My grandmother has been having one ok day, followed by a couple of very bad days, and today was a very bad day. I’m still on hiatus. Please hug those you love for me.

(Kpop post) (Special warning for Shawol’s, this is regarding today, December 18th) Hey, if you have any friends who are into kpop, and who have been in the kpop world since at least 2017, they might’ve been feeling extra sad today. If that’s the case, please give them a hug for me. 🩵

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Tw elderly relative talk My grandma hasn’t been doing well, and it’s been affecting me more than I thought it was. She’s become angry, mean, almost vindictive while at the hospital. She’s refusing to eat, drink, and to take her medications. Yesterday my father said that she tried to bite a nurse.

Suddenly feeling like a joke, an unwanted waste of space, an absolutely unnecessary loser in this space. Having really bad thoughts about my body and have convinced myself that I deserve literally nothing good or nice, and that I should disappear. Gonna log out for the rest of the weekend. See ya.

I just wish someone would offer me a collar, you know, like deem me worthy enough to do so.

Hey chat, have I mentioned lately that I’m super soft? Like, “made of cumulus clouds and cotton candy” kind of soft. I just wish I could share that softness with someone.

Hey chat, I need 1) a sweet and soft makeout session, 2) a hot and heavy makeout session, 3) to be lavished upon and worshiped, 4) to lavish attention and love upon someone and to worship them…

I want someone to get lost in my eyes, falling madly & deeply in love with me, realizing that they can’t go another second without me, until they can’t wait another moment, confessing their undying love for me, begging me to stay with them… …but my anxiety won’t let hold eye contact with anyone. 😪

Oops, I mean what? I’m super tired, and cold, and I really need to be asleep (and not imagining things that might lead me to having a hands-free orgas-[SIRENS BLARE RIGHT NEXT TO YOUR EARS] 🥱

I want someone in my life who I can randomly, and without prompt or warning, send a voice note calling them a good boy. Calling them *my* good boy.

My cpap machine says that I used it for less than four hours last night, which might explain why, when I randomly started thinking just now about how emotionally taxing it is to shower these days, I started crying.

Even tops like praise!

It me.

So yeah, I don’t have any “date night” outfits, but I like all of yours. Yours are all super pretty, debonair, and hotty hot hot. 💜

Y’all, I don’t have a “date night” outfit. I’ve never needed one, and I don’t really know what constitutes as one tbh. So don’t ask me out in a date, I guess, or I’ll have to go in jeans and a stretched out t-shirt. 😪

i want to see your eyes blown wide with desire darling i want you moaning and writhing not even able to form the words to beg as i steal every drop of eloquence from that clever mind and reduce you to those base instincts you like to pretend you dont feel as my clever hands steal your thoughts

I don’t want to be a debbie downer, but anytime I scroll on *any* site, I inevitably see horrible news about the world (and specifically about the usa) and like… this world is just… I don’t know anymore. Everything just feels so… unsalvageable. Hence, why I want to shut my brain off. 🤷🏻‍♀️😪

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I need my brain shut off, I don’t want to be cognizant of the world and all of the horrors in it. Can’t anyone help a girl out? 😔

Is it too much to ask for someone to overstim me until I’m a babbling, blubbering, mess of a girl?

Trying something new: How many spanks do I get in my next video? You decide: $5 = 1 spank with my paddle (sound on for a demonstration) I’ll check back here tomorrow morning with the final tally; make it hurt 😘 #spankme

MRI results came back, and i still have to meet with the doctor, but it looks like i am gonna need big time surgery to fix the problem ive been telling doctors about for 7 years. send funds or cute things to cheer me up

@sum1sdad.bsky.social is going to have to have some major surgery… any help affording it would be greatly appreciated 💜 $larzipan417

Sure, long distance toys are fun and all, but I don’t think that they can truly capture what it feels like to have me settle my weight on top of you, while I rhythmically roll my hips and tense my muscles, looking down at you longingly and lovingly, as I milk you absolutely and completely dry.

I think riding someone’s face, while I’m wearing fishnets, until I get so whiny and they get so needy and desperate for more of me that they rip the fishnets open so they can devour me more easily would probably heal me right now.

I would probably cry if I heard any of these, especially if I heard them on a regular basis. 😓

It’s just honestly unfair that I’m not being kissed and held, both affectionately and carnally, and that I’m not being devoured and thoroughly fucked on a daily basis. Un-fucking-fair.

My mom tried to talk about the birds and the bees with me while I was stuck in the car with her this afternoon. Just… you know… in case you wanted to know what I’ve been up to lately. 🙃✌🏻

(Warning kpop post) You know, when kpop girl group ILLIT said “ti-tack, ti-tack, tick, tack-ta-tick, tack (x9)”, it really spoke to me. 🥲

So anyway, the clock app has been serving me lots of videos about “don’t have kids!” and “get yourself screened before sex”, and I feel like I’m getting whiplash. Where are all the bird videos I’m used to seeing?? 😭

Hey babe, I think I should warn you about something. If we [REDACTED] with our [REDACTED] [REDACTED] [REDACTED], you’ll probably find out that I’ve been [REDACTED] to you. Because I often have to [REDACTED] my [REDACTED] while we’re [REDACTED], to [REDACTED] myself from [REDACTED] [REDACTED]…

Dear other plus size/larger people: where do you buy your super sexy, liquid-looking leggings and shorts (preferably short-shorts)? You know, the kind that your ass and pussy try to eat whenever you put them on… those kinds of leggings & shorts. For no reason whatsoever… 👀

I want to be spicy and sexy (and dare I say even ✨slutty✨) on this app again, but it’s like I forgot how to. This is so fucking frustrating. Maybe I’ll go over my “spicy prompts” note and see if anything ~inspires~ me.

We had to get some new booties for my dog (bc the Velcro on his old ones is absolutely dead). He will forever be Not Quite Sure about booties. 😅🥹 (Muted bc of my dog-mom voice.)

It’s already been A Day, but I have about 10 minutes to sit and breathe before I have to run out the door again. I hope you’re all doing as well as can be! 💜

Siiigh… me and who? 🥺

*ahem* I have a suggestion. Have we considered Thwack Thursday. You know? THWACK Thursday? Like when they pull it out and it goes THWACK against the stomach? Oh sure I TAKE THINGS TOO FAR - whatever. 🙄

An angry love confession with tears and a kiss that could shake the earth to it's core from the amount of longing you've had for eachother, would fix me. *cries in Demisexual* I want it, PLEASE

I feel that I’ve been doing pretty well lately in terms of headaches, despite the stress in my family right now, so I find it rather rude that my body has decided to give me a headache tonight. Like, we’ve been doing so well body, whyyyy? And also stop! 😭😪

Someone needs to spend a week in a snowy cabin with me, so we can fuck all week in front of a wood stove. I NEED IT. 😤 I need a snowy, spicy, hallmark romance!! 😤😤

I was trying to take little videos of the snowy woods again just a little while ago, but every time I did, my dog chose the most ungraceful way of bounding out from between some bushes, his little winter coat making all kinds of noise. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Hi hello, I’m still thinking about this/hoping to hear others’ thoughts on this. (Or if you have, or know of, any other “set it and forget it” kind of toys, I’d love to learn about them.)

Alt text: my white-furred dog (poodle + wheaten terrier) stands just outside the sliding glass doors, on the step to the deck. He’s looking out, into the snow-covered backyard, as some Chickadees tweet above us.

Youre going to be okay. You are. Why? Because you are strong, so very strong, & you will make it through the storm. Things wont last forever & you will make it through to see the sun again. Doesnt matter what it is, you are going to be okay. You got this. Chin up okay? You are going to make it.

@starshinepoetry.bsky.social Happy happy birthday, sweet Melody! I hope you have a lovely day, you deserve all of the happiness and love in the world! 🥳🫂💜

Alt text: the birch, cedar, and pine trees along the path in the woods. Snow lightly falling. A chickadee lands on a nearby branch, tweets a few times, before flying off.

Soft Snowy Sunday