whattya do when u have really bad social anxiety but like you KNOW its fine, which almost makes the anxiety WORSE bc now u also have to spend a bunch of energy grounding urself too on top of being anxious. like. why.

thinking about how, on my birthday back in may, my girlfriend interrupted her band's show to make the entire venue sing happy birthday to me........ then afterwards, when i was hanging with her and she was signing posters, everyone kept also telling me happy birthday again .....

colors might change for the final product but here's a sneakypeek

not to out myself as too attention-seeking but how da hell do my instagram reels get less likes than my insta stories ... WHATS THE ALGORITHM!!1!! PLAY TOYS WITH ME !!!!!

welcome to my awesome cult #cotl #cultofthelamb

ok even tho no one on bsky wanted cat + bunny hangout, that was the winning one from all my other socials combined SO! (anyways thank u for the feedback its genuinely reassuring. i have such a hard time designing merch that's meant to be sell-able bc i have no idea. i have no idea.)

i love living in a city where the amount of queer shows art music parties sillyevents going on overflows so much its literally impossible to go to all. i love being me and i lov being surrounded by ppl who love being themselves

and halloween costume #3! we did SPACE OUTLAWS! we went to a v fun happyhardcore/gabber show at a spot thats becoming a new fav underground venue (after my old fav got shut down...) god i lov my city i lov partying i lov music i lov dressup i lov my girlfriend i lov halloween

i need help picking a design for a t shirt if anyone wants to put their 2 cents in ... we got: animal marching band bunny and cat hangout cranky cowboy cat

its #godzilla day? have a zilla i drew for my dad last year

Halloween costume #2 me and my girlfriends vampire + vampire hunter costumes! (U cant see my stakes and Bible in these pics 😭)

Halloween costume #1 my zombie costume from last friday

poor self defeating wirt. he clings so desperately to that self perception of being a loser that he cant fathom that hes actually quite fine ... #otgw

i feel like ive been having such a braindead dull type mood this past couple weeks (for a lot of personal reasons, despite all the good that's goin on in my life) so if we've interacted irl recently and i had the energy of a brick ... umm that is why

guess whos showing THREE fucking games at magfest >:3

elden ring

Sometimes I think about how my younger self would be impressed with what I'm currently creating. They'd be stoked that I took the time to develop the skills to make the art I wanted.

guys i genuinely love her so much i didnt think anyone could feel this much lol . WAIT ALSO ITS BEEN 1 YEAR i forgot to say that in the last post

i love my girlfriend so much and over the summer she took me to my first burn and she kept our lil camp all warm and safe even as it stormed and i got to run around all day in the mud and under the stars and play in the lake and dance and dance and dance with her. here r some of my fav moments

... i drew smthg rlly cheesy about me n my girlfriend and im gonna show her later but im nervous and im nervous to post it so when i do everyone has to be so nice about it LOL

some rigging pose testing !!! and got the mouth shapes rigged up to switchbetween each other!!!

a commission i did for a friend recently!

my labubu, he's a few weeks old now

I LOVE CHICAGOOOOOOOOOOO

yesterday was rlly incredible - started with the games showcase that a ton of my friends came out for, i got to meet so many chicago artists i hadn't met before, my lil sibling dj-ed the entire 3 hour after party, then after all THAT a bunch of us went clubbing til like 4 am lol

the alt-control game i just showed at CIGS! i had so so much fun sharing it and watching ppl figure out the controls hehe

also why is programming tutorials always the most excruciating thing in game design

updating graphics for pan

ive been trying to get one forEVER and then my girlfriend surprised me with him and then she took me to go labubu clothes shopping soooooooooooooooo yeah

ok look at him

im gonna be showing my flute game at CIGS in chicago!!! with some updated mechanics and graphics :)

MY FLUTE GAME!! with the flute controller! (the videos are a little out of sync i couldnt figure that out. sorry.)

Little art experment I did Friday night. youtu.be/yJyCXlypMw0?...

i like having a girlfriend ... she is going to take me to the doctors ......

someone was cosplaying homestuck at the club and i was like hELLO THATS THE COOLEST THING I EVER SAW and they gave me kandi for it

there HAS to be a balance between "i need to remember to make time for my art" and "my space is ONLY art and im turning into a charlie kaufman/close encounters richard dreyfuss type rabid tortured artist and im freaking out im freaking out im "

some painting practice!! i want to get better at .. stuff

the finished patch! they were auctioned off at a fundraising event last weekend. design by me and embroidery by @hippoattack.bsky.social

commissioning my friend for custom music for my flute game Pan and she already sent me some melody sketches and its so good so far YAAAAYYY

homestuck ...

ill literally be working on 5 personal projects at once, sharing them actively in real life, and STILL be like "omg im neglecting my dreams bc im not working on this OTHER random personal project" STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!

working on a embroidered patch design rn ....... its gonna be sold at an event in chicago, proceeds r going to a benefit fund 4 the abrego garcia family

also when i was 7 i thought i was gonna grow up to be animated speed racer i think i just thought i was gonna be speed racer

when i was a 12 year old girl i truly assumed that i was going to grow up and look like the live action speed racer like i didn't question that line of thinking. also i thought i'd know how to drive by now

*goes into a little dirt burrow with my softest stuffed animal and loops mgmt's cover of all we ever wanted was everything*

ok locket again

i love living a 10 min walk from the beach where theres lotsa other trans ppl hanging out and also a dj playing today and everyone was out with beers and dancing. i swam around and sunbathed and read comics then got hot dog on the walk back home. i love lazy summer sunday in chicago!!!!

my sona, locket, if he had long bleached hair like i do rn. and then his usual hair style for comparison v_v

the ONLY point in my 29 years of life did i begin to understand WHY people might want to pursue romantic relationships was the first time i saw t4t couples interact? and i was like ohhhh ... maybe i could try dating ... and I AM AND ITS GREAT

i lov when me and my girlfriend are kissing on the dancefloor so super Awesomely that it compels ppl to run up to us and say how cute and gender envy we are ....