ive been trying to think of a new instagram handle for my vanity insta for like a couple weeks now. my life is incredibly difficult and complex

some critters i've been drawing when i hang out at bars! last one is my neopetsona cheerio :D

i got a lotta compliments on my pool playin this weekend :D i didnt win any games but i think the encouragement is helping me like be less anxious about practicing a Skill (pool) in the Public Eye (a very crowded bar)

how tf have i been sick like every single day of april can i catch a break PLEASE

they move now!!!

This is my cool new baphomet tattoo drawn by @windupthing.bsky.social I love it so much 😭😭

Hey #PortfolioDay! I'm Nattie, a 2D pixel artist and solo gamedev based in Chicago. I'm open for freelance pixel art and animation for games - as well as any GameMaker programming roles! 💛💜 PORTFOLIO🎨: sites.google.com/view/vaaasm/... 📧: [email protected] #pixelart #gamedev

thingies

testing some stuffs

being trans is one of my favorite things about me. my biggest fantasy is to feel normal in the world

i lov goin on dates with my gf bc it makes me so thankful we r already dating bc sometimes i pretend its the first date, and shell be talkin about her ideas thoughts life experiences and ill be sitting there like oh my goodness how do i keep this conversation going forever?? BUT I GET TO!!! ALREADY!

Happy Ides of March! Here's a new puzzle pack for Habit Puzzles :) Let's take comfort this year in the knowledge that even the cruelest empires must fall, and our healthy habits will help us outlast them. store.steampowered.com/news/app/426...

CORAROC IS OUT NOW ON STEAM! You can get Coraroc. You can play Coraroc. Now go! Go play Coraroc! store.steampowered.com/app/3963120/...

i remember looking at the open mug of booze that i'd sloshed all over the forest, seeing my half-naked trans body, seeing the furry tail my 12 year old self wouldve killed to scamper around in, feeling loved and free not embarrassed i was just existing

been at job 1 all day now we go to job 2. AND IM STILL FUCKING BROKE how how howhowhow

some more little thingies about going to the burn with my love last summer .....................................................................

trying to be casual about the fact i just overheard my middle school student go "AND ITS HE/THEY!!" to his mom about me during class but im sitting here like

how does one move to/live in nyc. if theyre broke. considering smthg temporary for next year. maybe. i dont know.

looking back at my oc's from high school to college and im like wait was this a trans metaphor

hi

MY STYLE IS ALL OVER THE FUCKING PLACE AND IT IS NOTTTTT UP TO MY CONTROL

welcome to my awesome cult #cotl #cultofthelamb

trying to be at peace with the fact that im swinging HARD into burnout-reset-mode after magfest and just let myself do nothing for a bit

LOOKY i made another fursona his name is MINKY... get it ... minky.... he likes 80s new wave and biting and attacking the other forest critters and going to the club.

is it fucking stupid to try and go to the club tonight its -14F out but ive been getting depressed and stir crazy all week

This GFM for the ICE agent who killed Renee Good is still up and they have raised close to a million dollars. Please read this thread and report the fundraiser. This man killed an innocent person and will most likely kill again because that's what ICE agents do. He doesn't deserve to be wealthy.

on a somewhat related note i finally am getting my medical shit together (guy who had a tumor a long time ago voice.) being not-depressed is wild bc now i do wanna prolong this life lmao

im so thankful i feel like ive found It in years before i'd come home from the big event (magfest) that i structure my whole Heart around, i'd come home to abrupt stagnation and creative hopelessness but this year -

unsurprisingly this came back and caused MORE issues... but i figured it out for real this time. 1 camera.

how do u handle friends that consistently mess up ur pronouns, but DO immediately correct themselves? it still gives me massive dysphoria b4 and after every hang, and i dont wanna mix em w/ friends that DO see me for me, in case that wrong perception rubs off on them ?

#artvsartist ! i got a LONG sentimental post about this on my insta, but the tldr is that 2025 was a lot. my highlights are: - was a guest speaker on magfest alt control panel - showed bloodrage as its own event at a Real venue - showed my solo game, pan, 3x (incl barcelona!) - didnt die

treating myself to a bunch of makey makey go's rn bc i think that will be fun for me ........... i like how they advertise them as wearable too like yeah i WILL be bring that shit around

me and my girlfriend's halloween costumes!!! yay!

i love him !

giveashirt.net/products/goo... i finished that t-shirt design!! 100% of proceeds go streetwise so they can continue to support the unhoused and at risk in chicago!

ive been BONKERS amount of anxious and overwhelmed lately which is fun for everyone around me. and im coping by non-stop drawing, but only drawing things that are avoiding my work or self-imposed deadlines or social plans

elden ring thingies

was throwing a tantrum for myself earlier bc i can NOT trust the process with animating im like this looks god awful (also i hate unity's animator) and forgot that earlier that day i based an entire lesson for a student around trusting the process. lmao

moar of him

my labubu (joe sprinkles) new outfit. i wanted to get him a pink outfit so he can also match the pink side of my closet

Flea Circus

i genuinely have no idea how i set up my cameras in this unity game last year and if i detach any of the like 10 cameras in here it fucks the ENTIRE thing up. so. whatever.

LOOKY i made another fursona his name is MINKY... get it ... minky.... he likes 80s new wave and biting and attacking the other forest critters and going to the club.

wip of my newwww fursona before furfest this weekend eheh. he's an ermine!

i got misgendered in a group dm in my work slack today despite having my pronouns in my slack profile, and like whyyy was my emotional reaction like, /i/ did smthg wrong lol? (i pointed it out and the person v genuinely apologized and it was fine but. idk what my ISSUE is)

the main goal of rodeo rumble (horse plushy game) is for me to avoid programming a tutorial. JUST GET ITTTTT

i dont wanna work on any of the 50 personal project games i have going on!!!! i wanna make a NEW personal project game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whattya do when u have really bad social anxiety but like you KNOW its fine, which almost makes the anxiety WORSE bc now u also have to spend a bunch of energy grounding urself too on top of being anxious. like. why.

thinking about how, on my birthday back in may, my girlfriend interrupted her band's show to make the entire venue sing happy birthday to me........ then afterwards, when i was hanging with her and she was signing posters, everyone kept also telling me happy birthday again .....