God I miss my partner that died in May. Even for like the stupid little shit. If I found neat or funny or cute picture or or video or I made something stupid and mindless whatever there were always happy to look at it and sharing my joy. -Continued

I guess I am just a weak ass loser. Went to another specialist today to figure out why I keep getting worse. All the tests came back, and she gave me the results. I'm perfectly healthy and nothing is wrong.

Don't know if it's just my diet. Or my medical problems or just getting old. My hands and feet are so damn cold anymore. Even in gloves my hands get painfully cold all the time now. Fucking hell. Just came from the store. Little old ladies walking around with less clothes on looking much warmer.

Sorry about that #Alaska That WASN'T an earthquake, that was just my stomach.

Weight loss is really kicking into stuff. Stopped one of my blood pressure meds a month ago because my pressure was getting so low I was having dizzy spells. Dizzy spells are back, may need to stop/reduce my combo pill blood pressure medication. Picture is just after sitting down during dizzy spell.

Finally! Bought a new bed for Luna. Since Klein claimed her last bed. And she hadn't used it since I got it a week ago. Just checked the indoor camera just now!

Coming up on my 1-year anniversary of starting Trizepatide for weight loss, looks like I might hit a loss of exactly 75lbs about then. I really thought I would be feeling better by now, but I'm not at all. Sure it's easier to get up off the ground or out of bed, but like that is the only change.

Anyone looking to adopt a 47 year old brat with failing health and lots of trauma? No? Ok ... I guess I will try to figure it out solo. This living alone stuff is stressful. Afraid all the time now, what if something happens to me. There is NO ONE to help me. One bad slip on the ice or stairs. Dead

I'm just so tired... I don't want to anymore.

My blood work came back ... Numbers continue to get worse.

Been like this so long my arm is falling asleep ...

Klein and Luna get the zoomies.

Finally snagged myself a legit Alaskan made ULU knife.

My dogs.

His stitches look good. They did a good job. Just horrifyingly expensive.

Does anyone know any of the Alaska Native Ivory carvers, or a group of them preferably, located in or near the Mat-Su valley here in #Alaska I need to get in touch with them. I need to find a new home for some of my partners old stock of ivory.

I think I should probably get a new fire extinguisher....

Haul from the farmers market in #palmeralaska just now. Just 1 out of a full bag of salmon from North Soul Salmon and salad greens and carrots and a couple small heads of broccoli.

My great Dane loves the wind going in one ear, whistling through the empty skull and out the other side.

Someone did NOT enjoy being at work with me and spent the entire day stressed out. They ate dinner and are now done with this day.

The guilty party this morning....

And someone decided I haven't spent enough money lately... So we are sitting in the urgent care vet now this evening with a deep cut to a paw....

#Alaska #NANA This jail is owned and operated by NANA Corporation, the Kotzebue based Native corporation! When are NANA shareholders going to hold their board and management responsible? Would they want to be treated this way? www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025...

Trying to sell my partner's motorcycle now. God damn I hate selling shit manually. Messaging and negotiating with so many people is mentally exhausting for me. Everyone desperately trying to undercut and not pay 1 extra penny for this damn thing. Insane low-ball offers and weird trade offers.

Hey #Alaska folks. I just tried something new and it was so amazingly good I just had to share! This stuff right is SO GOOD!

@plushlife.bsky.social Tackle has found his new home.

Fuck.... The lawyer just let me know to stop emailing them and such because every email is getting it's own separate fees. This entire fucking estate thing is just one unending inescapable panic attack....

Fucking hell this estate shit is killing me mentally

Mother nearly my age, with a 10 year old kid at the restaurant I'm at. Kid is outside on a stone railing, doing cartwheels and everything else on top of this stone railing 4 feet off the ground. Mother is giggling and recording on her phone. That kids gonna die.

Getting older really sucks. Several parts of my body hurt so much...

Had a weird little event at the vet. My dog just out in the middle of the room, wagging happy tail. Two older OBESE labs come out of the door. My dog, mostly perks and cocks his head slightly, front lab, happy, back lab instantly goes demon mode when seeing my dog, - cont...

That is officially the most expensive shipping I have paid yet...

At his ideal weight according to the vet.

WUT?

SOLD!

Something feels very different in the world right now. It's hard to explain. It's like I don't know something is different

Got to say. If I sell ANYTHING of value like this again, I WILL NOT be doing it manually in PM's. Anything else in the future will be going onto eBay or some such. Being the middle man, being directly involved in someone getting hurt by losing their bids is messing with my head BIG TIME...

I know no one else has ever said it. But I gotta say, some of these decisions by insurance companies are just so stupid... It would have broken them to just pay this tiny bill in full? Now both me and the provider will have to spend MORE than the $2.66 they refused to cover, to deal with paying that

My coworkers are so fucking exhausting for me. I live and work in deeply conservative area. So naturally everyone is hard-line conservatives, except the one worthless guy I have to practically babysit so he does his job, he's at least somewhat closer politically.

Any plushie lovers out there interested in a pre-loved custom plushie "Tackle" made by @plushlife.bsky.social My partner died and Tackle needs a new home. He's got a little staining on his wings from years of petting.

Anyone know if there is any kind of market for these things? Thinking they might be worth trying to sell, but I don't have the slightest clue what or if anyone would want to buy things like this. Pretty sure my partner hand painted the bigger figures and they are heavy like made from metal.

Someone's cow got loose and they got into my dog yard.

So damn little things I keep having to figure out how to fix due to my partners death. A million accounts need to be transitioned. Like my Verizon account, somehow his phone was flagged as primary, so when I went to turn off it's service it refused to stop the primary phone on the account.

And... I didn't win the lottery this week. My retirement plans are looking dim. Either I win the lottery or I am going to die miserable sitting at work till the end comes

Anyone in or near the Mat-Su in Alaska want to buy my partner's motorcycle? Finally got it transferred into my name thru the estate. I don't want to keep it.

Guess I should do the dishes more than just on the weekends. Thought about running the dishwasher last night, but didn't. I had a dream (mild nightmare) where me and some other people were getting yelled at by someone (no clue who now) for leaving dirty dishes in the sink.WASH THEM WHEN YOU ARE DONE

Returned the damn old as hell equipment to Procare in Wasilla. Damn vultures. Couldn't even wait 24 hours after my partner died before they called me up demanding their shit back. I made sure to get a signed receipt from them when I brought the equipment back. Do NOT trust such greedy selfish people

Bloody hell. Needed to get an estate attorney to deal with this crap ... Boom. There goes $3,500 to just the retainer. First time ever hiring a lawyer. Why am I more scared now than before the lawyer?

I posted a nearly identical thing as my last post on here. On Facebook. So my mother started spamming me with recipes after recipes of all these really fancy dishes with tons of cut up veggies and like well over a dozen different ingredients. Are we even the same species? I just closed Facebook.