changed; bones that didn't set totally right, scars that didn't go away. But Tyr has adjusted over time ^^

it's okay if everything burns down. even if i go back hundreds of times， my choice is always you.

#RuneLore Tyr's taking a vacation, hanging out with Dancing Green and having fun. Something's always next but in this little pocket of peace she's just enjoying herself ^^

#RuneLore So funny thing is, neither one had a 'preferred type'. Tyr's bi but wasn't really actively chasing a relationship, and for Dancing Green it's not really ever stated in canon so I just headcanon he's probably bi with a female preference and Tyr being female fits the bill so XD

As of the Dawntrail patches Tyr is 28, she'll be 29 when 8.0 starts ^^

but the past couple of days i've missed you so much it felt like missing you is all i am.

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Trying to clear the variant dungeons. I got 1/2 way through the subterrane and haven't even touched the others. I know they're soloable just rough that way, but a friend kept promising to run them with me and then...well, never did. So that's my checklist for tonight, hopefully clear the subterrane.

When my spoons are too low to do lots of things, and the few things I can/want to do are not appealing or not available for whatever reason so I just end up sitting and disassociating for like an hour 🙃

The last prompt is "Cultist Lords of the Amajina Mine" which...I'm trying to put together something that says cultist but also not basic bitch robes you know? Might be a thing for tomorrow. Today was rough and I thought posing would make it better but nah just ate up more spoons T-T

Mausoleum Adventurers Keep going until you find the treasure! #FFXIV #gpose #vanillagpose

#RuneLore Tyr would have issues with most flights because she's big and would feel cramped the whole time. But assuming the airline wasn't a dick and she had ample room, she'd sleep the whole way. "Rest when you can" is her motto XD

#RuneLore If Tyr could do Build-a-Burger with no restrictions? At least a pound of meat (probably like 4 1/4 pound patties), so much cheese it'd make a lactose intolerant person sick, tons of spinach (healthier than lettuce), a grilled pineapple ring or a fried egg (depending on her mood) -

So rather than deal with the UK's bullshit age restriction laws imgur (and a few other sites, I'm hearing) have just blocked UK IP addresses. Most don't have the staff and infrastructure to be compliant anyway, so turning off access is just doing some preemptive cya which I honestly respect 👍