the funniest email exchanges of my life have been trying to explain to a very respect-focused trapholics guy that him reading halimeme tweets isnt me tricking him into saying something transphobic. 3 pages of explaining halimede to a cool but skeptical cis guy has made me really reflect on things.

i’ve been thinking of what could even be said about such a tragedy. someone said it best that trans people are “born so late and die so young”. we uproot our lives and transition and live more life than anyone else ever does and society punishes us for it. we deserve better

its an absolutely headf*ck after having a movie get caught in limbo for an extra year or so to suddenly have lots of people see it like no matter what they say its very, just, idk, strange? vulnerable? stressful? i guess thats releasing art or something but its really a new experience.

EVERYONE LOOK HOW TALENTED MY FRIEND IS

i saw the film last night, and it's such a vibe. can fully vouch for bugs's fantastic performance. it's called God's Country, and i hope y'all get to see it soon.

oh also the movie's called God's Country

it's like filled to the brim with radical transness and queerness and i have a monologue about freeing palestine and like it's just so Much and idk i don't fancy myself that much of an actor so being told i did good is cool

okay no but for real it feels insane that i starred in an indie feature that we shot a few years ago and it debuted last night and people like my performance i haven't seen like any cuts of the film, but if it's available anywhere im gonna be insufferable

never show people rough cuts it makes them too surprised when they see the final.

it feels like a lifetime ago but we made a really cool movie :3

my premiere absolutely crushed, huge laughs, people were touched. i was so insanely nervous about how it would be received and we have such a beautiful movie and people i love were there and im just in awe. 15 minutes of my just being happy and in awe of my night.

the theater guy was doing tech check and he let me just watch the whole movie in the theater by myself it was sick

tonight the premiere

sometimes bugs does drugs and gets sad and listens to music and unfortunately like a municipality of people follow me so we go on this journey together

lowkey i dont understand why more people arent into being gangb*nged it seems so obvious like how am i the only one who figured this out?

about to watch the final cut of my movie that will show in the theater to review it and although im told its perfect im genuinely terrified theres going to be some weird sound or color issue and i wont have time to fix it i couldnt be more nervous.

about to watch the final cut of my movie that will show in the theater to review it and although im told its perfect im genuinely terrified theres going to be some weird sound or color issue and i wont have time to fix it i couldnt be more nervous.

i think about my poor friends that have heard me go on about this movie every day in spaces for 5 years straight and when they finally see it on thursday itll be like 'you ran your mouth this much for half a decade over 90 minutes of synthwave and dick jokes?' yeah, basically.

the government posting death threats to my community and using a quote from the movie Taken to do so is leaving me with emotions that have yet to be named in german

no filter my face is really starting to feel right.

considering asking every guy in my nsfw inbox that thinks we are friends to appear in a mini documentary where i ask them about their relationship with social media

its interesting you can post porn on bluesky and not screw up your algorithm.

legit.

maybe my thing with building a House was stupid and i was taking the wrong lessons from paris is burning but when it feels like it cant get any worse i think about the circumstances of this photo and know in my heart i have something so powerful.

specs appeal

the funniest bit in the world would be to wake up from anesthesia after gender surgery and pretend to massively freak out that you made the biggest mistake in the world to screw with the doctors.

i'm not gonna say the economic instability is a huge factor in this observation, and obvs it's intentionally hyperbolic, however,

i wanted to invite a lot of industry to my premiere but my producer is like see if it plays well with an audience and if it does we'll do another screening for them and its like, dude, its going to play well just invite the people

face down ass up that's the way we die under the boot of fascism

i always find it kinda weird and disappointing that trans nights always have zero cis people. doesnt anyone have a cis gf or doesnt some cis butch lesbian wanna come hang? the whole premise of those events can be weird if you overthink them.

OUR MOVIE IS PLAYING IN A SICK THEATER THIS WEEK AND ALL THESE COOL PEOPLE ARE GOING TO BE THERE!!!!!

specs appeal

unforgettable.

falling out of cars

growth is learning that some people are gonna think you're "a lot" and "too much" and "just generally kind of annoying" and there's nothing you can really do about it so just keep being yourself anyway 💕

i remember the first time a hot 24 year old stripper invited themselves to my house, instantly slammed a bag of coke on the table and winked thinking it was the coolest thing ever cut to 20 minutes later trapped on a couch listening to rants about cancel culture for 3 hours straight and just in hell

i think its far more important for baby trans to see castration movie ii than it ever was for them to see paris is burning.

i think it was fair to say “social media isn’t real life” until like 2019 or 2020, but ever since then real life and social media in most cases are heavily intertwined

if anyone knows any big important movie people, our friends and family screening is next week and its such a nice theater id love to have any industry people there to be blown away.

i did 30 takes of the line i wanted then we did a bunch of silly ones at the end for fun and its so frustrating that in terms of pacing, performance, delivery and hit the one where we did 'im pickle rick' is noticeably by far the best clip we shot. just so frustrating for that to be.

theres many reasons to heal and one really good one is that if you dont you become boring.

i saw this on insta and i have no idea who this person is or where it was taken the teas were awesome

theres many reasons to heal and one really good one is that if you dont you become boring.

i asked someone who'd seen it if my movie was too niche trans or if it was universal and they said it wasnt niche trans it was niche arthouse-style and ya know what, ill take that, yeah. it is way f*cking artsier than regular movies i forgot that people dont watch wong kar-wai movies all day like me

ill never use either take but i shot the big murder finale having the hitman say 'pokemon go to the polls' and 'im pickle rick!'

appreciating queer sober spaces so much lately. too many queer community events are full of people who really shouldnt be doing drugs. sooo much less bs with people on the healthier side of it. so much less drama.

shot the last line in my movie pickup and after months of trying to come up with the perfect line im delighted that it ends on such an absolutely dumb outro. like imagine the summer way to end it's beautiful

shooting alternative last lines for my movie tonight and trying to figure out if its worth shooting the dumb ones like is it really worth the time on set to shoot 3 takes of the hitman saying 'pokemon go to the polls' when i know im never actually using that.

somebody told me there was a third party plug in that let you do spaces on bluesky and if anyone knows anything about what this is called or how i run it it was would be a game changer for me.

i got recognized by my porn name on omegle when i was yelling at nazis, just a terrible life milestone.