Friends at a fun kink furry con, me, sitting at home, alone. Depressed. Again. Figures. I love my life.

I thought I was ready and have nothing left to give. Maybe I was wrong. I'm still close. And on that thin edge. But man. Depression suuuuuuucks. And it's so good damned easy to turn it off and say goodbye. Shit.

Enjoying Protogen kink/fetishes while getting my butthole/throat violated by tubes. Had my first endoscopy/colonoscopy yesterday. The prep sucked but actual procedure wasn't terrible. Nothing serious discovered which is both good and bad. Nothing actively killing me but still no solid answers

Oh holy shit. I don't know how I missed season 3 of beastars but holy shit episode one. SO GOOD my gosh.

I miss friends that we've lost over the years. Life is precious. Respect your own and each other's. Love each other.

Had an ER visit last night which wasn't great. This'll be 2 posts. First, yeah. In your 20s you'll feel young, invincible, free. But I warn you, take care of yourselves. Your bodies. You will eventually suffer if you do not. Booze, drugs, whatever. Take care of yourselves and do it responsibly.

Just got this lil guy from @coby.gg through moltenlayer.com . 3d print but the cool bit is I believe it was done w/ a multi head printer so no painting. Full color. I know I said "lil" earlier but he's actually quite large. Next to my Disney tiki room bird who is also VERY large. Check them out!

I love how work requires us to do these training courses...avoid fatal arc flash with proper PPE...and where the fuck is my PPE work? Would be cool if you actually gave us shit. I like cool free shit. And not getting zapped.

You know you've made it in life when you're about to start contemplating putting strawberry jam on an ice cream sandwich. Yes, I am diabetic, no, that's not what this message is ultimately about.

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So far after ch1+2 of Deltarune, I feel like I like the story and characters better in undertale though both Susie and ralsei are <3 and the battle system is indeed greatly improved.

Waaaait wait wait...is that hood based off the werewires from deltarune? Cause if so...hecc that's super horny

Finally fully done with Undertale. At least a full true pacifist run. Might attempt a genocide later on but for now I'm satisfied. And on to Deltarune now.

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It really makes me happy to see others enjoying art I have. Also holy eff you are expressive and can pose in a lot of fun ways! Also who's shooting? Got some real good shots and whoever has that f1.4...HNNNNNG MY PANTS ARE WET IT LOOKS SOOOO GOOD

If there's any video, check it out. I'm sure chips has already shared plenty. Chips is a very good performet in suit. And has some real good friends who can really take some good pics. Also. Whoever has the f1.4 I have creamed my pants a few times God the pictures look smooth and dreamy.

Today I discovered that ramune soda can go bad. I had a bottle dating back to 2022 sitting in my fridge and it tastes...off

Brains suck. Why can't mine be like, happy for once X_X

I bailed on a friend for dinner and a hangout. Last minute. Cause I couldn't handle...ME. I feel like such a like such a piece of shit. I'm sorry I exist.

What the fuck is wrong with me. I can't even schedule a simple night anymore. I can't keep promises. I can't fucking manage my life anymore. I have unfolded laundry from 2 weeks ago. Kill me. I have failed at being an adult. I'm sorry I'm such a fuckup friends.

Man... The more I learn about the Undertale story the more I feel like if I ever got the chance to snuggle with a toriel fursuiter. I'd just go into an emotional wreck.

"Finished" Undertale for the first time tonight...twice. I know I'm late by about 10 years. My first playthrough involved getting stuck at Muffet. And I almost gave up again tonight too at Asgore. Needed some help with that fight. It's been...an emotional and moral roller coaster tonight.

MOTHER EFF. Van's mirror glass came loose. Cracked it trying to snap it back in. Stupid high trim level vehicles. Glass is hard to find with all the options and they're all expensive AF. $200 cheapest right now on eBay. *Grumble*

Useless bappers be damned, this cat can still catch your ass in 4k 🤳✨ 🐅: @groggy.catshark.dad 📸: @rfoxtail.bsky.social #FursuitFriday

Also. Groggy really misses suit swaps. Wanna get back into them at cons again some day. Here are a few of my really memorable ones. Thanks to friends that made these happen. Shoot there's too many suits.

Wear it with pride

Serious some of the best fursuit work I've seen. Top notch ad very much high on my wish list of suit makers some day. Big time

Good ol 90s nostalgia. Am I dating myself by knowing the EXACT character without having to Google it?

Omg look it's ME! AND ME! Oh. And this other asshole nobody cares about...ME! Thanks @vertanir.bsky.social for playing Tonga and @pebble.bsky.social who I've never met before for playing Groggy...aka ME! Thanks for the pics @flatfuck.bsky.social

Thanks so SO much to some friends that joined me on Sunday to see the sharkies and other marine life over in Monterey. I know I'm nowhere near as muscular as that other shark dude but I tried. Thanks @lioneltoy.bsky.social @vegatkg.bsky.social @bleuwhusky.bsky.social for pics cause by phone sucks.

OH MY GOD. THIS WAS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ROAD TRIP. Missing Kyu so hard. Crying my eyes out now. I miss you buddy. A whole lot.

Our faces here are the best. We were SO excited to catch other furries on the road. Also. I REALLY miss that car

It’s fun right? I was making costumes during the plastic mesh and sealed paper clay era! It’s so fun to see how far we’ve come :)

I miss anthrocon a lot. Everything from meeting new friends (@galefrostbane.bsky.social I mean nexus folf :P being a particularly memorable one) Walking to primanti bros at 2am & almost getting mugged. Driving cross country w/ @mooglepower.bsky.social & the late Kyu. I rlly F'in miss you bud, A LOT

Wuub wibuwb. Bpppppp..bppp wub...kill me

On the brighter side of life. Hit pagan idol (SF tiki bar) for SF furries bar night. Thanks @vertanir.bsky.social for the tip off. Saw lots of new faces and retreated into my shell a whole lot. Saw some old friends too

Can I be honest. I quit staffing cons finally recently. It was hard. I was genetically programmed to give. And give. And give. And never stop. I love everyone. I love the fandom. But I at the end of my rope I've burned it way past crispy.

Also randomly found an old pic with @thatkrazyk9.bsky.social from many ages ago while going through old pics. Circa 2019

Look at this fruity patootie at SF Pride 🐯💝 🐅: @groggy.catshark.dad (with Chips inside) 📹: Alex 💖

Oh. Also. I was "forced" to take muni metro back to my car in full pup. Nobody poked me sadly. Not that I could actually say much cause the breathing tube in my mouth. Here's the one selfie I managed to grab.

Ok. So. Thanks to my partners in crime yesterday @diskodog.bsky.social @zoren.bsky.social @didgedingo.bsky.social @emptysetart.bsky.social for helping me w/ wrangling the float. BTW, the other guys did some sexy upgrades on it this year and was much appreciated for ease of setup and teardown of a/v

Been. A day. Ran a/v in the norcal furrys float at @sfpride.org Spent but feeling accomplished. Can't believe we're still rocking my ancient JBL eon 15p's after so many years. FAR from perfect but they work and were free/cheap. Thanks to @fusker.bsky.social for DJing and sorry for my janky old setup

Taking offers on my beautiful Ixi suit, Calypso. Made by @artkour.bsky.social I absolutely love her! Just real life keeps me too busy to wear her. Fits up to 5’9, 170lbs. I am 5’3 115lbs and is very loose on me. Can fit a wide range of wearers! Preferably shorter folks! Pm or TG for details.

So umm... Yeah. I'm getting out and doing stuff again. I still get bad thoughts and depression when I'm alone late at night but things are deffo getting better.

Come on Lightroom. Work....please? PLEASE???!!!!

Had an amazing day! Thanks to @flatfuck.bsky.social for organizing and my wonderful BF @bleuwhusky.bsky.social for playing Tonga and bullying people around 📷 @rfoxtail.bsky.social @tripecollie.bsky.social

Crazy e621 Caltrain fursuit ride from San Jose to San Francisco today thanks to @flatfuck.bsky.social who organized this large group! 📸 @ochrecoyote.bsky.social and @nrr.corvidae.org

Goodbye animals who adventured on the @caltrain.com today I hope you all had fun!

This was.....holy hecc. Amazing but man am I wiped. Thank you SO much @flatfuck.bsky.social for organizing. I'm still sad I wasn't able to get cab pics but I'm about to write a professional AF email to JPBX and see if we can somehow do that in the future. AMAZING DAY!

Wait. The what now?