One month post op, here you go. I love all of you who have supported me. I can’t hide my joy here.

28 days after my nullification, I have successfully achieved orgasm. And it was SO MUCH MORE intense than almost any other orgasm I’ve ever had. I don’t know if that was the month long celibacy or the nullification but it felt so good and strong that it honestly hurt (in a good way.)

Hey you. Boy. I’m proud of you. You did the thing. That thing you’ve been working on. And I couldn’t be prouder of you. Let your null dad give you a big hug. Good boy. Keep it up. I’ll always be proud of you.

I’m apparently old and have no clue what this means? If you mean do I have a boyfriend/partner, I have a husband and a boyfriend but I’m not “taken” as in unable to form other relationships or friendships or sex partners. If it means something else, can someone educate me?

Who wants a blowjob from a cock-starved nullo? The horny is attacking!

Walked two miles today. I didn’t mean to; I just underestimated how far it was. But I had no real trouble doing it. I was slower than normal but only maybe 20% slower. It took me about 50 minutes to walk it.

God, the horny is real. Y’all, I don’t know HOW I’m going to survive another ten weeks of this. It’s not even been a full two weeks and I’m ready to ride the car gearshift.

Update: healing surprisingly well. Dr looked at my nullge and said it was looking good. Swelling, while significant, is smaller and shrinking visibly. My crotch nerves are definitely waking up—little jolts, some uncomfortable and some pleasurable. My crotch is DAMNED itchy/ticklish right now.

1) Oh, this is deeper than I can give a definitive answer for. I can give some advice but I am no expert just because I am nullo myself. I’d make sure to speak to therapists. More than one if possible. This is something you MUST be certain about. You can’t take it back. Once it’s done it’s done.

“…the Faerie, though, were capable of almost any miracle. But their prices were capricious. A bottle of wine for a voice that could charm the hardest heart, or maybe the color of your eyes for the healing of a crippled leg. And never forget, there was always pain to pass through in the process…”

Now that I am in much less pain with the catheter out, it just really sank in that I am nullo and I’m so happy.

Oh thank heavens the catheter is out of me! I might have had to commit involuntary unaliving on anyone who tried to keep it in me honestly.

For those who want to see, here is what I look like 24 hours after surgery.

So I’m remarkably open to most types. I do have ideals though. I love chubby men. Big men. Love big butts to rim. And love big hands and feet. Dick size is irrelevant; I’ve had amazing sex with a guy who was 15” and with a 3” man. And I love sex with nullos.

So glad I got this done in time for Nullvember

Not to be gross or give TMI, but today I learned after you have surgery, you fart a LOT. I am amused but I feel very embarrassed

I’m going to say it. I’m so proud of me. I made it to the other side. With a lot of help, but a lot of challenges too. With actual obstructions from the person I thought would make it easiest. But with help from some of the most surprising sources. Thank you all for all the help.

Well, guess who is about .75 lbs lighter? All done and the catherter sucks. Procedure was good but now I constantly feel like I need to piss. And I cannot. lol.

vague posting a bit here. I’m going into this surgery in a much better headspace than I might have, largely because the healing process is begun with someone I care deeply for whom I hurt terribly a year+ ago. He opened the doors to communication and I couldn’t be happier. Thank you N.

13 hours!

This is one of the sweetest pups I know. If you’d can help, I’m asking you to help where you can, even if it’s just a repost.

Reminding folks that this exists and I would love to answer questions.

From my DnD group:

24 hours! Omg is this for real!?

Preop achieved. All systems green for go on Friday!

At my preop. I’m so excited. And nervous but mostly excited. And the board is so inspiring here at the Crane Center. A free first pic in a month or two of my healed crotch to the first person who can guess which one I wrote/drew.

Automatically rejecting people at the first sign of #transphobia made it such that I basically never had nazi friends to influence me into such a phase. Choose #LGBTQ over #NSDAP

I think about this image incredibly frequently and it does give me strength

Anxiety is fear. And fear, in me, turns to anger. And because there is no valid target for the anger, this leads me to be short tempered Any advice, universe?

I can’t wait to wear spandex as a nullo honestly.

So I have 5 days with a cock left. It’s weird. I’ve been talking to my therapist about being nervous. After all, I don’t know what comes next. I know I want this. But I don’t know if what I want is going to be what I want in 5 years. So many nullos I know seem to have no doubts. But (1)

One week until it’s gone!

🎼Thank you for being a fiend Slaughtered counselors and a dozen teens A parent or two And a couple on a nighttime jaunt🎶 🎼And if you threw a party With some adolescents to pursue You would see As the school kids try to flee That the blood splatter would read🎵 🎼Thank you for being a fiend!🎶

🚨 URGENT U.S. TRAVEL ALERT 🚨 Heads up, everyone. A critical rule change goes into effect TOMORROW, Oct 14, that will prevent people with an "X" gender marker on their passport from flying to, from, or through the United States. Please read and share!!! (1/9)

2 weeks!

So it appears someone is doxxing my son, @giantbritishpup.bsky.social, without my knowledge or approval, but allegedly on my behalf. Let me be clear. I am immensely angry at my son. But under no circumstances do I approve of this behavior. Whomever is doing this, I ask you to stop. This is wrong.

To whomever “Jim” is who called in a wellness check—thank you, I’m fine.

3 weeks!

oh you’re doing locktober? you mean non-committal nullification? 😋

BD&DSM

4 WEEKS!

Hey guys. Less than a month away and I could really use some help on the finances for this. gofund.me/03743a6b3

The void calls me daily. It’s some days easier to say “no”. But it’s calling every day anyway.

My son, @giantbritishpup, is finally heading out of the country and back to the home shores of England, after literally costing my family our mental health and our savings. And yet all I hope for is that he manages to get the mental health care he so desperately needs. I wish you well, Son.

So… The boyfriend is on board with the surgery. The husband seems to have come around. Why do I feel like I’m just waiting for someone to tell me no?

Any and all. 😈