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🔥 “Center Stage” 🔥 Carissa has a way of commanding a room without saying a word—strength, attitude, and effortless presence wrapped into one perfect moment. This portrait captures her exactly as she is: bold, magnetic, and unapologetically herself. @freshcinnamonrolls.bsky.social

🖤 “Shadow & Silhouette” 🖤 There’s something timeless about the way light wraps around Carissa in this moment—soft, seductive, and beautifully restrained. Black and white strips everything down to emotion, and she carries the frame with nothing but presence and poise @freshcinnamonrolls.bsky.social

I only take selfies to send to people but idk cringe but I’m starting to be okay with myself n living in my own skin but the darkness is calling so I’ve come here to existentially bleed out a bit ❄️ aye it’s f00kin hard tho

Closeups I liked 🥰🖖🏻

“There was once a man who lost his shadow. I forget what happened to him, but it was dreadful. As for me, I've lost my own image. I did not look at it often; but it was there, in the background, just as Maurice had drawn it for me.——-

——A straightforward, genuine, "authentic" woman, with out mean-mindedness, uncompromising, but at the same time understanding, indulgent, sensitive, deeply feeling, intensely aware of things and of people, passionately devoted to those she loved and creating happiness for them.——-

————- A fine life, serene, full, "harmonious." It is dark: I cannot see myself anymore. And what do the others see? Maybe something hideous.” Simone de Beauvoir, Woman Destroyed

Some film of me in a moody reverie back in Pennsylvania a few weeks ago 🖤

I have been such a nuisance this autumn Someone needs to take me away from society for a quick minute before I turn into a Bond villain

🪷from a morning walk🪷 gunna try again tomorrow at life

And there’s been writing but mostly editing because there has been too much writing and feeling and here is some of it 💌 these are rejected parts of edits that felt displaced in the greater poem so they were trimmed out, but I like them as they are like in this patchwork poetry reject pile

I am tuirse af I can’t wait for this year to be over

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

Made it to the cabin, found a frog, happy to be home in the Catskills

I was going to the beach but then I had a panic attack and then it started raining and now I’m good and the storm is over and I think I’m just going to cook and cry instead This is the abyss I choose to scream into today I should probably leave the house tbh But, Eh 🤷‍♀️

Eh, still. But, Three weeks till I’m running barefoot through the woods that I call home again

It’s your privilege to find me incomprehensible. I gave you my minutes; let them remain ours. I hope I haunt you. Theodore Roethke, from “Straw for the fire.”

Sweaty shiny summer days with family biking around the island

Random Rock Song Of The Night Dust In The Wind by Kansas This was the second big hit for Kansas, following "Carry On My Wayward Son." With two hits under their belt, they were able to headline arena rock shows into the late '70s. #ClassicRock #ClassicVinyl #RockNRoll youtu.be/tH2w6Oxx0kQ?...

My heart hurts both emotionally & physically

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THEY LITERALLY DID THE ONION HEADLINE

Don’t want the others to know I’m awake so it’s a blsky day today

Ugh I’m unhappy

There are worse fates 🤷‍♀️

WE ARE DAILY WITNESSING CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY.

jesus fucking christ