one of the fun things about being one of a small number of film studies people in an English dept: i get to say things at cocktail parties like “of course I and many of my friends are looking forward to the annual Christmastime rewatch of Eyes Wide Shut” and then get reactions of amused surprise

sorry i’m late i was standing on my little balcony for a really, really long time trying to decide if i was wearing appropriate clothing for the weather

once again daydreaming of a youtube filter that’s like “i want to watch a vlog on this topic by someone over the age of 28”

i am only now truly understanding the search-engine unfriendliness of an institution being called "the New School", but i'd like to understand what's going on over there, if anyone has a clarifying article link? is it like UChicago's recent terrifying "holds" on many humanities PhD programs?

honestly shocked that i am just now learning that the dude from the Alcohol Stuntband (apparently now a podcast guy and not just the guy behind the album Gold Paint, which i was very into in 2005) was in Trash Humpers lmao

i am feeling inspired by ~Wrapped discourse~ to ask: what's an album you love that *isn't* available on Spotify? i'm gonna go with the 2006 album Welcome Kings! by Daddy's Hands daddyshands.bandcamp.com/album/welcom...

i'm still sporadically working on my 2025 hyperfixations playlist amid finals and i do want you to know that what is taking a while (other than sequencing / waiting to see if one more song obsession takes hold in early december / being v busy) is choosing *which* song by Morphine should go on it

the most romantic comedy minor character coded thing in my life right now is almost certainly the old man who walks his little off-leash dog up my street every day and is always yelling dramatically at it in french because it always just goes whichever way it pleases

i’m reading Lee Edelman’s NO FUTURE, a challenging text i feel complicated about & am unsure i fully grasp, but wow am i thinking A Lot about the idea that the lives of actual children (let alone the adults some of them become) are often made miserable in service to an abstract concept of The Child

“Introduce yourself with five concerts you’ve seen multiple times” except i got as far as typing “my first boyfriend’s nautical themed noise band, Low Tide” and i realized that probably tells you enough

i talked to my somewhat estranged father on the phone today for the first time in a few years (i haven’t seen him since 2014) and at one point he said “ever since you were a kid, i always hoped you’d get into making movies”

my winter gloves are a mismatched pair in black leather w different details, & every time i wear them i think “these are going to get me identified by a recently out of work pianist/art restorer who decided to stay in town a little longer for a vacation, but cannot shake the memory of what he saw”

it’s my birthday so i’m allowed to be vain — here are some photos of me at peak “film director gesturing dramatically” on set for my psychological horror feature Quiet in the House 📸: @oo0oo.bsky.social

i am uncharacteristically extremely struggling to decide on a plan for celebrating my birthday on sunday????? it’s my first birthday living here in montréal so i’m not a regular at sunday night karaoke somewhere anymore 🥲

unclear how i ended up on a page listing all pete davidson’s tattoos (most of which are getting removed) but i do need you to know i am insufferable because i’m bothered by one being described as a “one-eyed cartoon character” when it’s obviously the dog from The Triplets of Belleville

forgive how coffee-stained my copy is, but this Transgender Day of Remembrance i’m making my way through more of an important work on the history (& future!) of trans images in film — Corpses, Fools, and Monsters by @cadenmgardner.bsky.social & @willowcatelyn.bsky.social

i don't use spotify anymore but like the idea of a year-end reflection on music i've been listening to, so i'm making a playlist of songs i was fixated on at different points this year, non-chronologically & w carefully considered transitions, & actually making this myself is emotionally interesting

an update that articulates what the Video Data Bank is, and what's happened: docs.google.com/document/d/1...

in recent years SAIC has shown a lot of disrespect for the unique and important work that the Video Data Bank does, but this sudden removal of some of my amazing former colleagues without warning or consulting with the artists represented by the VDB, is *enraging* www.artforum.com/news/school-...

i've been reading a lot of journal articles & book chapters lately in addition to full books (which i track on storygraph, but it's not really set up for logging articles or excerpts) so i just started a little note on my phone for "things i read this week" in case anyone is curious

uh-oh i think i'm about to enter into an another era of becoming obsessed with listening to every version of a much-covered song (something i did with St. James Infirmary Blues years ago), this time with "I'll Take Care of You" www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8st...

someone explain to me why i feel so fucked up about the death of the American penny???

i can tell that my instagram network is far more Great Lakes-centric than my bluesky one because over there today it’s at least solidly 40% Edmund Fitzgerald

wow you guys i finally saw another film by the director of Sombre (1998) (La vie nouvelle, 2002) and i am here to say i think i am fully Philippe Grandrieux-pilled

i had cause in class today to try and articulate how interacting with Michael Shannon in person is very particular because of his height and overall physicality, which i did by blurting out the phrase “it feels like standing next to a horse”

i just moved so uh if anyone can tell me where to find them in montreal i’d appreciate it, thanks

a thing about me is that i think about the Carl Sandburg poem "Chicago" approximately six times a week, alongside the line from his contemporary, Nelson Algren, when he says loving Chicago is "Like loving a woman with a broken nose, you may well find lovelier lovelies. But never a lovely so real."

shoutout to new york fuckin city baby (yes this is a photo of me directing on a film set in chicago and i live in canada now, but my birth certificate will always say new york, and anyway i think all of us are allowed to lib out for a moment rn) photo by the exceptional @oo0oo.bsky.social

i’m in an art-making seminar at a research university with a group of academics who largely don’t have previously existing artistic practices, which means i am duty bound to try my best to give them The Art School Experience (finding out what your classmate’s personal fetishes are)

My "Rest In Piss" shirt has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt

i am so overworked i didn’t get to many horror movies this october, but i did have the 😱 halloween experience of my vibrator’s motor kicking the bucket—then several minutes later scaring the hell out of me by briefly roaring back to life before dying for good, like a damn slasher villain

there are some challenging things about being single and living alone (as well as some blessings) but one i have *never* understood is why is it so hard to buy an appropriate amount of grapes for one person to eat in a reasonable amount of time?? give me my bachelor grapes

lololol at my using my watch for an alarm to try and get my sleep hygiene back in order and avoid scrolling when i first wake up, only to forget about daylight savings, wake up at 6:30am on a sunday, and then look at my phone for an hour

just got sent a tonnn of amazing BTS photos from set, so stoked to go through these and curate a selection to send out!!!

was at a cute chill little party last night and at one point had the thought “wow they are playing so many of my favorite songs that i listen to constantly” and then the immediate follow-up thought was “ohhhh right that’s because this is a halloween playlist”

it has happened three times recently that i’ve gotten into a real Who’s On First type situation trying to ask someone if they’ve heard the Buckingham/Nicks ~~~rumors~~~ (that they are back together)

i would like to unsubscribe from moral scrupulosity ocd now please and thank you related: my previous therapist (of several years) dropped the ball on ever scheduling our highly anticipated final ~closure~ session in september, how bitchy am i allowed to be in this email when i stop avoiding it?

i know i'm overdue for sending out an update to supporters on my feature, but i shot one of the few remaining sequences back in chicago last week! once i finish scrambling to catch up on other work now that i'm back in montreal, a big update post will be coming in early november 🖤

idly wondering whether one outcome of doing a dissertation on clowns in cinema will be my some day saying in a professional conference setting "while there are elements of his craft and grit I can begrudgingly admire, Damien Leone can't write for shit and seems like a real asshole who hates women"

does anyone have recommendations of academic journals that regularly publish reviews of books of *film criticism*, that are quality journals but also very open to pitches/submissions from ""early career scholars"" with no publication history?

got absolutely roasted in the marxist film seminar for not knowing what the Internationale was and i didn’t say something extremely catty but probably accurate in response, is this personal growth

had some terrible insomnia last night and decided to finally watch Skinamarink alone in the dark at two in the morning boxd.it/brzPQt

haven't been posting bc i'm absurdly busy; i'm both in the midst of midterms for my phd seminars at mcgill *and* currently in chicago working on a big freelance video editing gig & filming some stuff for my feature but here: have an image of Chicago at Oak Street beach on VHS-C from thursday

has anyone figured out how to turn off the "AI summaries" of emails inside of gmail in a way that does not also turn off spellcheck?? these are both considered "smart features" and i haven't been able to turn one off without the other (Gemini is already disabled but this shit shows up anyway)

i made it to the end of a very hard week and to the end of a very long day of back to back seminars including a presentation, followed by a meeting for a documentary i’m editing, and then sat in a park eating poutine and gossiping with a friend as the montréal gods intended, please clap

not me being 13 months too young to apply for this grant 😭 nwfilmforum.org/lynn-shelton... if anyone knows of a film completion post-production grant for a non-binary filmmaker who is about to be *38* to finish their first narrative feature.... please send it my way

saw my first james benning film last night and really enjoyed it, almost cried multiple times about my indelible attachment to chicago and certainly almost cried about midwestern roadtripping lesbians tenderly embracing boxd.it/bd8Da1

good thing i already started having my midlife crisis last week, because otherwise it would have kicked off today with the email i just got telling me my livejournal account is 21 years old

oops turned my bedroom into the kramer red light meme