he left a piece of himself with you and you are terrified he is not coming back for it.

once i become attached to something， i fear that i will lose it. that's why you only live for the moment. but you， you brought me pain. pain that i didn't ask for. when i'm with you， i fear everything.

i love water， but i cannot swim. what a tragic way of saying i love you， but i cannot survive you.

knowing someone isn't coming back doesn't mean you ever stop waiting.

we will be reunited， dear brother. but not here， not now.

but even if this is our end， it won't change what we had. i love you more than you'll ever know. be well.

time was a dying thing in our hands and grief was eating all that i'd let it.

the moon will sing a song for me. i loved you like the sun， bore the shadows that you made with no light of my own. i shine only with the light you gave me.

let us look again for a moment; it is the last time， perhaps， i shall see the moonlight with you.

i never understood desire until i felt your hands around my throat.

don't apologize. you're happy right now. congratulations.

the thing about a mother’s hate is that it’s not that different from a mother’s love.

no other word makes my mouth as tender as your name.

as for myself， i am splintered by great waves. i am colored glass from a church window long since shattered. i find pieces of myself everywhere， and i cut myself handling them.

i loved you like a dog. i would have followed you to my own grave and still have been unsuspecting when i saw my name on the headstone.

you will always fall in love， and it will always be like having your throat cut， just that fast.

you are allowed to grieve over the child you could’ve been.

even if i end up broken， if i can protect everyone else， i will do it. if i can to that， it doesn't matter to me if i break one day. i lost my reason for living a long time ago.

i was never good at this body. there was always something in me so anxious to crawl out.

i was brave， i resisted， i set myself on fire.

it’s a constellation worthy of you.

you are my sweetest downfall. i loved you first， i loved you first.

i just miss you， in a quite simple， desperate， human way.

when someone loves you， the way they say your name is different. you just know that your name is safe in their mouth.

instead of welcoming the light， i became anxious by it... because i wanted to be kept hidden in the darkness that rendered me invisible. because i couldn't bear the thought of being seen.

i promise， i'm doing my best. i just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet.

for you do not return. ever again.

where do i exist if not within your voice? if not within the way you touch，or the way you say my name?

i love you， i love you. this may sound like a cliché but my heart has a hole in the shape of you.

i believe in you more than the future that hasn’t come yet.

i am tired of loving you. i am tired of grasping grief like a root in the stumbling dark.

i love you much， most beautiful darling， more than anyone on the earth and i like you better than everything in the sky.

i hope it’s love. i’m trying really hard to make it love.

i've always been living in search of the touch of someone's hand.

you’re going to die in your best friend's arms. and you play along because it's funny，because it's written down，you've memorized it，it's all you know.

i crave. i want to be seen clearly or not at all.

but why am i too much for myself and too little with you?

and even as i'm kissing him and kissing him and kissing him， i wish i were kissing him. wanting more， more， more， more， like i can't get enough， never will be able to get enough.

my life has been one of much shame.

sorry i didn't kiss you， but it's obvious i wanted to.

a life with someone you can say goodbye to is a good life，especially when it hurts so much to say it to them.

when he laughed， he looked very different when he was before. i could pass him off as a child. he was like a lost child who had finally found his home.

i am in love with reciprocity. i eat you eat. i starve you starve. i hunt we live.

i am a demanding creature. i am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable. but i am your servant. when you starve i will feed you; when you are sick i will tend you. i crawl at your feet. for you alone i will be weak.

you are not the villain. you once held my hand.

i was growing less and less attached to life. if i kept going， i thought， i'd disappear completely， then reappear in some new form. this was my hope. this was the dream.

i’ll be there no matter what. i’ll be there even if you don’t want to see me again. i’ll be there even if there’s nothing to gain. i can’t make up for what i did in the past... but i can do this much for you.

i spent my childhood learning how to fear， and now i spend my adulthood learning how not to.

i burned so long， so quiet， you must have wondered if i loved you back. i did， i did， i do.

i know your heart， and you mine.