For those keeping score, I decided to go to an urgent care to have my infected toenail debrided. So don't tell me I don't know how to rally and make the best of a Friday night!

No, YOU just ate the crumbs at the bottom of a bag of pita chips alone in a dark room. Is it Monday yet?

Ain't that the truth. Hang in there, friends.

It's been a weird day. Overslept. Dropped something expensive and it broke. Self care was pancakes. Therapy was a net positive, focusing on authenticity. Now, decided I wanted to listen to Echo & The Bunnymen, for some reason. Life is weird.

Sigh. Another reminder that whatever I thought my gender expression was...it ain't that.

I did "Dry January" in the hope of jump starting some weight loss amd gained 6 lbs. Ouch. Like my exercise class instructor says, "you can't out run a bad diet" and stress eating isn't healthy for many reasons. I guess we're on to February!

Good morning! I haven't written as much lately but I did some reorganization of my current chapter and think it looks better. I need to tie together some thoughts and add some tables and I'm hoping to have a new draft submitted by the end of the week. I might do this!

I can think of a lot of folks I've had the good fortune to have met in these spaces for whom I am grateful for their mentorship and friendship.

Holy crap, this hits hard.

This is an interesting concept. I have been reflecting on how this might apply to me and where I am in life right now.

Tell your friends when they inspire you. It’s not just a compliment. It’s fuel. It encourages them to keep being exactly who they are.

Well, this advice resonates...

Signs you may be stress eating and not coping as well as you should: your laptop keyboard is covered in Doritos dust and there is a full on chip wedges in the space between the screen/keyboard that you didn't notice till now. Sigh. Get it together, Nathaniel.

This has been a very strange weekend. I had big plans to write (got a batch of revisions for my dissertation). Yesterday was LAZY in the afternoon. Then the terrible events in MN happened and I got sullen. My daughter suggested a movie to watch that I like & we did that but I know none of us are ok.

There are many here for whom this is true.

I love this sentiment.

Stupid dry January is being tested. 😑

Sigh.

I think about how I sometimes feel like my femininity is performative. But what if my masculinity was performative, instead?

This is beautiful and really important for me to remember.

Decided to go with "Down on the Upside" by Soundgarden for the trip home. Happy Friday, people.

So, in the spirit of keeping myself positive, I'm talking music again. I'm a fan of listening to full albums. Being a Gen X kid, that's how I grew up. But, there are tons of records I only know the hits from. So, today I'm exploring albums from Blondie. I've got Parallel Lines on now. Cool stuff!

fellas, not many guys know this but being kind makes you more handsome.

Ok. I know I've been crying the blues about stuff for a while. Let's talk about something I love. The White Stripes. Does anyone have a memory of the first time they heard a band? I probably only have like 3 or 4. They are one of them. I was watching some MTV award show and then this came on...🧵

I have been struggling with realizing my own self-worth lately. I know folks care about me, but somehow I only see the negative recently. Thank you to everyone who shows me how much they care.

This spoke to me.

It's amazing how little things can make your day start off well. A warm smile from a friend. A great workout. A good cup of coffee. Even the lady at the bagel store calling me sweetie. I am still a ball of anxiety but these things all make a difference. Be well, friends.

I do think it incredibly ironic that for a dude who has bought like 3 or 4 dresses, that almost all of them have pockets.

I have so many people I am grateful to have met here!

Good morning, friends. I continue to navigate some personal issues and sorting out who I am and what I want. Some days are easier than others, but the support and care I get from folks has made me feel like there is hope for happiness in the future. Be well, folks.

When I was a kid, I saw Bond movies every time they came out and whenever they were on TV. I know the concept of the "Bond girl" has not aged well but I do love seeing images of the beautiful women who starred in these films.

I am fairly certain I did not have any interest in wearing these things when I looked through the Sears, JC Penny's or Spiegel catalogs but it certainly fueled an interest/curiosity in lingerie that has certainly evolved for me.

It took me a long time to lean in regarding this being part of me.

No, YOU ate 2 week old ham with your fingers while standing in the kitchen followed by a bag of ginger snaps.

Get it together, Nathaniel.

Yup...I am in a mood.

Sigh...

I clearly am in a mood.

I still think it's funny when my subconscious tries to deny how pictures like this makes me feel. I love pictures like this.

No, you're up eating animal crackers and listening to Ghost at 1 AM.

This is really impactful.

I don't own emotion...I rent.

Has to be done

What are folks up to? I have had a rough few weeks, tbh. I know there is a path to happiness and I am hopeful for the courage to make a choice. Thank you to all of you who follow me for making me feel like I matter.

This handy flowchart is for any fellow cis people out there who have someone in their lives who come out to them as trans.

I wish I took this advice over at the other place. I deleted a ton of old tweets and I am sorry to have done so.