having recurring dreams of beating him up lately

Aries: When you wish upon a star, it makes no difference who you are. Because the stars don’t give a shit about you.

accidentally made myself sad thinking ab my avoidant nature and how i will never feel seen or loved 😔

i really want to be a lover girl again :(

growing my hair out finally

my therapist has stood me up twice now like why

i’m always lowballed at my jobs except bg it’s actually rly wild to me

woke up and decided i’m gonna start running again + joining the gym w a friend and also think i should have fake bfs to spoil me

thinking ab how i need someone to fund my clothing addiction

i am going to die if i don’t get kisses and a head massage and someone brushing and blowing my hair for me

life is much simpler when i’m not ruminating on impossible what ifs

i do think i deserve everything i bought this month lol ill make the money back anyway

ok maybe my time is NOW i have been patient for a long time

pilates tn, yoga on friday. this body will be tea!

feels rly good to say no

my job makes me want to kms i rly don’t get paid enough to deal w this bs !

really into my dreams

i think i got a new signature scent im into

i love silence

i am actually better than this and i hope my brain recognizes that soon

maybe i need to stop thinking so hard ab what i want and just be

wish i was the kind of girl ppl look at and want to do things for and receive nothing but a thank you in return

all of life is searching for a reason to live and continue on in this world

being my good friend means i will likely text u an unhinged insane dream in the morning at 6:36 am no hello no good morning no how are you

nail appt booked, annual check up booked, consultations booked—march will be better

wine drunk today sketching a capsule collection + march plan for soft thug studio + contemplating taking ceramics up seriously

once i am on adderall i will finally succeed

focusing on developing new project

he likes to hang out

need to be prayed over

when i look back i realize that i have indeed created a life prioritizing and investing in the things i wanted (focus on career, friendships with women, personal hobbies) and for that, i am so thankful

bath + edible before bed, i’m so happy

for my birthday i think im going to force everyone to play pool with me and take pics of me in my leather outfit looking sexy af

lowkey the ankle taping kinda chic

life is so beautiful when u understand that ppl are suffering and their intentions towards you are a reflection of that and it’s not actually ab you at all

there are some ppl i wish would forget ab me

getting ghosted after leaving me in his bed alone at 6 am has definitely cemented the idea of me never having kids or being married <3

ankle sprained and swollen…yeah i be on x games mode when im outside

i think that we, as a society, should be giving each other lockets with a piece of our hair or romantic love letters written in blood and sealed with wax. my heart is aching. this is yearning hours

getting my library card + downloading 2nd reading club book of the year and starting my other book on the side yay

don’t know why tf i thought anything romantic meant smthing in my life

i'm actually breaking generational curses by surviving my 20s without marrying a man who hates me

i need to reinvent my look

yummy

having a moment of weakness brb

they gave me the fattest strawberry ever

credit score UP meds REFILLED i love my life