Im always thinking abt the concept of rushing through the life i worked hard for & dreamed of.. trying to romanticize every moment acrually

the privilege of being thought of...included...invited 2 things... literally the privilege of being loved.

the hypocrisy of the online world is just . Frustrating

its so hard to take ppl (fellow leftists) srsly when they dont show compassion & forgiveness to regular** ppl who are trying their best. We want to live in an abolitionist society that doesnt focus on punitive practices for humanity but we cant even stop trolling someone who speaks in good faith idk

*goes on one 2 mile flat walk with camille* im getting into hiking now

i think im self aware enough to know that i consume antinatalism and childfree content bc having a child would be too much money and effort for a middle class lesbian couple in california + genuinely ethically dubious but its doing its job at convincing me i dont want kids anymore... probably LOL

i'm not even gonna lie i've been feeling so doomer about everything in the world lately, it's all so heavy. i just cannot believe how much evil there is and how common it is to be okay with it. i can't believe how many people feel the opposite way as me.

and ofc now what of the resistance.. the thought that the past 2 years were "punishment" bc of hamas act of tangiable resistance on oct72023 and now the hostages are freed and liberals can go back to ignoring colonization but what's next?

sure everyone can "return home" but now isntrealis get to continue to sleep in peace at night where gazans don't have homes or complete families to return to.. the psychological and physical damage, disability... it can't even be quantified. how horrific

thinking about the "official" "ceasefire" is making me so upset lol like thank god for the fact that there is some peace and aid for the people of gaza but at the cost of thousands dead.. all the time lost... all the buildings and culture lost.. it just breaks me to think about

i had a comically bad morning where i literally almost cried because every stupid thing was going wrong and ive just been feeling so bleh about life but being at the middle school honestly makes me feel so good jfdklgjdg working with kids and their emotions makes me feel so fulfilled i am so lucky<3

sorry for caring about pitbulls and muts and shelter dogs but god i hate when ppl buy dogs (period. lol) bc theyre weirdly obsessed with one breed ljgfdkljkdjg i wanted a bichon bc hypoallergenic so i googled "bichon rescue" and found paul thru a rescue. he wasn't a bichon but that's not the point..

i miss my girl

one of my next tattoos is def gonna be “born to run” (shout out bruce) but i cant decide if i want it on my arm, back of neck, chest, or back

#that religion hating dogs is just another reason i hate it kfkfjd how can you claim to be about peace but be disgusted by pure animals 🥲

mychal the librarian really is the embodiment of there being nothing easier than being yourself + being authentic / perceived will cost mockery from the insecure but an abundance of love and admiration from those who #see you

no disrespect to this person specifically but i (and many other CITR WARRIORS) understood that as a highschooler.. and was super confused growing up learning grown adults still feel that way about the book

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my friend is running the NYC marathon and theres no way id be able to make it to cheer her on but i made myself cry just imagining her finishing it and greeting her at the finishline KMS

love california too much to ever move away (+ i want to be licensed 4 my career in this state so dont wanna deal with moving) & nor cal is even more expensive than here BUT i’d be open to moving from LA -> OC for a new adventure 1 day

me being sad asf russell westbrook isnt on a team yet

the great lock in starting tomorrow for me

its crazy that i just randomly know about sports now and know most nba players and teams and wnba too like damn. just unlocked this new "common knowledge" as a 28 yr old

friday night i got high and saw how virginia football fans rushed the field but i saw someone make a joke post saying that the other team's wide receiver got killed in the rush (What kind of joke ...) and i was having such a difficult time discerning if it was real or not and it was freaking me out

i think of it bc i follow a lot of really cool indian girls/influencers and its so lovely seeing them thrive and their close relationships with their family and theyre able to like.. express themselves and date whoever and dress however which is what differs from how my dads side of my family is

love the indian part of my culture.. h8 the fact its intertwined with #that religion

i literally just cried in my car thinking about superman (2025)

I love whatever is wrong with my cousin

who up who toxic and insecure at 28 yrs old

this gif makes me laugh every time

meeting done (went pretty good but i was so nervous and feel like i talked too much LOL) + working on assignment + i treated myself to $15 poke but the fish quality was so bad and im picky af so i cant eat it but ITS OK..

We need Atheism to make a comeback. Not just the promotion of secularism but more people rejecting religion completely. Religion is broadly bad for humanity and just like alcohol and drugs keeps us docile and obedient. I honestly don't care how it helps the minority when it hurts the majority

the state of democrats for the last like 10 years

i get so excited for the opportunity to lead things but then i get so anxious abt them and am like why did i sign up for this but i just gotta #pushthru Aries delusion affirmations: I AM A BORN LEADER AND MY CLUB ON CAMPUS IS AWESOME

#heartissofull moment Bc i had a great night out for oomf’s bday & i just love having fun with my friends & even tho i miss gf i am really happy seeing her get to visit home & see her friends / family & i love my dogs & my career path & all i’m doing in this fucked up world to try 2 make it better

my tabs when i'm writing 1 literature review (dont ask why 4 reddit tabs were necessary)

i wanna bring my freddy fazbear and shadow plushies to my office bc the kids here love fnaf and sonic (me having the same interests as middle schoolers) but i dont wanna leave them in the office and i dont wanna bring them to& from everyday LMAO

the feminist discourse on twitter rn got me right again bc i kinda slipped back into wearing more makeup everyday since school started but fuhkk that

never felt more useless than i felt right now googling if you are "supposed to" toast bread when you have a pb&j. like i was just curious what the consensus was but

ok i literally cannot sleep and am not feeling great mentally so first mental health day of the semester #arrived

crazy mood swings today… ik im pmsing but #damn im always feeling SOMETHING

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I was messing around with my set up for an upcoming event and Brioche came in to browse my wares. It was very cute so I decided to paint an approximation.

i have a crazy update to this & posting the linkedin screenshot will take too much censoring BUT BASICALLY. tell me why i was a Me & msged her telling her i loved her thesis and she msged saying she knows my mom and brother bc her daughter was my brother's classmate. MY SMALL TOWN BEING THIS SMALL

longest week ever /neutral HAPPY ITS THE WEEKEND

Quick question: what the fuck is anyone talking about anymore

reading someone's thesis from my university from 2013 and it's so good so i just googled them to see what theyre up to (me: completely normal) and according to linkedin they're from the same small town i'm from aww jgfklj...

car issues turned me into a shell of a person this past week (dramatic but its like i truly couldnt socialize with anyone i was just on autopilot with my internship &going home dooming) but i finally have a rental & i spent a great weekend with my gf & friends nd feel ready to be myself again yipee

september as a month really just being the pregame for october (true fall vibes + pumpkins + halloween)