hello bluesky, please help me. my mom has lost her job a while ago and my parents since then have still been unable to support me. meanwhile i have to make a lot of unexpected expenses and am running out of money, with no savings, despite trying to save it www.paypal.me/SkyeCarder crypto in reply

sorry for my sudden disappearance, ive been busy with work and also my own fluctuating health

@huggabledolly.bsky.social you posted an mc screenshot a while back and i wanted to share one from the project i was working on over the weekend

all of my crashouts are justified by the way

by the way just so you guys understand the lack of respect for my time that some of my clientele have for me, multiple of them emailed me late last night, off hours. they couldn't wait until this morning, it Had to be last night, because why not

man that sure was a fun and enjoyable two days i hope nothing severely physically and mentally draining obstructs me for a significant period of time until im able to enjoy life agai-

cutenini.........

whats the difference between a dozen or so enemies and a dozen or so compromised "friends" who aren't afraid to turn their backs on you the moment you stand up for yourself and those you love? answer that question and you'll understand me better than any of them ever could.

people assume that because i am kind, because i choose to respect and be cordial with others, that i am easy to take advantage of, or easy to manipulate, and then when i bite back and stand my ground they get scared and make it out as though im jumping out of line

ive been ruminating for the past few days about some recent events in my life and i think its time i make this short but critical thread for my safety and the safety of those i care for

ideating is always scary because i dont think i actually want to die its more like i want to live a life where several factors dont consistently contribute to making me feel like dying <3

every smile is temporary

that scarlet rot shit is no joke

i have a hard time describing the vibes i go for when creating music, but can you tell i was unusually happy when working on this one? youtu.be/Bphuzxf5M5Y

doing the eva card trend

i was guilt tripped into going into work today despite not being physically in any shape to reminder that my needs are something i have to fight and beg for instead of just having them unconditionally met because i earned and deserve it

air filtration and dehumidification should be standard in every single home everywhere in the world, because there should never be a price placed on someone's ability to comfortably breathe

universal serial bus

talk about low budget careers, no food or movies? im outta here, i like skating better

if i was a data center id gladly give up my cooling water for you. just saying.

how governments "effectively" deal with crises: shift all blame and accountability onto the everyday person whilst simultaneously pouring money into ensuring the actual problems dont get fixed, then offloading that cost onto the everyday person

what a pain in the ass

collective fractal fragments of a broken down tired doll call that shit a crysys

im a lot more critical of these things now because ive ran into more than enough people who "care" about me as a performative stunt or on the condition that i allow them to hurt me or people i love, but whenever its time to put action to words they tend to be absent

dont believe i dont notice when i try to advocate for myself and im noticably ignored more when i speak on the things that are hurting or bother me, the silence is defeaning and speaks volumes, honestly

the reason im feeling so tired and dead and out of it is because for a grand total of two (2) days i felt more free than i have in basically my entire life, which makes my life during the week unimaginably more difficult to get through

"...and a crystal cs 4236" why is this video dropping my full government name what the fuck

that awkward moment when you have to specify that you dont want it too new or else it defeats the point of the entire project

person selling me the monitor was like "i dont have that specific one but ill send you a newer one instead or i can just refund you" and i was like "hello?? no?? please send me the newer monitor??" as long as its still crt and not lcd... actually wait i should probably go check that fuck uhh brb

update: i was able to get a few more hours of decent rest, and also the monitor has been secured!!

hi all, i should be asleep right now but i got woken up by nightmares so i decided id start putting together the parts and peripherals i need for a little passion project of mine, but i need help obtaining a monitor, or, specifically, covering the shipping cost of getting it safely to me

reprinted my decorative vinyl print for my leverless, @rainonreverie.bsky.social and i look even better now <3

ive worked my mind enough today im just gonna autopilot until i can get home and play video games and sleep

what the FUCK is going on with my hair

so fun thing im leaning about my skates today is that when im sitting down i can still slightly roll the wheels along the ground even though they aren't deployed so in-between modeling and sending stuff off to print ive just been kicking my feet under my desk for funsies

yes i look up to a fictional robot because he was Right actually

unable to get back to sleep so im sharing this track from mega man zero 4, was listening to it cus it calms my mind youtu.be/i4B_yPWZRdU

cutenini

im glad i didnt continue school for... that. even if i didnt have the word to describe it at the time, i knew that what i wanted to study wasn't actually going to help anyone, that id be feeding a system that hurt people.

a 1.5 GIGABYTE cache is ridiculous

im going to crash out, i need to clear this app's cache and i cant remember how

if you or a loved one were ever forced to use macOS or stock chromeOS, you May be entitled to a hug and a pat on the head.

im not afraid to fall, i dressed appropriately expecting much worse, but i was fine, if i do fall i know its better to focus on controlling my descent instead of panicking which could cause me more injury. always conscious and present in the moment, so that i can react and protect myself accordingly

angel skates attempt 1: so, immediately, my center of balance is different to where it is normally, movement is tricky and i have to practice moving my feet in front of one another rather than spreading them like how you would normally walk

cutemorni...

cutenini

hey so remember literally everything i said about being excited to skate today?

forgot to mention earlier but there is a tiny bit of resistance on the wheels of the angel skates so hopefully that'll help with trying to stand in them