Sorry to everyone. Still doing rough and just want to stay in bed and sleep. Feels like my brain just can't let things go and I just want to be able to get up and do things without these thoughts annoying me. Got a counsellor appointment on Tuesday I just want to be okay

Not doing great. My brain has shifted back to my usual anxieties, but I'm just feeling really low again. No appetite, want to stay asleep, just feeling generally scared. I know I already went through this recently but I'm just feeling so tired of being like this.

My new PFP is a closeup of this sketch that @beefmccat.bsky.social drew and i colored!

Don't get me wrong, from what I watched I think it's a fantastic show and premise. But this type of thing was presented in such a way that the more I thought about it, the more scared and anxious I became, and started to effect my OCD thoughts. Mostly just scared I won't get back to normal really

Yeah pluribus freaked me out and now in a bit of a bad mental dip. Sorry everyone, been trying to work hard and get back on my feet

Only thing about this now is it's set off an old anxiety that I forgot I had. The "what if I'm the only real person" anxiety, and everyone else is just pretending, tricking me, or saying things to make me feel better

Oh man Pluribus is great so far, absolutely terrifying

I created today! I heard a VST and had to try it out for myself. I had a friend give me feedback during the process and we created something really cool! Have a listen :3 I had to save and quit for bed, but I'll return to it and finish it one day!

Piratesoftware cannot just fuck the shut up. Digging himself further now by defending the usage of Ai instead of giving voice actors more work, paid or not. Also seems to be making up people who LOVED AI but now hate it for internet points. Here's a secret Jason: some of us ALWAYS hated it

💕😌We're back again for another round of simple sketch comms!!! 💕😌 Six slots, no more no less. If you are interested in this, please feel free to DM me here or on discord @kainine_draws

First time watching Digimon Frontiers and I feel like the writers just did not like this character lmao Juri Katou was at least well written, and went through so much Izumi is just slapped in the face at every opportunity so far

Having friends helping you out during the job is always nice! Don't you agree? :3 Artist: @beefmccat.bsky.social Colored by me!

Lmaoooo Because I decided to respond to his recent post where he defends Ai usage in Arc Raiders, obviously mad that a game he likes got a bad review score from one journalist Though it's not exactly hard considering he blocks anyone mentioning mana gem

People madge that arc raiders got one bad review because it uses AI. Looks like heads in the sand to me

Some more spoopies today - www.twitch.tv/beefmccat

Just had to go to my previous address to pick up a parcel, because APPARENTLY amazon can have a different default address for wishlist purchases aside from your normal default purchases. Blast from the past with a bit of PTSD

Bethesda once again releasing an update for Fallout 4 that no one asked for, breaking many many mods once again. Is what I would say if anyone actually updated their mods after the last one. But my experience tells me most people just play the build before all the updates.

It's been a few days after the surgery and I'm not in a good headspace. I could really use some reassurance and confidence boosts because I don't know if I can do this again.

Fucking crime when I buy a big bag of crisps, open it, and it turns out 60% of the contents were air. This should be illegal

I made it worse but also fixed it to make it read better beefmcGollum ver 2

Surprise stream! Gonna be playing the Kirby Air Riders playtest. Fockin love the original - www.twitch.tv/beefmccat

There's something about buffing up usually small characters that I find irresistable. Like, the person that is usually smol and weak suddenly discovering themselves huge and powerful is *chef kiss*

I was hoping to try Vinny's shroomjam (game jam) that's just started. But I've been so stressed over the meeting this week that I just don't have the time, energy. Or any sort of prep at all to do a full ass game jam.

Dev for this game gave me a key, full game of Casting Whispers stream! Big thankyou to @casting-whispers.bsky.social for the game key! Looking forward to this! - www.twitch.tv/beefmccat

You can be damn sure I'll be streaming this over the weekends. Love the original so much

Players of the beta for upcoming Hoyo title Petit Planet have noticed there’s an AI chatbot featured and at least one barista NPC whose dialogue is generated by AI Fans of their titles are defending it saying “this is a good use of AI” and “you can’t stop AI at this point.” This is from the TOS:

Had meeting with local MP, they heard my perspective and stories about all the Age Verfication UK laws effecting LGBT + Furry spaces, and are now aware of the way its effected creative and gaming industry. Whether anything will come of it it, IDK, they'll hopefully share my story with others

Rockstar fires 30 people from their UK branch and then delays gta 6 again Just cant even with this industry

New emote, beefmcGollum I'm Sorry.

If you aren't seeing skeets from some of your fave people, they might have been labeled "Rude" by bsky mods. Idk what they are thinking, I don't need a mommy to tell me who to be buddies with. Anyway, go into Settings > moderation > bluesky moderation (advanced) and turn Rude off.

Streaming more hitman absolution with monkey - www.twitch.tv/beefmccat

That Jerma stream givin me TOO many clips to animate

Finally got a date, time and place for meeting local MP about my issues with current labour. Funnily enough its at a community church. I'll probably melt as soon as I walk through the door

Doin some more Silent Hill F tonight, and maybe other stuff - www.twitch.tv/beefmccat

Sharing again to get more eyes and ears on this. At a time of year where everyone celebrates a meme of mariah carey, who this year decided to sponsor AI companies and their garbage. Put your attention elsewhere, on artists actually trying to make a difference

More people like Tim giving speeches please youtu.be/ODSKfN6pSMs?...

#Nov-Friend-Ber @beefmccat.bsky.social A really cool and sweet guy with a great taste in muscles and has a fantastic stream. He is super nice.

I bet y'all WANT me to do this now Context: apparently her video this year sponsers AI bullshit

Today’s the day that Luke and I get married. we’ve both been through a really rough year because of various external factors, but when all is said and done I’d take a thousand hard times with you than a single good time without you. I love you @azzurohotter.bsky.social

Feels like yesterday we met, through our mutual love of Final Fantasy! And I saw you standing outside my work waiting for me! And now through the years you’ve introduced me to so much, we’ve had laughs, tears, a son and now I tie the knot and marry my best friend 🧡 I love you @tinktiger.bsky.social

Early morning hitman with Vurt - www.twitch.tv/beefmccat

If you want to help fund her cremation, I’ve opened an emergency YCH at a discounted rate especially for it bsky.app/profile/sket...

"it's for kids" they still deserve to have good games instead of bs. And anyways the main demographic isn't just kids anymore

I will never accept "it's for kids" as a reason for Pokémon being uncreative, boring and just outright baffling with some of its design choices. Loads of missed opportunities in every game they make

I swear to god if I see one "Mariah is defrosting" meme this year i'm going to make an animation where I just shatter it, and thats it. There'll be blood and it will be over, forever.

Someone I knew almost lost his life to saline accidentally enters bloodstream or nervous system. Hospitalized for weeks. So yeah, it's pretty much hazard risk.

Begging people to stop taking PEDs and injecting your junk with saline, it's not worth it, never is

People assumed that Brexit was safe and it was never. Going to happen. Do not underestimate the sheer stubbornness of racists and bigots. Always go and vote even if you assume it's going to be fine.

i hate to be that bitch, but my sources are telling me this early voting data has gotten Zohran's people rightly spooked and y'all better stop assuming this one's in the bag. GOTV

Reposts and what not are great and fun but if this is your election then it means nothing if you don’t show up and vote. No excuses. Go vote