If god really is real, then I have a bone to pick with them bc why did they give me all of this shit that’s wrong and broken with me AND THEN make me an ugly crier ON TOP of that??? Rude.

I’m suddenly really *really* missing my silly, grumpy, snuggly and snorty little man.

Anyway, I’m still feeling really crappy, but I’m trying to ignore it bc it’s my last evening home alone until probably next spring so… 🤷🏻‍♀️

A couple of weeks ago, I saw a compilation post somewhere of all of someone’s finished crossstitch and embroidery projects, from when they started stitching until this year.

Me @ me:

On the one hand, I haven’t been feeling like “just a slab of meat on the internet” lately, which is good. But on the other hand, I sort of feel like a farce, a joke, and an unnecessary presence in the nsfw sphere.

Feeling a little (a lot) like pure gar-bage today. I have a lot of cleaning to do, so I probably won’t be around here much (oh no, what a tragedy 🙄). I hope you all have a lovely Saturday, see ya. 💜

Shift in mood from my last post: did you know that my chaperone of a dog can read my mind I guess? He always decide to use my arm or leg or thigh or stomach as his personal pillow at the “perfect” time, so that no matter how h-word I’m feeling, that h-word-ness is instantly squashed. 🙃

Different pupdate, and tw pet death: It’s been a few years, but I can’t take his birthday off of my calendar. Brb, gonna go hug my dog.

I just wanna listen to kpop, eat snacks, & hang out with a friend, while we watch the chickadees eat the birdseed I put on the railing outside. Simple. I guess step one would be to find a friend who’ll listen to kpop with me. Actually, I guess step one would be to find a friend in this city. Damn.

Pupdate: Can somebody come and tell my dog’s tummy to stop making tummy-sounds, bc it’s past midnight, it’s chilly, and it’s raining out, so I don’t really want to have to take him out to the backyard anytime soon. 😓

Hey, is someone slipping one of my old escitalopram pills into my morning meds everyday or something? I’ve been feeling very 🫥 for the last couple of weeks, and I don’t like it.

I’m extremely tempted to put a skip the dishes (Canadian uber eats) gift card on my throne bc holy guacamole I’m craving a carbonated beverage so fucking badly. But now I remember that it takes days for throne to process digital gift cards, so I’d get it on like… next Tuesday. So nevermind! 🤷🏻‍♀️

Would being overstimmed, while my whines, moans, and blushing giggles are drowned out by embarrassing amounts of praise, fix me? Yeah probably, even if it’s just a temporary fix.

The sky looked like cotton candy, when I walked my dog this morning at 7am. And it’s been dreary and rainy since around 8:30. 🌧️

I bet you that one day I’m not going to be mentally ill anymore, and I’m not going to absolutely despise myself, and on that day the world better watch out! Granted, that will probably happen the day before I drop dead, but you know, either way it’s something to sort of look forward to I guess.

I have things sort of half set up to take spicy photos today, but I feel zero motivation to do it. I don’t know what triggered it, but I haven’t felt attractive at all for the longest time. 😪

I’m so chilly, there’s frost in the grass and I can see my breath in the air. I need a space heater… anyone wanna… I don’t know like maybe snuggle under a fuzzy blanket with me? 👉🏻👈🏻

I hate that the suns not even out yet. It’s not even *peeking* out yet. I should be in bed still. 😒

There’s absolutely nothing on tv, and I have to get up around 6:30 tomorrow, so I might just go to bed now. I’m sorry I’m so boring!! 😣😭

One day, I want to hear the sound of two Albatross’, clacking their beaks in their ritualistic courtship dance, in person. It’s just a silly birding wish, but still 🤷🏻‍♀️

I need to make my Birdsday Thursday post an actual thread, not just new replies to the main one every time. Making it a proper thread feels like the right way to do things. Idk. 😅

What I would give for this… 🥺😭

Can somebody come tell my dog that the chipmunks are not living *inside* of the planter box, so he doesn’t have to jump into said planter box and start digging, covering himself in soil, and making me have to give him an impromptu bath outside on the patio in the cold??? Please and thank you. 😪

Not my phone auto”correcting” the word “gremlins” to “Germans”. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

I wish that I could be sexier and spicier for you, so that you craved me day and night, when awake and when in dreams, all the time, constantly.

My 🐈’s almost fully waxed now. 🫡 That took way more effort than I’d like to admit. Eurg.

If anyone wants to join me, I’m going to take my dog for a walk in the woods now. Don’t worry, I have the bear bell and the bear whistle, so we’ll be safe (hopefully).

Oh. Oh, I’m home alone now. I’m not used to this. 🙃

Me, every single morning:

I simply want to be wanted, and to be desired, and for someone to want me all to themselves, and to want to give all of themselves all to me and only me.

I can’t wait until I’m home alone tomorrow. I’m gonna take the opportunity to wax my 🐈. Maybe I’ll feel ok enough about myself that I’ll be able to take some pics afterwards… maybe… we’ll see.

How much did you miss me? 💜 #nsfw #bbw #realnsfw #fansly

It me.

Looks like we had a chunky visitor last night (that the [usually useless] motion sensor camera that my father has in the backyard didn’t see 🤦🏻‍♀️).

Sorry, my stomach hurts and I’m not being a tough or brave girl about it. In fact, I’m being a whiny and needy girl about it.

I just wanna sit in someone’s lap, wrap my arms around their neck, and bury my face against them. But I know that I’m too heavy to do that, and that breaks my heart a little (a lot).

When my eyes wear that post bliss gaze after I came undone under you, When only moans escape my mouth because I can't form sentences from how good you make me feel, Everytime we laugh, everytime we kiss, everytime we cry together... Every minute, every second.. Those are the moments I say I'm yours.

I mean I’m asleep. 😴😴😴

I need to get fucked and filled until it’s dripping out of me SOON FUCK UGH it’s been WAY TOO LONG

My grandmother’s doing well enough and she’ll probably (🤞🏻) be sent home tomorrow morning. That means my parents will most likely be heading to their cottage on Wednesday morning, bc they have to close it up for the season.

I just wanna watch someone jerk off for me, that’s it that’s all, it’s honestly really simple.

I want kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses and kisses

My dog woke me up at 4:30 to take him outside, and I honestly don’t think I slept at all afterwards. 🙃

chances are you’ve heard about Faye and what a talented writer, crocheter, VA and photographer she is (alongside being gorgeous and so very sweet). she has commissions open, a kofi shop that has something for everyone, throne and cashapp where you can tip her, and a fansly! feelgoodfairy.carrd.co

forehead kiss deficiency (self-diagnosed)

Tw grandparent health My parents & I visited my grandma today who’s been in the hospital since Thursday. She’s doing ok, but it was hard not to show how heartbroken I was at the end when I gave hug her & kissed her cheek, and she looked so confused & surprised bc she couldn’t remember who I was.

Excuse me while I sigh heavily at the thought of this… ☹️🥺

For the record, the origin of my username isn’t as exciting as you might think, but all of these posts explaining peoples usernames is just making me want to change mine. Mine is just so stupid. 😅🤦🏻‍♀️