I’m rewatching The X Files for the billionth time. I’m also barely leaving the house, or even my bed and the ED thoughts are getting even louder. BUT let’s focus on the good here - Mulder and Scully are back in my life ❤️

Great, now I’m going to have to check the drum 900,000 times before doing any washing in the future!

Sleepy boys ❤️

Trauma’s a bitch.

I’ve just finished watching The Rookie and I can’t believe the cliff hanger they’ve left it on! I am completely shooketh! #TheRookie

Gardening this morning and sorting my daughter’s room this afternoon ready for a new bed. Knackered now!

I need to start posting again

Having a kitten really gets in the way of doing housework! Ooooops!

#kitten #cat #britishshorthair

Meet Pickle 😍

I’ve got a cracking headache. I’ve taken paracetamol and ibuprofen and now I’m trying to nap - but it’s not happening. Ugh!

@OhHeyMonsterBoy

We got Loki back today ❤️

Having sleepy cuddles with my great niece, Nova ❤️

I’ve just been to collect Loki’s remains 💔

My son passed his driving test this morning! Woohoo!! #SoProud

Yesterday, I went to the beach with my support worker.

Zeus sleeps on my bed every night, pops outside for a mooch first thing, then comes back to join me whilst I have a coffee in bed. I got him when I came out of hospital the first time, and intended for him to be a companion to aid in recovery. He sure is a companion and has helped in so many ways.

My niece has just been diagnosed with binge eating disorder and ARFID - BUT they can’t offer her any treatment or therapy because Cornwall doesn’t have funding for those diagnoses! wtf?! Not sure why I’m surprised though, when they only treat anorexia if you’re below a certain weight!

Argh!

Loki only turned 1 last month and we haven’t even had him for a year. It’s just so sad. So hard.

Zeus is really missing Loki. Hes been in and out the back door like a yo-yo. Laying in all of his favourite spots and just generally quite unsettled. He slept with me all night last night (not unusual) but it was horrible waking up to only one cat. Miss you Loki. ❤️ Love you Zeus. ❤️

I wonder if I’ll ever stop crying over losing my beloved cat?

Today has been hard, but I still went out with my support worker. We went to Truro, where I printed some photos of Loki and purchased some frames for Abs!

We just got back from the vets. Loki has been euthanised. It was one of the worst things I’ve ever had to watch / do. Our poor boy has gone.

I’m waiting for a call back from the vet, but it looks like we are going to have to euthanise Loki. I am absolutely heartbroken and can’t stop crying.

The vet just called. He was really quite poorly! His kidney enzymes were high - one reading was off the charts & his electrolytes were all screwed up. He’s taking longer than usual to come around from the anaesthetic, so they repeated the bloods incase his kidney levels & electrolytes are still out.

I caved and called the vets because I was too impatient to wait any longer. Loki came out of anaesthetic nicely (still a bit sleepy). They emptied his bladder & flushed his system. He’s peeing on his own & just need to monitor to make sure it continues. ❤️ (1/2)

My daughter keeps bursting into tears over Loki! 😢

That’s an estimate of £1,300 for Loki’s treatment. He has a blockage in his bladder that has lead to neurological symptoms. They need to release the blockage under anaesthesia, find out the cause, do a blood test, give him fluids, and monitor him overnight.

I need to take Loki to the vets at 11:30am. It is going to cost £120 just for the consultation because it’s Sunday, but I can’t leave him until tomorrow just to save money - he’s not doing good at all.

Poor Loki has worms! 😭😩

mum | mental health activist | eating disorder recovery | cat enthusiast | lover of woods, forests, elephants and orcas | neurodivergent.

I’ve done the weekly food shop. Now it’s time to collect my prescriptions. Really just want to go back to bed! Argh!

My prescriptions were meant to be ready to collect yesterday, but surprise surprise, they weren’t. I’m going to try and collect them after I’ve been and done the weekly food shopping today. Fingers crossed they’re ready, because I need them for tonight!

Love this little dude

In bed with my snuggle buddy, Zeus!

“You can micromanage your body, or you can live your damn life ….. but you can’t do both”

"You can't keep dancing with the devil and ask why you're still in hell"

Back home and in bed, watching ER.

Walked to mum and dad’s this morning, as I had an appointment out that way. Now I’m out with my support worker, in Perranporth again, drinking ice coffee in the sun. The weather is beautiful!

I have washing on the line that’s nearly dry, and more washing in the machine! The sunny, windy, weather is welcome.

These are important. I need to remember them.

It’s the final session of the peer support eating disorder recovery group today. I’m not sure I can say I’ve learned anything new, if I’m being honest. But, I took part in something that was offered to me by the team and it’s been a useful space to air my thoughts and feelings around recovery.

Even after all these years, and multiple rewatches, Mark Greene’s death still makes me cry my eyes out. Saddest TV death for sure. #ER #TVShow

I went to Perranporth with my support worker today. We had a walk across the beach, a coffee in the sun (and wind) and a mooch in the shops. I’m home and back in bed now.

Mornings in bed with coffee and these two for company #cats #coffee

I’m on to season 8 of ER now ….. two tragic words spring to mind …. Mark and Greene 😭

I didn’t get out today. I did stand in the garden to hang some washing out though, if that counts? Ha!

How do I get myself out of the house? #Depression