I might switch to my main and make it more recovery focused everyone clap 🥹

Sorry for unloading a lot on the dash tonight. I'm back to normal now I just needed a quick breakdown and tbh this is the safest place I have for that rn 💜✌️😔

Trying to sleep and getting scared that I'll never enjoy food again 😒 so that's fun 😒 I know it's bullshit too bc eventually I'll cycle around to binging i know my patterns by now

The only thing I've ever wanted is for someone to heat me up some soup, bring it to me, and tell me it's okay to eat it. It's not like that much of an ask and yet.

Its been 51.5 hrs I really want to eat now but I'm so emotionally wound up and worn out by like at least 4 different things that on their own would be all consuming and like I've gotta be the one to hold it together

Hello friends! I'm Aida 💃 🐛 Caterpillarsky, pls don't report or else ur a hoe ⚰️ She/her, 30 y/o, minors DNI 🦴 Ana, been in IOP x1 🐈‍⬛ Animal lover and fascism hater 🤍 Video games, fiber arts, & poetry 🥀 I'm ur big sister now

I am too livid to talk about how my fiancé's friends are treating him (not that they've ever been anything but cruel to him imo), but at some point i need to because I cannot believe the absolute class-lacking pathetic jealous loser AUDACITY of these hoes

He really turned me into a dork im sorry for all that I usually repress everything I kind of blacked out there dont mind me

49 hrs i just 💀💀💀💀 dont want anything it all sounds really gross 💀

I want to recover for him how crazy is that having a crush usually makes me wanna starve

Sorry to be sappy on main, I was so shocked when he told me why the break happened bc I thought he wanted to date around instead of miss me to the point of being suicidal. And like I was cool with that if it kept him safe. But I did not see this coming lmao

He took me back yallllllllll

Tw: BC in b0x3rs Okay so my thighs are still flabby but like they do look different than last March I'm pretty sure of it?? The more I look the less I see at this point I have no idea 💀 (right is last March like 20 lbs ago fmllllllll)

YES THIS also im stressed excuse me if my coping mechanisms are fucked I have a disorder my bad lmaooo

Hey any of my moots that are in recovery feel free to unfollow this account where I seem to be getting worse. I'll be back to my main when I start recovering which is an upcoming goal of mine 😅 if I can manage it

I miss my astrology ho friend explaining shit to me 😔♋️ I don't really believe in astrology but it's nice to get an explanation anyway because what the actual fuck is going on with everyone right now?????? Everyone is in crisis everywhere I look

Theres no reason for me to be in a good mood rn except mental illness

Im being stupid

I think I'm hypomanic send thots and prayers

I am not ignoring replies I am busy taking a mondo hit off the pipe, my fellow stoners know what I'm talking about, and im not gonna give it any cool down time it's taking the express elevator all the way to the bottom of my lungs, and then I will cough for about 5 minutes until I throw up ✌️🍃⚰️

I increased my net worth by nearly 4300% 💅💅💅💅 what did U do today? 😎 (I made 85 bucks) ((I started with 2 bucks))

Na na na na na na na na na baby give it up give it up baaayby give it upppP

I dressed super fucked today but it came out kinda cute. Not something I'd wear normally but it's laundry day so

YES YES YES UES ive lost 41lbs total I'm gonna cry and this is with my period and having drank a bunch of water hehehehehehe

I'd gain it all back if I had to idc

I *know* this break isn't bc of my wl but I keep worrying it is and my fiancé is only attracted to me when I'm bigger than him 🥲

I really have like, no one, when I don't have my fiancé. Which is fine when I do have him bc it's just us hating on everyone else but like. I miss him 🥲

I really did good ignoring that its the 1st of the month ive really nailed not being as much of a perfectionist about some things

i said i would make a tarot insta, so here it is. if yall know anyone that might want a reading or would like a reading yourself, give me a follow and DM me here or on insta! thank yall so much, i appreciate everyone that has bought readings from me so far and everyone else for interacting with me 💙

I did eat but i still feel shit make that make sense

Should I end fast at 24 hours or get my 36 hour out of the way 🫠 no im gonna eat bc I'm a grown man with chores to do and I hate doing that in a dissociative cloud of hunger, bedeviled by dizzy spells

I didn't plan well because I've started March on a fast accidentally and now there's a voice telling me to not eat anything solid in March but that's insane I know it so I need to just bite the bullet (some food) but it's already A Thing

Who remembers what deficiencies cause sore muscles bc I dont 💀

We're on a break for a few days 🙃 i knew it was coming and I know it will end but like I keep checking my phone to see if he messaged me out of habit

My fiance and I are probably going a break which we kind of planned on and have done before. Idk anything that makes our separation easier on his bpd I'm all for, but it still like gets me a little upset 💀 like im 99% we'll be fine but there's a hint of heartbreak. Devastation Lacroix. Sad Lite.

I made this as realistic as I could. Living a semi nomadic lifestyle just imagine more clothes ✌️ picrew.me/en/image_mak...

My symptoms have lessened and I'm sorry about last night I have always suspected (and been told by my fiancé, with love) that I'm the world's biggest baby when I'm sick and yeah that's true I have no other explanation. I really thought I might die of stuffy nose. My apologies and good morning 🙏 🌄

If i looked at posts from late 2024 (when I relapsed) i bet I was having a fucking blast. Honeymoon phase and all that. Spending my calories on vodka monsters like that wasnt going to have consequences. 27yo me wants to and should be allowed to punch 26yo me in the face. Stupid ass.

I think I'm just going to recover when I have a job or something I forgot how impossible it is to recover when I have to ration my food that's like come on 😭

Forgot I was allergic to decongestant, threw it up violently. I feel soshit im crying 💀 i miss my fiancé I miss my childhood I miss my mom even though shes a bitch 🥹 Im so sad rn I just want to be okay and less broken

I wish I had a mom that loved me and fed me 🥲🙃

Today. Idk the cals but I feel full so I'm guessing it's enough? Idk I want to at least high restrict if not recover but I don't know what a normal day of eating is like. Feedback? What do you guys think 🥲

I'm considering recovery how crazy would that be

I fear I may be restricting too hard to get to all the avocados before they go bad 💀

I need a scale rn i know ive lost but I need to see it as a number pls

I guess I had 3 meals yesterday cool that seems normal and healthy

Ive had a fever coming and going for like 3 days im so tired

Idk what im doing anymore lol

Im so over these allergies if I have them for another day I'm going to put myself down