Observing Caturday.

I confronted my evangelical-indoctrinated sibling about the unchristian horrors being perpetrated in the US. It felt good. I love my family. Fuck this christian death cult.

Adherence to my med regimen has suffered in recent days due to apathy & temp lack of access to a very important piece of DME. I do better on my meds but not that much better. I took them all today (as prescribed; not all at once), did a little straightening, & prepped a challah dough. All I can do.

The cat has taken to a nightly act of disobedience (sitting on the table, often before her papaw's seat). We are guests here & the table is one of the few places off limits to her. The humans will return next week.

Fall allergies in full force today. I need to drop my eyeballs in a glass of cold water for a few minutes. 🍂

Happy Caturday. She almost never lets me take a pic when she is facing the camera. When I pet her, she gave the gentlest bite. It's taken so many years to mellow out the casual biting. #Caturday #catsofbluesky

I watched The Color Out of Space last night & I'm still recovering. A slow burn that becomes an indescribably bizarre experience. Nicholas Cage horror is my favorite subgenre. #horrorfilm #horrormovie #nicholascage

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The humans are getting ready to travel for a few weeks & I'm trying to contain my giddiness. Unlike, my cat stresses when they pack & prep but she's more relaxed when it's just us.

My cat has been watching squirrels on YouTube all night. I'm curious about people who set up treat areas in the woods with trail cams. I want to lure these people into my life the way they lure squirrels & birds.

Greeted by a friend when I took out the trash tonight. They let me take a pic from a respectful distance.

ICE commits political violence daily

It turns out that protecting hate speech did not create the conditions to protect other kinds of speech; instead, it protected hate and allowed hate movements to take over all the institutions of that might have defended the rest of us.

Keep scrolling, watch a horror movie, go fishing in a video game, get stoned, or eat something. Putting on a bra first, once this coffee gives me the strength.

Had too much caffeine yesterday & was up til 5am on a fishing grind in ffxiv. Just made a French press & thinking about doing some fishing.

No one told me that being a master of absurd, unguessable passwords would have a drawback. I thought I was secure. I encrypted my laptop pw but my motherboard was eaten by "a family of roaches", per the computer repair person. (1/...)

Melted guinea pig enjoying a private concert by dindin.inparis youtu.be/2fpIa30D6oM?...

Snoozing with my diabetes kit (insulin, candy, testing supplies), imparting much needed cat energy to the stuff that keeps me alive.

Evil narcissistic parent seems to want to push me to kms. She does not accept clinical depression is real. I've been playing along w/ the "advice" that seems reasonable enuf but it's not enough for the controlling monster/kindest, most giving & caring mom I unfortunately depend on for basic needs.

A lazy Saturday watching tv #Caturday #catsofbluesky

I can't help but ponder the choice of chips. I'd never bribe anyone, but if I did, I'd use plain chips for a neutral odor. Due to greasiness, chips wouldn't be my first choice. A bag of cookies makes more sense to me. I'd want to see this degree of consideration in anyone trying to bribe me, too.

Y’all, I can make this conversation about Gavin Newsom easier on my end. I will not support anyone who is openly anti trans and openly against unhoused people. You can tell me all your reasons for supporting him, and I will simply say this. Explain why your rights are more important than theirs.

Thinkinge of askinge Chat GPT a questioun about your plannes, thoughtes, ideas? Trye a tarot deck ynstead. Cheaper, bettir for the environment, bettir resultes, not evil.

We all live or we all die. We all get saved or none of us do. No one is an acceptable loss or collateral damage. And I will not support any politician who views any group of people as an acceptable sacrifice for election, no matter the cost. No one is disposable.

One of the core duties of the left right now is to model liberatory practice in defiance of the eugenic, genocidal, totalitarian numbskull ethos that governs our state. That includes lived, embodied, everyday practice. Which means masks at our large events, and ideally our small ones.

Sourdough discard pizza with fresh mozz, sliced tomatoes, oyster mushrooms, baby bellas, & garlic. Easiest pizza recipe I've ever used. Crust is crisp & crackerlike. It is one of the better pizzas I've made but there is a lot of room for improvement. www.kingarthurbaking.com/recipes/sour...

My mom wants to have another "meeting" to discuss my alleged short-term goals (i.e a job). She does not hear me when I say I struggling to complete ADLs or apply for jobs, due to clinical depression. Doesn't matter how many times I've said pressure increases SI. Maybe some part of her wants that.

No one gave a shit if a gay man was lonely navigating a homophobic society. No one gave a shit if a woman was lonely in an abusive marriage. No one ever gave a shit if the Black kid in a white school was lonely. But we all need to care about straight white men being lonely. Miss me with this bs.

Couch potato up late last night watching tv w/ me from her sofa. #Caturday, #CatsofBlueSky, #BlackCats

My stepbro & his new wife are here for the weekend, for a backyard wedding party. Awkward for so many reasons but I'll get thru the day. I will be assembling & decorating (as best I can) a big wedding-ish cake later but first order of business: epilate facial hair. Fun times.

There are more important things going on in the world but I just got yelled at for asking if the humans have enough toilet paper for the backyard wedding guests this Saturday. Yesterday I got yelled at for asking if there will be space for me to assemble the wedding cake my mom offered me to bake.

If I follow you & find I'm locked out of comments, I'm unfollowing. Obv trolls exist & I respect that certain topics may necessitate this. But if I can't engage w/ stuff that is cute or of direct personal relevance to me, wtf am I paying attention to you? This place is surprisingly antisocial.

it is impossible to return to a precapitalist past. the world has been eaten up too much. in fact, it is impossible to return to the 20th century. there is no returning. there is no salvation in idealizing the past. we can only take our history with us to build a future we seek

"[T]he kittens opened their eyes and took their first steps and began to explore the world they now shared with us. Then, of course, we petted them. ... It reminded me that I am alive. It instilled in me a raw, unbridled happiness that I had never felt before."

People can’t afford rent or groceries and the federal minimum wage is still $7.25/hour. That is a slap in the face. If you work full-time, your paycheck should be enough to live on. Anything less is a failure to uphold the social contract.

She's watching some springs on a blank screen on YouTube, with insect noises in the background

This wretched houseguest (stepdad's cousin) will not leave. He's been here 4 nights, was only supposed to be here 1-2. No word on his plans to go. I get grifter vibes; he charms my stepdad but gives my mom & me the ick. I need calm to focus on the backyard wedding cake I have to bake on Friday.

Help, unexpected young, male houseguest I've never met before, sleeping across the hall from me; no one else sleeps upstairs. He's my stepdad's cousin but idk him. I am not ok with this.

Please no more jokes about renaming the Kennedy Center after Melania. She is not a sex worker & sex work isn't shameful. Ofc it's a stupid thing to happen, but that has nothing to do w/ whores, who are neither inherently funny nor bad. Casual misogyny is a downer & shows the poster is an idiot.

Conversely, the primal aether of the egis changed my SMN. The connection w/ them renders her a bit beastly. Subtle aspects of her appearance change, as a reminder to her that she is as bound to them as they are to her. Also makes it impossible for her to share glam w/ RDM.

Might get killed for the subpar turkey dog I'm having for lunch. She will not stop jumping on the table.

My stepdad's cousin from a far state (whom I've never met or heard of) is stopping here overnight otw to another state. My mom says I'm paranoid for being worried about being alone w/ him upstairs overnight. Idk how she has kept herself safe all these years w/ zero regard for self-preservation.

Sitting down to lunch & an episode of bobby flay, but started feeling nauseated, so I am waiting at least a few minutes. My cat flops down & patiently waits for me to turn the tv on.

Patriarchy gives abusers the benefit of the doubt, and survivors the burden of proof.

Lying on the floorbed under the fan, belly up like a dog trying to cool down. Coffee just out of reach & requires upright position.